So a lot has happened between me and the guy that I've developed feelings for in the past couple of months. Let's keep it short and say that I've slept at his place quite a few times, and we've cuddled and held each other and all that jazz. Nothing more, though. No kissing, and nothing beyond that. I found out through a friend that he likes me and kind of has a feeling that I like him.

I should be ecstatic right? I'm not. Apparently he's worried because I don't know how to drive. I understand that that's an inconvenience because he works a lot and he would always have to be the one dropping me off and picking me up and what not. Still, it kind of stung to hear that. I just want to be with him.

Of course, it wasn't just that--as my friend puts it, he's afraid of ruining a really good friendship. I was fine with that though. I mean sure, I like him a lot, but I can respect his feelings. So we were at disneyland yesterday hanging out and what not. I was trying to just be normal and friendly, but he was being really flirty and romantic and sweet and stuff. I was looking out into that lake by the raft or whatever, and he surprised me from behind with a hug. I LOVE that. If you want to make me a puddle, that's what you do. I think it even says that on my myspace. sigh..

I ended up staying over at this place last night, and we were watching a scary movie (he put it on). He came over at one point and said "this part's really scary" and he put is arms around me and we were just lying there cuddling. I've never felt so comfortable with anyone before. He just makes me feel safe. When I'm with him, it feels right. I'm confused, though, because I'm not sure what's happening. I'm going to sit down with him and have a talk hopefully really soon. I just need to tell him how I feel, because it's eating away at me. I need to let him know that I've developed stronger feelings for him, and that as much as I want to be his friend and don't want to risk damaging that, I can't help but wish there was something more.

I don't know when I'll get the chance, though. The next blog will be interesting though, since it'll either be incredibly depressing or incredibly joyful. I really, really hope it's the latter.