New Kid In School - 18. Chapter 18: "Caught With Your Pants Down"

Tears, I had shed so many in my lifetime, but none as painful as the ones that poured from my eyes at that moment. That one instant when I saw my boyfriend, the one true love of my life, the only love I've ever known, in his bedroom almost naked with Tyler undressing right in front of him. I could feel my heart breaking, my mind shutting down as my emotions ran wild in every possible direction. What was I going to do? How was I going to cope with this? Was life even worth living after seeing this?

"Randy? You're not supposed to..." Ryan started, but I didn't want to hear it.

"Don't even talk to me! I don't even wanna hear you lie your way out of this! You...ASSHOLE!"

Tyler pulled his pants back up and walked over to turn down the cheesy pop music playing in the background. He nervously pushed his blond hair out of his eyes and said to Ryan, "I told you this wasn't a good idea."

I turned on Tyler, "How could you? You were supposed to be my best friend. I trusted you. Even when all the signs pointed to you...to THIS...I believed in you."

Ryan tried to speak, "Dude...this isn't what it looks like..."

"Oh give it a rest! How is this not what it looks like? You're both here in your bedroom alone, playing this cheesy ass music, half naked and everything! I heard your little plans in the bathroom today! I heard everything! You lied to me, again and again! You don't even tell me where you're going, you've been hanging out with Tyler and Matt and Sam everyday! How could you hurt me like this? How could you FUCK somebody else and come home and smile in my face like the sick son of a bitch that you are?!?!"

Ryan and Tyler both looked at me with teary eyes, hurt and offended by my words, but I wasn't holding back anymore. This had gone on for too long, and I was tired of being the one who gets hurt, tired of being the nice guy who other people take advantage of. I give and I give and I give! I try to be a friend to everybody, I try to be a shoulder to cry on and I try to give all the love that I can give. And what do I have to show for it? Nothing! Nothing at all! All this time I wasted trying to love somebody who just didn't give a damn! Well I might regret it later, but at that moment I was ready to walk away from the whole damn situation. Fine, take him, I don't know what made me think I could please a guy like Ryan in the first place. I was hurt and angry and I hated them both for doing this to me. And I would have said it all to their faces if the tears didn't choke the words back in my throat.

Then Ryan got up and walked over to me. He was starting to cry and put his hand on my shoulder, but I quickly knocked it away and pushed him off of me. I was disgusted, angry, depressed, I just couldn't believe this was happening. Ryan's tears streamed down his face, his lips quivering as he held back from sobbing openly, I had never seen him so hurt. "Randy...I never meant to hurt you. I just wanted to do something special for you, something you'd always remember."

"You never meant to hurt me? Then what's this, huh? How could you not hurt me by sleeping with Tyler?" I looked over and Tyler was looking towards the floor in shame. And behind him was a sign with glitter and something scrawled on it in marker. I looked at it a little closer, my eyes still wet and blurry, and saw the words 'Happy Birthday Randy' written on it.

"I'm not sleeping with Tyler, Randy. We were just trying to surprise you for your birthday." Ryan said sadly. "We tried to call you to make sure you weren't running around in the streets so you could come over. We figured we'd surprise you when you got here. Didn't you notice the door was open?"

I was speechless. I had absolutely nothing to say, there was nothing I could say. My mouth hung open and it suddenly became clear to me that I had made the biggest mistake of my life, and I was certain that I'd never ever be able to look either one of them in the eye again. Surprisingly, neither one of them really screamed at me. Actually, a dead silence fell over the room and made me feel even worse. I wished someone would have said SOMETHING, anything. I almost wanted them to yell at me, to kick my ass, to do something that would justify my accusations. God, the things I said, the things I thought. I felt like shit. That's when Tyler saw the tension between Ryan and me and thought it would be best to leave. He walked up to me, his eyes still a little shaky from tearing up, and he patted me on the shoulder, placing a small kiss on my cheek. "Happy birthday Randy. I'll leave you guys alone for a while, ok?"

