Often lately I have been asking myself, 'What drives people to make the decisions they do?'

There are things I just don't understand, and in many ways i really don't want to understand. Why does one person find it necessary to talk badly about another? Why would they misrepresent facts, even if they did so mistakingly? I don't understand these concepts. Granted I'm no angel, I'll be the first to freely admit that. However, I subscribe to that whole blasie 'live and let live' mumbo jumbo. You know the creed thats right there next to 'If you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all,'.

Don't read that wrong, I'll bitch when I think something is wrong, or I think someone is doing something stupid as well.

I've been biting my tongue allot lately. I'd like to know why a few people made the choices they made. the only answer that can satisfy that curiosity and my sincere hope not to think less of these people is; They accepted single-sided council. They listened to only one side of the story. I sincerely hope that is the answer, because they are damn good people, not to mention damn fine writers.

I miss them.

I'm tired of being disappointed, yet somewhere I know it is the only possible outcome now. They listened to their council, made their decisions. I waited for proof of character and made mine.

This proof, for me, came in a number of ways, and it was far too common to be mistaken for anything other then a significant signpost of character. when you hear an outstanding theme running through several opinions, well, it kinda shows you something. maybe their council's words carried more weight then the mounds of proof through past, and recent, actions. Yet, I fear the words that are being used to pollute their minds. Perhaps these aren't things I should be worrying about, but I hate to see other people being, being manhandled and used as pawns in something they had no involvement in.

That, however, is how the world works. One vicious unending cycle of misrepresentation and out right lies. I just hope the people I respect, the people I admire will wake up and open their eyes to the words they have listened to.

Steve