I want to thank all who have reached out. It’s greatly appreciated. Even if I don’t verbalize it.
Update on my anxiety progress. There’s been noticeable improvement with my anxiousness on the new meds. I’m not obsessing on everything said and done. Going out is proving difficult, but I am going out. Keeping a routine to help overcome my recent fear.
While meds address my anxiety... They have shown some side affects. Disconnected and in the clouds. Leaves me feeling like I have no control. Lack of concentration has been extremely difficult... Especially when I’m accustomed to a strict, structured life.
While I do my daily meditation and lists, focus dictates everything.
I’ve been struggling to write. The one thing I always turn to, but I’ve hit a block. Writing journal has felt like a chore, because I hear therapist on repeat.
A very dear friend asked me to write something. I’m working on it. I appreciate her effort in me finding motivation and inspiration.
My therapist told me to write what you know. I have been having difficulties verbalizing. Until today. Ah-ha moment.
Accountability has been thrown out a lot lately. My therapist telling me to be accountable to her and myself.
Writing an email today brought out this word again.
I’m being accountable by writing what I know. Accountability weaves through all that I am. I thrive, and survive on it.
My lifestyle depends on me being accountable. My focus depends on me being accountable. My confidence depends on me being accountable. Everything depends on it.
Sorry for the rambling, but a brief moment found my voice. That’s progress for today.