"T-thanks Tyler. I'm so sorry about all of this." I said, tears falling from my eyes as the shame of it all took hold of me.

"Don't worry buddy. It'll work out. Goodnight." And Tyler grabbed his shirt and left me alone in the room with Ryan. We didn't look at each other for the longest time. It felt like an eternity. Then, little by little, we began to make eye contact again. We both started to speak at the same time and had to stop.

"I'm sorry, go ahead." He said.

"No, that's alright, you first."

Ryan looked at the floor for a few seconds before tears came back to his eyes and he plopped down on the bed. "Randy...I can't believe...I'm so sorry. I'm so incredibly sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant for you to think...that me and Tyler...God Randy, how long has this been bothering you?"

I sat next to Ryan on the bed, still embarrassed, but there more for his comfort than mine. "A few weeks I guess. But I didn't want to say anything, I wanted to trust you. I wanted to believe in you, in us. I wanted to trust you so bad that I couldn't help but feel like I was leaving myself wide open for something like this."

"I would never do that to you. Not ever. I've never been so in love before in my life, and it scares me sometimes. It scares me because it's gotten to the point where I can't imagine my life without you. If anything were to happen to you, I'd die...I would cease to exist as a whole person for the rest of my life."

I threw an arm over his shoulder and said, "I know, it scares me too. I'm just so terrified that I'm going to lose you that it hurts for me to even think of you with somebody else. You're so cute, and funny, and cool to be around, that you could have anybody. Don't you understand that? ANYBODY. And I've never felt more self conscious because your love is so great that I don't deserve it. I'm not worthy to be your boyfriend, Ryan. I mean you went through all this trouble for me, and look how I treated you. I'm just not right for you, you need something better."

Ryan's tears were still flowing and his voice cracked as he gave me a big hug and cried on my shoulder. "Randy, I've never wanted anything more than you. I want to be with you all the time, I want to hold and kiss you, to be your friend and your lover and so much more. But it seems that all I ever do is hurt you, and I can't bare to hurt you."

"I just let my mind get the best of me, that's all. I mean, you and Tyler were such good friends, you talked all the time, even when I wasn't around, and I felt left out. I mean it got to the point where you could laugh and have fun without me by your side, and it sounds selfish, but I didn't want you to. I wanted to be the center of your world like you are in my eyes. And when I saw all the little things happening around me, I thought I had lost you."

"What little things?"

"Well..." Now that I saw what was going on, I felt kind of bad saying it. But I had come this far and basically accused him of cheating on me, I suppose he deserved an explanation. "There was the tutoring thing. I mean, Wil said he hadn't seen you in like two weeks, and you were always with Tyler and the guys. Then there was the secrets and stuff, I thought you guys were becoming better friends. I figured it only be a matter of time before you were...together."

Ryan dried his eyes a little, and stoop up from the bed. He walked over to the sign and moved it to show me a brand new cd player with all the trimmings. It had a remote control and a dual tape deck, all wrapped up with a big red bow. "I really wanted to get you something special, and your old one was always skipping, so I was going to get you a new one. I took the tutoring gig at first because I was going to try to buy you one myself, but I'd have to take on every freshman in school to get enough cash in time for that to work. That's when Tyler came up with the birthday gift idea. Him and Matt and Sam saw this one at the arcade behind the prize counter. It was like 30,000 tickets and we agreed that if all three of us put our tickets together we could win it for you in time. So I've been hanging out with them almost everyday trying to get enough tickets together. You almost caught Tyler that day in the bathroom when he was shoving them back in his bag. We just wanted to surprise you, that's all, so we kept it a secret. I thought that maybe you suspected the worst, and I didn't want to lead you in that direction, but I figured it was only for a little while. I thought you might think something like this, but I never thought you would let it get to you like this."

"But what about Tyler's...um....technique?"

