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One Hundred and Fifty-Five Sonnets - 37. the sound of me

...more unsettled feelings...

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Sonnet No. 73

 

Ringing hollow in the deep chest of Love,

My voice should not seem a consumptive thing,

To prove weakness by example thereof,

That my life's breath just hangs on by a string.

But, although the sound of me appears weak,

The bubbling spring from which my words must flow,

Is a torrent of passion, and not meek,

Though it races in me from far below.

If it rings false in your ear, then I fail;

If it moves not your heart, then I die –

For your breath of forgiveness cures my ail

By giving worth to my every sigh.

What more to say, than it is forgiveness

That needs resound by being bottomless.

 

 

Sonnet No. 74

 

Shards of protection like sparklers to scare

Some destructive deer or birds from the field

Have the opposite intent than to ensnare,

And so you forgive, but I don’t feel healed.

It's not for us that time will be lacking,

For a love this great was not simply born

Through the machinations of one living,

And can survive a brief lifetime of scorn.

But in your heart, I know you love me more,

Though in chrysalis you may have bed it,

It aches to stretch its wings in new ardor,

And fly its full now, if you will permit.

Love is a butterfly that must be free;

Reborn, it outlives all catastrophe.

 

 

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Parker Owens

Number 73 speaks of love and forgiveness, twin notions that hold sway in my heart. You write with such eloquence of forgiveness - the week tubercular voice of one sick with guilt or remorse - what a perfect image. And then in 74, you give us no sappy syrupy ending, but what sounds like an alloyed reconciling. There is forgiveness, but also the grey pain of parting. As a pair these leave me quite in awe. 

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On 10/28/2017 at 10:50 AM, deville said:

Disquiet , uncertainty , distance all cause the pulse to race and heart to drop but the hope/ promise of absolution , change and transformation whisper quietly ,but strongly of healing and rebirth.

I once had a Syrian dorm-mate (in college) ask me what I thought was the most beautiful word in English. I told him "absolution." :)

 

Thanks, deville, for a great set of comments. I appreciate it.

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On 10/28/2017 at 11:03 AM, BlindAmbition said:

These are both powerful. I feel pain and sadness in 73. Along with frustration in how to make it right.

With 74, there’s guarded hope. Love and history that can’t be denied. Love is constantly changing shape. Resurrecting and reinventing within itself.

Thank you, JP! I think in a few words you really captured the moods, motivations - hopes and fears - that coursed through me as I wrote these two Sonnets. Thanks again for reading them and for sharing your thoughts with me. :) 

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On 10/28/2017 at 11:50 AM, Parker Owens said:

Number 73 speaks of love and forgiveness, twin notions that hold sway in my heart. You write with such eloquence of forgiveness - the week tubercular voice of one sick with guilt or remorse - what a perfect image. And then in 74, you give us no sappy syrupy ending, but what sounds like an alloyed reconciling. There is forgiveness, but also the grey pain of parting. As a pair these leave me quite in awe. 

Thank you, Parker! Regarding No. 73, I suppose sometimes a person feels very overshadowed/overpowered by the pureness of the emotion of love. I felt me nothing but a tiny voice in the great chest that has so much power to offer.

 

Thanks again for your great comments and support. I appreciate it a great deal.    

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