Julio my BF is very mad at me these days. He's very jeallous of my friends and he thinks I'm going to leave him for Chaz. It freaks me out when he talks like that. I've already told him that my friends will always be there but that doesn't mean that he is second to them. I mean I planned on marrying him some day and he's the only person that I have dated I could ever say that about. I love him and it kills me inside when he says these things.
Today I told my friends not to come over for a while. I told Chaz that I needed to stay away from him for the next week or so and he understood. Selene was mad ans so were my other friends but ultimately they understood. So I went home and started to cook a nice dinner for Julio and My sure I had a good movie waiting so that we could snuggle. I waited for him and he never came home. I went upstairs and his stuff was gone. It hurts when someone you love decides that they can't be in your life.
He left me a messsage on my computer screen. All it said that he would call me when he gets back home to spain. I am sitting here waiting for his call. I can't believe it and I'm writing this to make sure that it's real and that I'm about to puke. He's really gone and for some reason I know I can never forgive that he left without talking to me first. If the problem was so great then why didn't he tell me before. It's over, It's over I am not an optimistic person so I sit here knowing that it's over and I'll have to pick up the the pieces.