"What? THAT? Geez Randy, Tyler showed me that on his finger! He was just teaching me a few tricks for you, that's all." Ryan laughed at the thought of doing it any other way. "Hehehe, don't you remember me sucking on your finger that day at my house? That's how he taught me. I could teach you if you want."

"But, you and Tyler...you were getting undressed just now..."

Ryan kissed me on the lips and turned the cheesy pop music back up. "Don't you remember the show we watched yesterday? The one with the Chippendale dancers and the horny housewife brigade?" He said with a slight tearful grin. "It was kind of a last minute thing, but I told Tyler that it would be funny to give you your present in the same way. It was silly, I know, and now that I think about it, it must have looked pretty bad huh?"

Omigod. As Ryan spoke to me, I replayed the events of the last few weeks in my head and everything started to make sense. Every whisper, every cloak and dagger movement, every little white lie and hidden grin, came to me in a flash and I felt even worse for not trusting Ryan to be true to me. I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't stop apologizing. Ryan had been a faithful lover, Tyler, Sam, and Matt had been good friends, and I let them all down. "Ryan...I don't know what to say."

"Shhhh..." He said, putting his finger up to my lips. Then he brushed the loose strands of hair out of my eyes and said, "Don't say anything. Just breathe, and let me enjoy being here with you." He giggled a little bit. "Hehehe...Randy, you've gotta stop crying dude. You're gonna start me up again."

I looked up at him with a bashful grin and replied, "It's my party and I'll cry if I want to." A little smile broke out on his face and he rubbed my head lovingly.

"You are such a dork, you know that?"

He crawled behind me on the bed and draped himself over my shoulders. "Randy, I love you more than life itself, always remember that. If I ever hurt you, make you cry, or feel lonely, or suspicious of me in any way...just talk to me. Tell me how you feel and I'll make it better or die trying. I will never bring a moment's pain into your life, I love you too much for that." Ryan kissed me on he cheek, letting his lips stay there for a while, soaking up any lingering tears that dwelled there. "Now come on over and look at your new player man. We've got a lot of funky gadgets to work out here."

"N-n-no Ryan. I don't deserve it. I couldn't keep it after what happened tonight." I felt so bad, it would be downright evil for me to insult Ryan by putting a smile on my face and pretending it never happened. But Ryan, forever loving and understanding, never let me sulk over it, not even for a second.

"Hehehe, I didn't drop 30 bucks worth of tokens into those machines for nothing! Just take it. Besides, if you don't I'll have to get you another present. And that means spending more time with those awful blond boys again." He said jokingly.

"Who? You mean Hanson?" I said, and we both snickered to each other as he lead me across the room to get my prize. He watched happily as I opened the box and took out my silver and black cd player. He was right, there was a lot to figure out on this thing. "Thank you Ryan. And I'll thank the other guys first thing tomorrow."

"That brings me to your other present. Well, actually, this one is more a present for the both of us." Ryan handed me a birthday card that was signed by all four of them and there were two strips of poster board that they had made up to look like invitations. I read closer and it read "You are invited to unlimited trips to paradise, anytime you feel like it." and there was a single tootsie roll attached to each one of them.

"What's this mean?" I giggled.

"This is gonna be our place Randy." Ryan said, looking at me with love in his beautiful eyes.

"OUR place?"

"Matt's mom works way outside of town, every weekday, until at least 8 o'clock. Then she doesn't come home until 10. Sam, Matt, and Tyler use his basement to have fun whenever they get the urge. Well...there's another little bedroom separated from the basement that's basically only used for company, which they don't have any because his mom works so much."

"Are...are you saying...?" I stammered, hoping and praying that I was hearing him right.

"Yep...they said we can use their basement anytime we want. Our own little love nest! After school, during school, sleep overs...whenever we need to get away. A paradise built just for you and me. No more peeking at the clock or having to be quiet so the neighbors don't hear. It'll just be you and me, at last."

