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Howl at the Moon


Wayne Gray

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I'm pissed.

Maybe I shouldn't be. Perhaps I should expect less; I don't know.

I post work on multiple sites.  Well, on a different site I've built a reputation as a sort of HEA, feel-good, everybody wins writer.  I guess I should have known to post my aggressive, erotic story Silverwolf there would throw people (even though I put a warning on the first chapter to explain it was very different from my usual offering).

I am utterly fine getting emails to say that "Hey, this isn't my thing, but I'll wait for Bluegrass Symphony."  I got a few of those, and they were cool.  I replied to thank them and moved on to do my thing.

Then the shit started.  About a dozen people emailed explicitly to try and get me to stop writing Silverwolf because it's "awful."  Nothing constructive.  No actual critique I could use to improve my work.  These were designed, specifically to discourage me from writing Silverwolf and to focus only on Bluegrass Symphony.

You know what?  I'm finishing Silverwolf.  I'm up to chapter ten on Bluegrass Symphony, and that's where it'll stay for a while.

They can choose to read or not, but I'm now convinced it's time to howl at the moon.

P.S. No, I'm not thinly veiling that the readership of GA has been problematic.  Y'all ain't the problem and have been great every step of the way.  I also don't want to give the impression that I don't want constructive feedback.  I DO.  What I'm describing is something else - something unhelpful, and intended to be discouraging.

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3 minutes ago, Mikiesboy said:

💖  that's for you.  i am sorry people have been doing this. You are a great storyteller .. and from someone who tries to never write the same story twice i am glad to see the different types of work from you. 

Give me all of it.. the ugly, beautiful, charming, and mean. HEA.. and not so much. Give me the story and world you are writing.. me and a lot of others will read it.

Hang in there... write what feels right to you.   When you are good and ready.

xo  tim

Thanks, tim.  I want to write different things.  I've written a lot of HEA, and I will write more.  But, right now I want to stretch and write my slutty werewolf with his swinging boyfriend, as they tear up the northern coast of California in and outside the bedroom.

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10 minutes ago, chris191070 said:

So Sorry to hear you getting shitty emails about Silverwolf.

Yes it’s different to your normal fare but it is an excellent piece of writing that deserves to be finished.

I look forward to the conclusion of both Bluegrass Symphony and Silverwolf.

Thanks, Chris.  I'll finish both, no doubt.  But I'm going silent on that other site for a while.

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As I've said already, fuck those guys. You're an awesome storyteller. If they don't like the story you're telling, they can stop reading, but e-mailing you and telling you to stop writing is just being a dick. It's not like a person has a finite amount of creativity, you're working on and writing both, and not writing one won't necessarily make you write more of the other. Keep doing your thing! ❤️ 

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7 minutes ago, Thorn Wilde said:

As I've said already, fuck those guys. You're an awesome storyteller. If they don't like the story you're telling, they can stop reading, but e-mailing you and telling you to stop writing is just being a dick. It's not like a person has a finite amount of creativity, you're working on and writing both, and not writing one won't necessarily make you write more of the other. Keep doing your thing! ❤️ 

Thanks, Thorn.

I know it shouldn't let it bother me.  I keep coming back to the idea that if I were younger and less invested in doing this writing thing, then crap like this could push me to just stop.  But, I'm stubborn.  I want to write too much, and I will continue to do so.

Your encouragement helps.  Thank you.  🙂

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9 hours ago, Wayne Gray said:

Thanks, Thorn.

I know it shouldn't let it bother me.  I keep coming back to the idea that if I were younger and less invested in doing this writing thing, then crap like this could push me to just stop.  But, I'm stubborn.  I want to write too much, and I will continue to do so.

Your encouragement helps.  Thank you.  🙂

This part. I think about that a lot, too, when people are being dicks on the Internet, whether it's bullying that I can overlook but would have seriously wounded younger me, or this kind of criticism which could easily dissuade a less confident writer from ever writing again. Which is awful. Never discourage art, ever. Ugh. 

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Your blog made me go check things. It was a year ago this month, that I went to that Writers' Workshop, and then rage quit my story. I actually looked at it without getting pissed, and in one archive, I found the next chapter I thought I had lost.

