Sorry this chapter took me a few days, had some long hours at work and dental work. Been the worst. Anyways enjoy this chapter it's one of my favorites so far.
Chapter 9 - Who’s the biggest bitch?
A long long long month of no success trying to change into either form. Don’t judge me. I can feel you judging. I tried so many ways learn how to change. After Naga scared the 7ft monster out of me, I figured I needed to find out what triggered the shifts and learn how to do it. Easy peasy squirrel teasing. My first attempt had been to tie with my alpha again, and again, and again. We’d tied everywhere. In the woods - we did it - In a stream - we did it - on a mountain - well it was near a mountain. I think the pack was blind after all the times they’d caught us, one of the pups has run into us while we were still tied and after had asked his dama if I was trying to killing the alpha. I guess it could be misconceiving with all the noise I make and biting. Anyway, that hadn’t worked, no change, nothing not even some receding fur. I wasn’t discouraged though - I mean who could be after their alpha loved them so thoroughly? My next attempt had been to try and scare the hell out of myself. I’d picked some flowers from the mountain side and tried falling about half way down, it had been scary but no change and I think I wrenched my tail. I tried rushing a bear - my alpha does not know about that - and I ended up scaring the bear really bad. I actually made a bear shit itself, I hadn’t decided if I should be proud of that or not. My last desperate attempt had been to stalk Naga through the woods, that alone was terrifying. Of course when she caught me following her she told me I was a broken mutant freak and she’d rip my head off if I didn’t stop following her.
After all of my desperate attempts I’d started my stages of grief that have worked so well for me in life. Stage one: Denial - I didn’t want to talk about changing! I never shifted I have no idea what anyone is talking about I’ve never shifted and I don’t want to talk about it. Stage two: Anger - WHY! Why am I so fucking big! I think I threw a few things - also I might have scared a few pups during this little angry outburst. Sorry to all the mentally traumatized pups. Stage three: Bargaining - Dear Mother, if I could have at least one normal form I would never complain again. I’d even sacrifice eating small creatures, even though they taste the absolute best. I don’t know maybe not that I really like eating squirrels. Stage four: Depression - I cried, bit nasty sobs. My alpha made me feel a lot better when he licked away my tears. He was such a good mate. That lead me to my last stage - stage five: Acceptance. I laid sprawled out in the dirt near the dens, my eyes looking up at the clouds as I contemplated why I really needed two other forms. I had my alpha, and Alloy was my friend, maybe some of the pack members would even lighten up the longer they got to know me. I didn’t care, not one dead rats worth. I was happy just the way I was.
“Are you going to do anything useful.” A familiar female voice barked.
Naga stood a couple feet away in her second form, her blonde hair flowing luxuriously around her shoulders. She’d be beautiful if it wasn’t for her dead personality. I’d met snakes with better dispositions. I sat up looking at anything but the alpha bitch, I tug my talons into the hard ground hoping she’d leave me alone.
“I dug out Comira’s new den. Oh, and I also helped Kolz with the pups earlier today.” I said desperately trying to placate her. Alpha was not around and I knew she was taking her chance to say the same cruel things she usually said when she could get away with it. I didn’t tell Zora because I wanted to handle it on my own, he didn’t need anymore tension between him and the female alpha.
Naga narrowed her eyes. “You are the alpha’s mate and you think that’s doing enough? You should do more to prove you are worth your mate status.”
She might have a point. I should be doing more stuff to help my alpha with the pack, being his mate didn’t make me a trophy or at least I didn’t want it to. “You’re right I should be doing more. What should I do?” Who would better know what I should do than her? A devious light shined in her eyes. Yup I regret that one-hundred percent. Why did I open my mouth?
“I have the perfect job for the alpha mate.” She all but purred.
Moose farts, she was going to kill me.
Death would have been better — waaaay better.
Oh mother it was all over my fur, it was sticking to every single large inch of me. I tried not to gag as I moved more of the wretched stuff around the garden. Oh fuck it smelt like death. Was my nose bleeding, was that even physically possible? I love my alpha, I love my pack— I kept repeating those things out loud as I picked up the compost and put it all over the ground of the very large garden. I’d been wrong to think Naga was going to kill me, instead she’d just decided to torture me.
“The whole garden needs new compost put down. It’s the perfect job for you.” She’d said as she pointed to the very large pile of rot adjacent to the garden. “I have things to do, besides you’re big enough to finish the whole thing by yourself.”
She left me to stare at the giant pile swarming with flies, decomposing vegetation and— I shivered as I tried not to remind myself what I had caked into my fur. Washing the smell out would be very hard and I only prayed my alpha didn’t ask me to sleep on the other side of the den, or worse outside of the den! It was fine, I was helping the pack by doing this, Zora would be happy to see I was helping where I could. Some of the female wolves were watching me and talking, but I couldn’t hear what they were saying, and I couldn’t focus. I think I’m gonna barf.
