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Hard truths

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Unfortunately, I’m going to have to make a new email address which is a pain, but I just had to delete over 300 emails, all from the same guy: Stalker. My whole life practically comes through my email. My paypal, my contacts, my student loans, my bill receipts! On top of that, there’s a chance he will find out my new email, because I can’t really keep it a secret from everyone or I’ll be isolating myself, and I already feel like my life is as remote as possible. I understand that he’s mentally unstable and desperately needs help, but right now I hate him. I wish he would die in a car crash.

 

I got a few emails from him that I was set on deleting, but I opened a few with the intentions of not replying, and he’s prepared to blackmail me by posting everything I ever confided with him about on all the sites I frequent, including GA, then he’d start telling everyone in my actual life all the same stuff. I felt like my stomach dropped to the floor because, like an idiot, I’ve told him a lot about myself. I trusted him at one point and I told him things that I have only told two other people: Chris and Jamie.

 

The first thing I did was reach out to most of the admins, including GA, and they’ve been very understanding and supportive which I’m deeply moved by, but Stalker is hard to track down, block, and ban. I don’t even know what username he’s using on here, but if anyone has PMed you about me at all that seems suspicious, please relay it to an admin. I also reached out to my in laws and what family I have left and warned them about Stalker’s intentions, and most of them assured me that whatever he tried to tell them, it would not matter.

 

But it does matter, TO ME, to the point where I’m having suicidal thoughts.

 

I won’t give him what he wants, but I can’t stop him from posting anything. Just don’t judge me from what he says. I suffered from my addiction for a long time, and I have a lot of problems from it, and I’m deeply ashamed.

 

I wrote and deleted this blog several times over the past few days, but I guess I might as well let everyone know that I’m prepared for the worst. I’d like to ask everyone to refuse to read it, but let’s be realistic. Some of it might be lies, but some of it might be truth, and that scares me most.

 

I’m really sorry.  

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I hate that this person has done this to you.  Like Puppilull said, we all make mistakes, and you'll get no judgment from me.  Besides, I'll take anything this POS has to say with a grain of salt.  He doesn't have the power he thinks he has.  Hang in there.  We've all got your back here :hug:  

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Your past is just that, your past. The guy I “know” is the guy who takes the time and effort to make beautiful quilts for the people he cares about. I remember a picture you once posted and only your eyes could be seen as you hid behind your little dog, You have  mischievous and kind eyes. That says a lot of good things about you.

 

Oh, and just in case you are wondering how I remember that picture, it’s because I have an excellent memory, that is all. 

 

You’ll get no judgment from me. :hug: 

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We've had a lot of conversations over the years, Lacey, about a lot of things. If someone is set of harming you, sometimes there's nothing you can do to stop it. But you've done what you felt you needed to, and what you can, and the rest is out of your hands. People who know you, or who aren't gossipy jerks, don't listen to random crap from general people. 

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Am I going to have to beat this guys knee caps with a crow bar? 

 

I haven't done this sort of thing in a while but I'm up for it.

 

There are benefits to being pals with someone who is large, belligerent and a little crazy. 

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**Starts putting bail money aside for James.**

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Nothing that anyone says out of malice or spite will ever make me change my opinion of you, Lacey. :hug: The past is the past, and what matters is that you're an amazing, kind, beautiful person now. :kiss:

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