The emotion jumped up into my throat, and in my excitement I nearly choked Ryan unconscious with a tight hug that shook him violently. "You mean it? Dude don't play around if you don't mean it! Omigod! Omigod! That's awesome! I'm gonna be with you every minute I can! I love you! I love you! Omigod I love you so much!" I said, tears of joy running down my face. This was it, the missing links in our relationship had fallen into place. Communication, letting each other know how we feel and dealing with it openly. And time, time to think, time to love, time to cuddle, time to talk. I couldn't even imagine loving Ryan in a pressure free environment. How strong could our love get if society's feelings were removed? If the giggles and snickers of the kids in our school was taken out of the equation? If protective parents, and the laws, and the judgements were removed altogether? I couldn't believe that this was actually going to happen. We were going to be alone, together, at last. I felt my heart explode with excitement as Ryan held me tightly in his arms.

"This is our time Randy. This is what we've been waiting for. Nothing's ever gonna come between us again. I know it, because love like this is too strong to ever fade. And God knows I love you."

I looked into his eyes and whispered, my voice trembling, "I love you more." then we kissed, sweetly, with more love than lust. And it was one of the most mind blowing kisses we had ever shared, knowing that we would have forever to top it. Ryan had a little sex play planned for while his dad was away, but instead we just sat in the dark and looked out of his window at the stars. We were both sitting on the floor of his room, and we switched back and forth from talking about anything and everything, to saying nothing at all. The silence was so beautiful, and as I laid my head delicately on Ryan's shoulder, he kissed the top of my head, letting me know that he would always be there for me. No matter what.

Seeing Tyler in school on Monday was a bit uncomfortable to say the least. Why is it that Tyler and I always had some kind of tension going on between us? We just sat down and started eating at first, trying not to even think about what happened that night, but I felt that I had to say something. I didn't want this looming over my head any longer. "Tyler, I owe you the biggest apology ever. I was being an asshole." Tyler tried to stop me, being the modest guy he is, but I told him that I had to get this out. I went on for like ten minutes, with Ryan watching me proudly, pleased with me bearing my soul for Tyler. I told him how good a friend he had been to me, how good he was for both me and Ryan, and we basically traced over our whole sordid affair from day one. The lies, the sex, the betrayal, the hurt feelings...we got them all out in the open, and let them go. It was over, truly over. For the first time, the three of us talked together without fear of saying the wrong thing, without worrying about offending somebody or bringing up a bad memory, or hurting anyone's feelings. It was the beginning of a timeless friendship that was bound to last. Sam and Matt came over half way through lunch hour and asked how the big birthday surprise went. Evidently, Tyler never told them about my little freakshow. When they asked, Tyler smiled and winked at me, saying that it all went off without a hitch. Tyler always was a sweetheart. Funny how I never noticed how sweet he was before. I felt Ryan's hand grab mine under the table and I turned to look him in the eye, melting from the hazel brown splendor of his love for me. Tyler got the cue and smiled shyly, signaling Matt and Sam to move to another table altogether. The three of them left, giggling at the two of us making goo goo eyes at each other. Man, this was definitely getting harder and harder to hide. So were "other" parts of my anatomy.

Just then, I saw Ariel's angelic face appear behind a shaky lunch tray at our table. Ryan and I broke our glance immediately and switched back into 'hetero-mode'. Ryan had never met Ariel before, but being the friendly guy that he is, he extended his hand and greeted him with a warm smile. Ariel returned the greeting nicely enough, but he was so nervous that he just mumbled to him softly and then just stood there, not knowing whether to leave or to stay. I decided to help the poor kid out, after all, I'd been there many times myself. "Would you like to sit down?"

"Can I? Y-y-you don't mind?" I've gotta admit, this kid was so darn cute sometimes. I nodded, and Ariel pulled back a chair and joined us. Both me and Ryan were waiting for him to say something, but he didn't even look up from his lunch tray. So Ryan and I just started chatting away and figured that Ariel would jump in whenever he felt comfortable enough to. We went on for about five minutes without him saying a word, so I decided to ask him what he thought about the subject we were discussing. "Who...me?"