I saw some of the pups come up to the edge of the garden. They snickered and barked as I passed their little sounds mimicking laughter. I’d been made fun of my whole life I was practically a master at knowing when I was being laughed at and in this case I was certain they were laughing at me. They sure as hell weren’t laughing with me, if I laughed I might breathe more of the smell in.
“Oooo what did he do?” One of the pups - I think her name was Idya - ask with big green eyes.
“Probably made mother mad.” Azya said with a tone so much like her mothers I thought Naga was nearby.
“I bet the alpha is mad at him too!” Kep said while staring at the muck I was covered in.
What were they talking about? My alpha wasn’t mad at me. Wait was he? Would the pups know something before I did? I had been over in the gardens for a long time. Had I done something wrong?
“My dama said the alpha mate is not good enough, maybe that’s why he’s being punished.” Azya explained with the seniority of a full grown wolf. She was just as intimidating at her mother, no maybe more she was already at this level of controlling.
“Your dama is jealous. That’s what my dama said.” Sekie interrupted me.
“Hey um—” I tried again
“My dama is not jealous, she’s the alpha bitch!” Azya barked. Ferocious for a little pup wasn’t she?
“HELLO?” I rumbled my voice sounding more forceful than I intended. The pups yelped and scurried for the nearest bushes hiding out of sight. HOG SHIT! I hadn’t meant to scare the itty bitties but they wouldn’t stop talking long enough to let me speak. I sloshed out of the garden, trying to breath through my mouth as much as possible. “Pups I didn’t mean to scare you. I just wanted to know what you were talking about before.” I said a softly as possible
Sekie stuck her head out from the bush first. Her silver eyes were wide as she stared up at me. I didn’t like to let it show, but it always hurt when the pups treated me like a monster. They were the only wolves in the pack that wouldn’t judge me because I couldn’t shift, but they were instinctively terrified of me.
“You smell really bad.” Sekie said hesitantly.
“I had a feeling I might. What were you talking about before, about the punishment?”
Sekie crawled out from under the bush, the others following slowly behind her. “Well only the bad wolves have to do this chore.” She said it as if I was the clueless one.
“Bad wolves?” I had a feeling I knew where this was going.
“Bad wolves like you, that aren’t meant to be born.” Azya barked, so much like her irritable mother.
I knew better than to take the words of a pup to heart, but standing there covered in decomposing shit being told I wasn’t meant to be born by my alpha’s pup really hit a sore spot.
I finished the garden sometime before sundown. Everyone in the pack gave me a wide berth when they caught wind of my stench. Now it wasn’t just my appearance that bothered them but my smell too. Yeah I’d been sulking a little after my encounter with the pups. They’d run off to play not long after but Azya’s words left a burning hole where my heart should have been. I should have gone straight to the river to bath off the crusted mess on my fur, but I’d wanted to see my alpha pretty badly and my paws and taken me to our den. I sat outside because I couldn’t imagine stinking up the place.
Zora walked up to the den not long after in his second form. He was covered in sweat, his beautiful body glistening with the remaining daylight. The happy rumble that escaped me wasn’t as embarrassing as it had been a month ago. Zora saw me as he approached, a smile stretched his across his face. As he got closer the smile started to fade as a horrible cringe took over his features my stink probably wafting over to him by then. I’d wanted to see my alpha, but I could have definitely bathed first.
“Ira why do you smell so foul, and what is all over your coat?” He seemed truly bewildered.
“I put the compost down in the gardens. It took a long time and I hope you are happy. It was really smelly, but worth it to make you happy and to be a good alpha mate, cause I always wants to be a good alpha mate for you and the pack, I want to make the pack like me because I work hard and I’ll work harder, and I know I stink really really bad but I wanted to see you before I went to the river to bath, because everyone is looking at me like I’m even more gross than usual.” I took a deep breath after that long rant.
Zora’s eyes widened and his mouth parted as if he wanted to respond but didn’t know how to. “Composting the garden wasn’t something you had to do mate, but I am happy you want to be a good alpha mate.” He smiled and came closer. “You do smell bad my omega, let us go to the pool together.” He reached out to touch my muzzle and noticeably breathing through his mouth. I really couldn’t blame him.
Smiling widely I got up and hugged him in the biggest bear hug. He gagged as I squeezed him tight to my crusty fur. “Oh oops sorry alpha, I got excited.” My tail wagged as I put him down and the rich scent of his sweat drench sink made me forget about how bad I smelt.
A smirk pulled at the corner of his handsome mouth. “Let us go before we both stink up the den.”
