I guess I’m tired of hiding from the world. It was bound to happen eventually. The silence in my head was hurting my ears. It is somewhat good to hear a voice again, though I’m not quite certain just yet what voice it is. Might be mine.
I realize just how out of touch I am with everyone and everything. I don’t even know if my ‘friends’ are out there anymore. I know some very important ones are not. Wish I could fix that. But you know what they say, “If wishes were horses, beggars w
Not brilliant words, but the first I have written in ages. I am hoping they have made enough of a crack in the wall for me to get through. Maybe it has, because I just finished sending a long email to someone I haven't really "talked" to in a while.
I've been avoiding most everyone for a while. Mostly because I have been withdrawn inside myself. I'm trying to get out of there because "inside myself" is a really anoying place to be. You all are much more interesting that I am and I wou
So every once in a while priorities need to be adjusted, which is why I haven't been 'around' much lately.
Sam has always been a good student. He still is. But it seems that he has had some difficulty with his math class from the beginning of the year. Now, I knew he didn't like the teacher's style. He said that the first week. But what I didn't know was that he was finding it difficult to follow him and was getting behind because he hadn't been doing the math homework. Apparently he
Nothing profound here tonight Sorry.
Things come in 3's, or so they say. I really hope that is true. Last night my nearly 3 year old cat Tribble died suddenly, and I mean suddenly. I went upstairs to watch hockey and she was fine. About a half hour later, Sam comes out o his room and then comes running into me saying that Tribble fell over on the landing. Sure enough, there she was just lying there. I gave her some water and she drank it, turned over and died. She was always healt
A reminder to someone I love that hearts have infinite capacity to love and that love is never diminished when it is shared with others.
The Capacity of the Heart
What is the capacity of the heart?
I think of those I
One day everything is in the future and you make plans for a day that is forever away. Then the next day that day has passed; you blinked and it ran right by you.
This is life in a few words. Many have phrased those words much more eloquently than I. Pink Floyd expressed the idea beautifully in Time.
Ever notice how the grand statements about life tend to apply on both large scale and small scale? There is a consistency in such things. Of course, people who understand things li
You Are The Emperor
You are an authority figure, and other people look to you for what to do.
You are strong and powerful. Crossing you is not a good idea.
You have worked hard to get to your position, and you're not about to give it up to anyone.
Though you have a warrior heart, you are gentle to those who treat you well.
Your fortune:
In the near future, you need to be willing and able to defend those you love.
This may be the time for you to step up and be the authority f
The Labor Day weekend was pretty good. I did some organizing of paperwork, which is a nice, relaxing anal-retentive task. Scott and Sam think I am nuts for finding that relaxing.
We spent a lot of time outside this weekend. The weather was great and the pool was nice. I don't have a bandage to worry about anymore, so took advantage of the pool. We had a water balloon fight at one point. Scott accidentally hit me in the hand, which ended my participation. Stung like hell and I had a p
The greatest frustration is to be without words to express what you are feeling. I have a dictionary full of words. I have a thesaurus full of words. All the words in the world are at my fingertips. I can find any word I want with the turn of a few pages or the click of a few keys. Yet I am at a loss for how to put them together to say what I feel.
That is maybe not quite true. I can say words that would get the point across. I might even be able to say them prettily or with some se
I'm going to whine now, so be forewarned.
My hand hurts. Well duh...I suppose it is supposed to hurt still. But it hurts when I do stupidly easy things like folding towels. It also hurts while typing and driving. The driving is a joke because really, Sam has to turn the key in the ignition and shift for me--but it still hurts to steer the damned thing.
So I asked the physical therapist this morning and he said I am doing things that are pulling or pushing... Well...in general mos
Who are we? I mean, who ARE we, really? Are we our feelings, our thoughts? Are we our bodies? Which defines us?
The answer would seem to be that we are a combination of those things. But what about those people who are mismatched? What about people who look out of eyes that don
Well, that was fun. Remind me next time to just let the cat hang by his hind foot until he falls out of the blinds on his own.
The infection in my hand was so bad it needed 2 ops and iv antibiotics. I am getting whirlpool therapy everyday, which feels good and seems to be helping. Saw the dr on Friday. He squeezed everything to the point of tears but said he didn
just making an entry here because ican't use my right hand.have spent the day at my old dr in cobleskill who then sent me to the er inschenectady. majorinfection in thumb area--had to openit and irrigate it. good news is they let me go homeas long as i go back rto erfor followup tomorrow am. am on augmenin and hydrocodome so that should help.
iam about 2/3 through my anthogy story--hopefully will be abletotype to get it in by thedeadline.
so. anyonewhowoneers whyim not onlime,this is
So Sam wants to know a couple of very important things:
"Is Scott still going to Niagara Falls with us this weekend?
"Is Scott still taking me night fishing for my birthday?"
You see, THAT is one of the big problems with having a relationship (or trying to have one) when you have a kid. Your kid gets attached, too.
I don
I JUST discovered the "Gallery." I am not going to ask how long it has been there because then I would have to face the exact degree of my slowness.
But now that I have found it... Been happily scanning pictures from various photo albums. There are SO many more, but I promise only to post the ones I really like. I am by no means a great photographer. But every once in a while my camera accidentally finds something that is beautiful (take enough pictures and that will happen by random c