"Yeah, we just wanted to know what you thought."

Ariel seemed to take a deep breath to give himself enough courage to speak, and we waited impatiently to see what he had to say. "Well, I think...." With the first couple of words out of his mouth, his hand moved forward and clumsily knocked over his milk which sped across the table and landed right in my lap. The ice cold liquid seeped right through my pants and caused my nuts to shrivel up quickly. Ariel put his hand over his face and apologized like he had stolen money out of my mother's purse. "I'm sorry Randy! God, I'm such a klutz! I suck, you guys must think I'm such a dork." He said, his cute little voice cracking into a higher pitch the more nervous he got. I stood up and wiped myself off, ready to head to the bathroom yet again from one of Ariel's 'assaults'. But the last thing I wanted him to do was feel bad, so I comforted him a little bit and told him it was alright. Accidents happen...of course they happen a lot more when Ariel's around, but it's not like he did it on purpose. I was getting ready to go clean myself up and I looked down at Ariel who had completely gone back into his shell and almost looked like he was about to cry. So I decided to give him a little ego boost to make him feel better. It was devilish, flirtatious even, but looking at Ryan I knew that he could tell exactly what I was doing from his lopsided grin. So I leaned over Ariel's shoulders and said, "That's alright dude, I still love ya!" And I gave him a little friendly hug from behind. Ariel's eyes widened and a huge bashful grin broke out on his face as he turned a deep shade of red. He giggled happily and when I looked into his eyes he turned away and put his hand up to hide his face again. I looked over at Ryan who was trying his best to hold back a few giggles of his own, then I took off to go clean up. I was teasing him, I know, but it really made me feel good to give Ariel that one moment of hope, that little piece of light that would help him to believe in love. I've never really known anybody to have a crush on me before, it was actually kind of cool. It made me feel like a celebrity sort of. Ariel was a cool kid, just a little too nervous for his own good. It would be nice to have him around as a friend. For all we knew there were only 6 gay kids in the whole school, and it was nice to see that we all managed to find each other.

When I got back to the table Ariel was still blushing, but talking a bit more than he was before. "Look you guys, I've gotta go. Maybe I'll come see you guys tomorrow...or something?" He said, questioning, shaking from fear that we'd tell him no. He was one of those kids who always ate by himself, so he was really anxious to make some new friends.

"Sure, why not?" Ryan chimed in happily, and I nodded in agreement.

Ariel let out this big obvious sigh that let us know how important the answer to that question was to him. "Cool! Great! Okay! Um...tomorrow then? Tomorrow...I'll be here at...um...lunchtime. See ya...tomorrow, Ryan." Then he looked at me with a big dreamy smile on his face. "Bye Randy..." He was backing away from us and I said I'd see him tomorrow, to which he grinned and covered his face with his books as he turned around. He didn't see it coming, but we did, he kicked over a garbage can which fell over and tripped one of the girls coming into the cafeteria. She looked up angry, but he was too happy to care. "Sorry, sorry folks, sorry." He said, still smiling from ear to ear. Then he looked at me from across the room, still blushing, and shrugged his shoulders. I smiled at him and he practically went running away, grinning to himself. Ryan and I started cracking up and laughed a how cute he was. I was starting to like this kid already.

After school, Matt met me and Ryan at my locker and he gave me a key to his basement. "Here ya go fellas. Enjoy it, if anybody deserves it it's you two. We're going to the arcade today, so you guys are welcome to stop by and 'try it out' if you want. We won't hurry home."

