Long time no entry, but no one really reads these so it is ok. So i never thought id get over Joe, i mean i know it was only about 1.5 months, but for some reason it was hard for me to deal with. Its been roughly 3 months now, and i have a new boyfriend, named Tanner, weve been together for about a month, and i like him alot, hell i lvoe him, but im still a little weirded out by it all...he is different, and for once im in the shoes of caring, and not being cared for, this is different, b
As much as i hate to admit it...
It is time to move on
time to give up the foolish dreams
not yet time to grow-up
for being a child is all i have left
i shall not waste these precious few years
but part of me still thinks that all time is wasted if...
if he isnt by my side..
hard to breathe at night when i dream of his arms
cant stand on my own two feet when it rains
the stars seem duller than they ever have before
the world seems to have an inpenetrable fog
but yet i must move on
ok so the guy that wanted to cuddle sent me a message on facebook that well let me just copy this i want to see wut u all think...
Hey zac..I just wanted to tell you a couple of things...Um, first of all...the one thing that pushes me away from guys is when they think they like me when they don't even know me...we've met once and I was completely wasted...not to mention the fact you live 3 hours away..how could there ever be something serious? don't get me wrond, I think your an amazing guy
What do you say to a man who has no ears?
How does a man with no eyes see the tears you cry?
What does a heartbeat mean to a man with no hands?
How does a rose mean anything to a man with no nose?
What do you feed a man with no tounge?
How do you tell someone "I love you" that has no heart?
What can you say to let the truth of your heart be told?
How do you put in to words that you cannot live without him?
What good does talking do, if he never really listens?
How can you be sure that t
***I typed this a while ago but saved it as a draft...ooops***
Moving on is something we all hate to do...think about it. You place a significant shift of paradime in front of us and we freak. We go out and do stupid things to try to keep things the same. We find ourselves begging, and lowballing until all of a sudden we think...WAIT im better than this.
So basically i have decided not to leave this site...it is good for throwing shit out there and regurgitating the suckyness of day to
Let me tell u i am sick...i have a viral infection that has caused my entire body to be in a red rash that itches awfully...i also have a sore throat...but the worst part is that i want someone to care about em enough to be all like calling to check up on me, or even cuddling...even tho im super contagious and would not let him. I went to Columbia this weekend and on Friday i showe up there after work at approx 1 am, all my "friends" ditched me which pissed me off cuz i had to call Joel...I wen
For all of you..i jsut wanted to let you know im leaving the site...it will be too hard for me to see things on this site...ill stay on for 2 more days so you all can comment and i can give you all a proper good bye...in closing
y do we allow ourselves to love, and look for love when it all ends in pain?
A million miles away
but still i feel our hand
a silent voice upholds
through the darkest storm
even in confusion
your love will always stay my norm
Even when your not beside me,
i feel you in the wind
In the roses and orchids fair
I see you standing
A silent pine upon the hill
a church for senturies ever stands
Somwhere looking right beside me into Starry Night.
Ok i wrote this poem a LONG time ago but i think it still rings true to my life. Im think
So once again i have spent an amazing evening with my Joe...as for all of you that told me to buy him a black thong...he didnt like the one i wanted to get me. BUT aside from Joe trying to sleep with my NEICE tonight he, jill, erin and i had fun i gave 3 lap dances and did various other dances...well im tired...
When there is noone elst to talk to, i look to the stars for guidance
their shining light guides my path, and shows me new paths that were before unseen
they teach me things that i could never have dreamed of learning,
and tease my mind just enough to keep looking to them.
When the sky is black, and seemingly empty, there is always a star to be found that proves that the world is not devoid of hope.
when i see sadness i weap, for the one who cannot cry
when i see true love i celebrate, f
<<<this is how i have loooked for the past almost 3 weeks. I met this guy that is totally perfect in every way. I have fulfilled so many dreams that ive always wanted to, in a fraction of the time ive spent dreaming of them. Making out in the rain, and looking at a man, and feeling that deep heart-wrenching love for a person. Ive been in and out of love before, but for some reason, when i look into his eyes i see a huge future of possiblities. Being able to go and star gaze and cud
Ok so Im on here because my Joe is a moderator, im sure that you all know and love him. Im not really sure what all to put on here, but since it is an author site...ill just write a little poem for you all. Joe, je t'aime toujours!
Ignorance is bliss, but only for a while
Stone cold nights produce the clearest stars
When the hottest sun beats down, the cool breeze is more appreiated
Even the smallest tree will grow and amaze the world with its presence
Silence can produce the most bea