We went to the pool, the same one that Alloy had shown me. It was just me and my alpha in the moonlight and I felt so happy that I wanted to howl like the wolves in their four form. I didn’t want to seem weird in front of my mate, the sound I made in this form wasn’t the beautiful song the others made. It never had been. Zora rumbled as he walked into the crystal water watching me with inviting black eyes as he swam farther into the pool. Heat ran through my veins as I took in the beautiful sight, the moonlight playing over his skin and the water. This was my mate. A garbled moan escaped my maw as the instinctual sounds were held in my chest. Zora watched me from his spot in the water waiting for me to make my next move. Jumping in I let the water wash over my dirty fur and pull away the imperfections. It felt so good to have the cool water slide over my body.
My mate wrapped his arms around my waist from behind, rubbing his hands over my belly and hip the same way he did everyday. I loved when he did that, it made acceptance and love wash over me like a blanket. It made me realize that I was in love with my mate.
“The smell is washing away.” He swam around to face me, his hands still touching my body. “Alloy told me he brought you here. It is an amazing place we found when we were pups. I am certain only he and I know about the place— and you.”
“I love it here and the pack I’m so happy that I found you.” I said rubbing my muzzle against my alphas cheek. I’d wait to tell him more, I didn’t want him to think I was a crazy pup just feeling infatuation.
“I am the lucky one, Ira.” Zora hummed happily his black eyes alight with a joy he only ever seemed to have when we were together. Without warning my mate threw back his head and howled. The sound was not the same in the second form and not many wolves would do it but I had a feeling he was doing for me. Throwing back my head I howled with my mate our strange song beautiful because it was ours.
It didn’t take us long to finish bathing, and playing in the pool for awhile. My alpha had a pup streak in him, dunking my head under the water and pulling my tail in a game of tag. It had been the most fun I’d ever had in my life. My usual playmates were squirrels and they didn’t find out usual games of tag fun— I did tend to eat them when I caught them. We got off and dried off and began our walk back to the dens. I still smelled bad, but not nearly as bad as I had before. Thankfully my mate didn’t seem to mind and kept touching me whenever he got the chance. Did I tell you how lucky I was? I felt like the luckiest wolf in the world.
“I am thankful you composted the garden my mate. I should have told you there was no need.” Zora said as we walked back his hand touching my lower back. “I will have to devise another punishment for Naga, I was going to have her spread the compost as a lesson for her recent behavior.”
I stopped dead in my tracks, his words causing my left eye to twitch. “Naga was supposed to spread the compost?”
Zora nodded. “It’s fine my omega I will find another punishment.”
My eye twitched harder as the distinct urge to shout curled in my gut. THAT MOOSE FUCKING BITCH!
I was on a mission.
After finding out that wretched female had made me do her punishment I realized that I was done being walked on. I didn’t tell Zora the truth— How could I tell my alpha “OH well I was dumb enough to ask her.” Why did I think for one moment she would not be a raging deer shit eating—- Calm down Ira, you need to calm down. Deep breathes, very deep breathes. Ok, I was on a mission. Find the alpha bitch and confront her!
I was so nervous. My gut was a ball of stress as I marched over to the female’s den she shared with three of my other least favorite wolves. Naga, Teza, Miram and Comira all sat outside the den chatting back and forth about the other females of the pack. Oh, maybe this had been a bad idea. I paused a few feet away, awkwardly standing there like I had no idea where I was going. To make it worse the females had noticed me and were watching me as if I was demented or something. I could do this! I wasn’t Naga’s den mat and I would make sure she knew I wasn’t going to take it.
“I want to talk to you, Naga.” I said puffing out my chest to appear more confident.
Naga sneered not moving from her spot among the other wolves. “I have nothing to say to you.” She paused and took an offensive whiff of the air. “You really smell bad. I’d recommend bathing more often.” The other females snickered around her.
My gut twisted as the group of wolves laughed at me, my shoulders hunched as I became more aware I was out numbered. “Zora told me you were supposed to be the one to compost the garden. You were trying to get out of your punishment.” I snapped feeling my hackles rise.
Naga bared her teeth getting up on all fours. “You may be the alpha mate, but you won’t talk to me that way.” Her yellow eyes were blazing.
“You’re the one with the chip on your shoulder!” I growled a little terrified of her wild expression. “I won the alpha, no foxing!” I shouted loud enough that more pack members started to realize something was going on. Thank god my alpha wasn’t near the dens at the moment. I needed to solve this on my own.
“Fair! You didn’t win him fair you abnormal pain in the ass. You killed a deer by accident, you found him because he followed you, you aren't even able to birth pups and you can’t even figure out how to shift! You’re the worst candidate for alpha mate ever.” She roared, her hackles high.
Ok, so all of that stuff she’d just said was true, not much of a defense was there. I was really bad a facing my problems apparently. I should have just went with the acceptance stage instead of anger. “Well well you’re you’re—” My gut cramped and it all came out in a loud roar. “YOU’RE A FAT CORPSE BANDIT!” What?! What did that even mean?
Naga shifted her second form walking right up to me with no fear. Standing close she whispered a deadly threat. “I’m not going to give up being the alpha mate, and I don’t care what I have to do to get it. Even if it means getting rid of you.”