I felt so incredibly anxious, so alive, so full of excitement and passion that I almost started tearing up all over again. I couldn't believe this, it all seemed like an illusion, a fantasy that was too good to be true. But once the key fell into my open hand, it all became a reality, and our little getaway pleasure palace was officially ours. I couldn't wait. I hugged Matt and turned to Ryan who dangled his car keys in front of me. We tried to remain calm, not drawing any unnecessary attention to ourselves, but we couldn't hide it very well. We were actually racing towards the front door to get to Ryan's car, smiling and giggling every step of the way. The car ride seemed to last for hours, we got caught stopped by every red light, by every slow crossing pedestrian, stuck behind every school bus and Sunday driver in town, but we knew that eventually we'd be at our little home away from home soon. Just the two of us. I was so giddy that I was trying to keep from laughing out loud, the jitters in my stomach threatened to shake me to pieces, and I had the goofiest smile on my face, trying to hold back my joy with every last ounce of my energy. I looked over at Ryan who looked the exact same way, and as soon as we stopped at another red light, our eyes met and we couldn't hold back anymore. We burst out into laughter that echoed throughout the whole car, and once we started, there was no stopping it, we just kept laughing harder and harder until our stomachs hurt, and we were screaming and cheering as loud as our teen voices would allow. It only got worse as we neared Matt's house. This was it, our moment in the sun, peace at last.

We went inside, down to the basement and locked everything behind us, and we found the bedroom tucked away in the corner of the room. We saw a sign on the door that said, "Have a good one!" on it. We looked around the room, it only had a queen size bed in it, a closet, an old dresser, and one chair against the wall. It wasn't much, but to us, it was beautiful. Usually when we had a session it was only a few minutes before we were completely naked and ready to go. But not today, today we had all the time in the world. We looked around the place, thinking of what we could bring from home to spruce it up a little bit. "We can bring a radio, and a little TV, and some posters for the wall!" Ryan said, his visions mentally decorating the room around us. It was so quiet and serene, I couldn't even describe my feelings at that particular moment. As Ryan stood before me, his eyes searching the walls of the place, he noticed that I wasn't talking anymore. I couldn't, I was so amazed at his beauty, his sleek body standing in front of me, with absolutely nothing to stop me from taking him right then and there. Nothing to stop us from crying out in screams of lust, nothing to stop us from just laying back and enjoying the cool afternoon air as it blew threw our tiny window up by the ceiling. Ryan turned around and walked over to me, his hands gliding instinctively to my hips. And he pulled me in for a very slow passionate kiss, a kiss that melted my heart and captured my soul. We didn't hurry at all, we just let it happen, our hearts beating in unison, and all my pain vanished, all my troubles evaporated into thin air, and I knew at once that this is how love was always meant to be.

Ryan took his sweet time undressing me, starting with my shirt, then my pants, then my underwear. He laid me back on the bed and removed my socks and shoes, kissing my feet and slowly moving up to my thighs, where he danced playfully around my cock with his loving touch. I reached down to pull his shirt over his head, and we both sighed deeply. His soft strawberry blond locks fell into my lap, and he rubbed his face back and forth against my tight scrotum, moaning quietly and letting the vibrations tickle me below. I spread my legs wide and pushed my groin up into his face, hoping he would take me into his hot mouth and release me from reality. But Ryan always was a tease, and he wasn't going to let me off that easy. He worked his way up to my stomach and licked around inside my navel erotically. I began writhing and squirming as my stomach muscles contracted tightly, my legs wrapping themselves around Ryan's smooth chest, my fingers running through his hair. Normally, I would have to hold back so much, my moans, my true feelings of appreciation, but now that we were alone, I could let it go. I whimpered out loud and for the first time, the soft cries left my throat without restraint. It was like exhaling a breath that you had been holding in for weeks, and my whole body relaxed as the tension dissolved away.

