I am glad you take time to write this blog. I don't know about you, but I find this blog is meditative.

I do feel sorry about your BFF drifted away. I've been through something like this, and I am sure we're not alone on this one. It happens, for one reason or another, and it's not within our control (because friendship is two-sided, we can only in control of ourselves). If you have a chance, maybe you can just ask him why (without being confrontational or sound insecure).

I am glad you value my friendship, btw. I don't find it dirty to be someone's friend. Everyone needs a few friends. BTW, I don't have many friends, because that's the way I function. Sometimes I feel alone and sometimes I don't. Don't know why that is. If I feel alone, I'll just come to a place like GA, but I rarely get very close to people anymore.

I am not a particular positive person. It's been this way since I was a kid, but I learned eventually to take things less personally and willing to let go a few things. I just know it's better this way, as we're all connected to one another. If I could offer a hand, that's within my own ability, I would. My power is very limited, so I only do what I can, and hopefully I don't disappoint people, and myself. It always feels better when I at least tried.

It's funny one of the stories I am writing lately the main character has many siblings. I want to do that because I feel in my previous stories my MC's are usually very lonely without siblings or just one sibling, and now you're telling me this.... Maybe I need some input from you in this family matter thing.

Anyways, I do hope you will find your dream job.

I don't find it dirty to be someone's friend.

Not that being a friend is dirty.... what I initially wrote could have been misunderstood. Sometimes I have an extremely dirty mind and it can often be found in the gutter.

It's funny one of the stories I am writing lately the main character has many siblings. I want to do that because I feel in my previous stories my MC's are usually very lonely without siblings or just one sibling, and now you're telling me this.... Maybe I need some input from you in this family matter thing.

Sometimes people who come from large families grow up close and get along with their siblings. Not everyone though. Both my parents are from large families. My mom is the oldest of five and my dad is fourth of five. There is a huge difference between both families. My dads family is pretty close but my moms is a different story. My mom came form a white collar family and my dad a blue collar family. It probably also has to do with how their parents were raised. As far as input, count me in, I'll help where I can.

I do feel sorry about your BFF drifted away. I've been through something like this, and I am sure we're not alone on this one. It happens, for one reason or another, and it's not within our control (because friendship is two-sided, we can only in control of ourselves). If you have a chance, maybe you can just ask him why (without being confrontational or sound insecure).

I may just let it go. I have always been the one to contact to see what's going on. I generally get a not much response. He doesn't engage much anymore, possible because we both eventually took different paths in life. I went off after getting my Associates at the community college and completed my Bachelors degree, where as he was still working on his Associates degree and took 9 years to get it. He was also upset when I went from being fifteen minutes away to an hour and fifteen minutes. Things happened and I needed to move with my parents as they moved for a better school system for my sister. We gradually have drifted apart over the years so it may have been a long time coming. He got into motorcycles and Celtic fight re-enactments and me???? I just became engrossed in my own life and family. I do love to cook but here at home its difficult to do without being bothered. Making dinner is a chore because not everyone likes the same things and normally have to make several different things at once.