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19 minutes ago, BHopper2 said:

Your blog made me go check things. It was a year ago this month, that I went to that Writers' Workshop, and then rage quit my story. I actually looked at it without getting pissed, and in one archive, I found the next chapter I thought I had lost.

Sounds like it's a project that merits another look.

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12 minutes ago, Wayne Gray said:

Sounds like it's a project that merits another look.

It's on the list now.

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😊 I feel you and I understand their feeling kind of.... The first day I read silverwolf, I was enjoying the story and fighting with it in my imagination to be a certain way and it always refused to be. I get pissed,relaxed then I enjoyed it again. The day the emotional reader guy fucked the wolfguy,believe me I was pissed I don't know why, but every time the wolfguy get the upper hand I get happy again. *let me just say the story is a great one,but it twist readers (myself) soft spot.* the feeling is like your sport team is getting fucked and you want them to do the fucking😁. I Loved it BTW. I could picture everything in my mind like watching a movie while reading it.💕💕

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1 hour ago, BASILB said:

😊 I feel you and I understand their feeling kind of.... The first day I read silverwolf, I was enjoying the story and fighting with it in my imagination to be a certain way and it always refused to be. I get pissed,relaxed then I enjoyed it again. The day the emotional reader guy fucked the wolfguy,believe me I was pissed I don't know why, but every time the wolfguy get the upper hand I get happy again. *let me just say the story is a great one,but it twist readers (myself) soft spot.* the feeling is like your sport team is getting fucked and you want them to do the fucking😁. I Loved it BTW. I could picture everything in my mind like watching a movie while reading it.💕💕

Heh.  See, to me all of this is great.
The evocation of emotion is what I'm out to do.  That might be "No, dude, no, don't let that twig screw you.  Shit.  You caved you weak bastard.  Fine, he's hot and hung, but still."  Then the next time Jed is having his way in spades with Wolfgang in the kitchen.  😉  How you feel and what you are saying, that's different from what I describe.  All of what you're writing is encouraging.  There's always going to be moments the plot doesn't go the way of the reader's imagination.  That's always fine.

I'm glad you like the story.  There's more coming for it.

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@Reader1810thanks for the nice comments.

I'm largely over it.  Now that I've got a plan, I feel better about things.

Plus I'm full of a delicious brunch.  That always helps.

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It's unfortunate that you have to be subjected to ridicule from readers who obviously admire you as a writer and love your work but are too selfish to appreciate your right to express creativity in the way you choose. Keep doing what inspires you and f*ck those who can't be decent towards you.

Perhaps one positive take-away from this experience is that you've developed a faithful readership, and some of those readers feel so passionate about your stories that they can't help but voice their disdain when something doesn't go their way.

As the adage goes: you can't please everybody all of the time.

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6 minutes ago, MacGreg said:

It's unfortunate that you have to be subjected to ridicule from readers who obviously admire you as a writer and love your work but are too selfish to appreciate your right to express creativity in the way you choose. Keep doing what inspires you and f*ck those who can't be decent towards you.

Perhaps one positive take-away from this experience is that you've developed a faithful readership, and some of those readers feel so passionate about your stories that they can't help but voice their disdain when something doesn't go their way.

As the adage goes: you can't please everybody all of the time.

Thanks, Mac.
It's good advice, and I'll take it to heart.  I know I'll write both stories because both inspire me in different ways.
Silverwolf - I get to play with these sexual dynamics that I don't necessarily feel confident with in other scenarios.  There are no labels, just the acts themselves.  The reader can decide who and what they are, and I don't have to.
Bluegrass Symphony - I love that story.  It feels so good to write, hear the dialogue in my mind, and recall all the things about my home that I love.
 
That's an interesting take - that readers are so invested in my work they try and steer my efforts.  That's... weirdly flattering.  Thanks for that perspective.

Onward.  I've got a werewolf to write.

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5 minutes ago, Fae Briona said:

Unfortunately, we put too much power in labels -- a general human failing, that causes way too many problems. 🤔

I think you're right.  It's not my place to rock that particular boat, but it is mine to just do my own thing - which, I've no problem doing.

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