Ryan moved up to lick and kiss at my nipples, occasionally biting them playfully and making me giggle. He stayed there for what seemed like twenty minutes, nibbling until my nipples were both sensitive and sore. Then he slid further up my body to kiss my neck, his chest rubbing against mine, my nipples tingling with a pleasurable pain that sent electric shocks coursing through my entire body. Ryan kissed at my neck, on both sides, for as long as he could stand it, before kissing me deeply on the lips. Our tongues mingled together and we began a smooth grind on each other that defied time and space as our love grew stronger than it had ever been. I slid Ryan's pants off of him and we laid in bed together, completely naked, Ryan on top of me, moaning louder and more erotically than I have ever heard from him. My hands slowly explored every inch of his back, his shoulders, his ass...we were in no rush, and I could feel the timelessness of it all. Our thrusts were slower, more relaxed, our breathing was calmer, we weren't sweating at all, we just enjoyed each other in the best possibly way. It was the slowest, sexiest time we had ever spent together. We weren't having sex, we were making love. Finally, after being there for over an hour and a half with no interruptions, Ryan whispered in my ear, I can't wait any longer. I want to taste you, I want your flavor to bless me. You are so delicious."

I breathed heavily as I felt Ryan's head start to travel back down my bed again, even slower than last time. I brought my knees up a little and spread my thighs so that he could get in between them. I was so anxious for him to finish me. Ryan crawled between my legs and I felt his shoulders come underneath the backs of my thighs, and his arms wrapped around to fold neatly on my soft belly. His tongue started almost all the way down to my asshole and traveled slowly up to my scrotum, to my balls, up my long six inch shaft, and finally stopped to encircle my tip with that loving technique that he had learned so well. Then without further delay, he absorbed me into his hungry mouth, swallowing inch after inch of my swollen member with his lips cushioning it all the way down to my pubic hairs. I started making noises and wiggling like mad the second he started, but it was like I couldn't cum. The orgasm was right there on the edge, but it wouldn't take me over, and the pleasure was driving me insane. I was basically screaming at this point, andit only made Ryan suck harder. "Ohhh...Oh God....ooohhh...mmmmm" I rambled incoherently, Ryan's mouth finally becoming such a stimulation to me that it was bringing me to a crashing orgasm that started in my toes and shot through me like a bolt of lightning. I shuddered, shivered, cried, screamed, I exploded with what seemed like 100 bursts of hot semen that leaked out of Ryan's mouth as he desperately tried to swallow it all. When I was finished, he licked up the remaining spillage and moved up to kiss and hug me once again. We french kissed and rubbed against each other for another eternity, stopping every once in a while to look into each other's eyes and smile. Nothing had ever been so comfortable, so natural, so majestic. I switched myself around and took my time licking at Ryan's balls. I know how much he enjoys it, and I enjoyed doing it. I felt him nudging me in the face by pushing his groin forward, but now it was my team to tease him. I ignored his signal and went back to working his testicles over for an extra long time, almost forcing Ryan to cum without even touching his shaft. Then I made my way up to take his light pink mushroomed head into my mouth, sucking tenderly at it with all the emotion and energy I could spare after such an incredible climax. I was laying the other way, and Ryan was so sensitive and overwhelmed with desire, that he rolled over slightly and pressed his face tightly into the inside of my thigh, kissing it hard while I gave him the best blow job of his young life. Ryan's slender teen body quaked with every bob of my head, and he was whimpering and grunting like crazy. As he came closer and closer, he began hugging my thigh even tighter, almost digging his nails in, and he reached one hand down to my ass to squeeze my cheeks hard. I sped up and began suckng for all I was worth. Ryan was almost there, and he bit into my thigh, not painfully, but hard enough to leave teeth marks. Then his whole body shook violently with an explosive orgasm as I almost choked on the strong shots of cum as it shot harshly against my tonsils, filling my mouth with his sweetened nectar. He was shaking and whimpering long after I was through, and when I moved back up to kiss his thin red lips, he cried. "God Randy, I've waited for this for sooo long. I can't breathe without you, I can't breathe. I'm so lucky."

I laid my head on his chest and said, "Me too, Ryan. Me too." We laid in that bed together, naked, with nowhere to go, no one to bother us. And we shared our love unashamed with one another for the first time. I had finally found my permanent place in his heart, and he had found his place in mine. This is how it's meant to be, how love is supposed to go. We had more problems and conflicts to face, but at least from now on, we could face them together.