The first thing he noticed when he entered the house was the grey winter sunlight entering his living room. The second thing was the figure in full dark suit, complete with antique silver pin embedded with crustal between the lapels of its suit, wearing a bone mask.
Air stuck in his lungs before he carefully release a quiet shaky breath. The aged mask adorn with cracks looked like it belonged to a fox, but foxes skulls shouldn`t be that big.
"So it must be something long extinct.” His mind reasoned with him, trying to delay the inevitable.
Fox shouldn`t have antlers on its skulls either or a slight wave in its jaw lines. Judging from how far north those carnivorous jaws extend, he wasn`t sure if he could stay sane if he imagined its living form further.
The being stood in his living room. Strange, the air surrounding him are nothing but still and calm. But for him its like you are swimming for your life through a strong current and seeing all the sea creatures swimming about calmly. Yet he couldn`t see anything behind the gaps on the mask. Not even the eye socket. Only darkness. Suddenly as if awakened, the pair of eerie glowing golden eyes take its place. But the gold... If dark cognac was set fire, what colour could that be? His head hurts thinking about it.
”Be calm my Beloved.” A dark husky voice came from what Etienne assumed was the jaw.
He first felt the pressure on his knees before the whole legs weakened and tremble. Alarm ring in his head to run away as far as possible from this man that he used to know.
Someone he wanted to avoid, but at least a familiar face.
”Rey. How?” Were the only words he could mustered, whispered softly.
Strong elegant fingers reached for the mask and removed them as the being walked towards him. Its like removing the mask humanized the being, the air easier to breath.
The suits hugged his muscular form well, the fabric shift each step he took. His strides unhurried, but it wasn`t sluggish, merely confidence and holds the gait of a predator. Behind the mask, Etienne was awarded with the stern face of a man he had spend months fallen in love with and months more running away from.
"Etienne..." The man spoke quietly and almost too calm for Etienne`s liking.
The glow in his eyes dimmed, until it became hazel with a hint of brown. Said man only tilt his head slightly, his eyes unblinking, burning holes straight to his soul. Strong jawline adorn with stubble that he could almost feel underneath his fingertips, bronze tanned skin and raven haired slick back curled lightly at the nape of his neck. He had remember running through those soft hair when they were together on bed. The man`s handsome feature was everything he could asked for a partner. He looked late 20`s reaching 30`s but those ancient eyes heavy with burden couldn`t fool anyone to think he is young.
A pity he wasn`t a feature kind of man, he could have been persuaded with whatever the other wish to say. But he was more of a personality kind of person, which was why the first thing he did was swinging his fist and let it connected with the male`s face with a loud thud?
What did he just punched? A solid boulder?
A small sound escape the man`s lips. Not from pain but shock as he looked at Etienne. Shocked that the human had just punched him no matter how futile it is. The evidence was when Etienne flinched, only a small groan escape his lips as his arms numbly fell limp. His knuckle sting and his wrist feels as if he had two brick clash together and it was stuck between two.
The second smartest thing he did was tried to run back out, he took a step back and that was all Reynard need.
A snarl escape the man`s lips. Etienne`s eyes widen as the sound vibrate in the entire room and froze. With a sharp inhale he took another step back, almost stumbling. He was afraid, it was almost exhilarating, an ordeal he had to passed but he won`t be tempted.
Etienne was ten feet away from the man. Ten, before he saw the man spring forward at nearly impossible speed and feel iron grip on his arms. The momentum caused both of them to fly straight backwards and Etienne slammed against the closed door, black dots filled his vision and pain seared his back.
He bite back a pained groan. The younger male let out a shaky breath when the door rattled. His back throb and so does something else when the man pinned him. Reynard had one of his wrist pinned, another hand caged him on his side. The man pressed his heavy muscular against him, strong thigh wedged between his slender legs, slowly but firmly brushed against his growing hard on.
”Don`t move please. My control is only so thin.” Muffled growl emit from the male buried in his scarf and pressed against his neck. The husky voice felt so close to his ear and penetrate deep inside. There was a strange accent in the male`s English that he didn`t noticed before, it was light and lyrical. It was as if the male had spoken another language all together to him.
Don`t move please, my control is only so thin.
Is that why the male had come to him? Ensnared to the alluring and weak persona he had crafted?
Silence stretch long between them and the snow outside made everything so…quiet, peaceful,
“Forgive me..” The male said, his husky voice a light whisper, soft, gentle and careful as he pulled away slightly. As if Etienne was an animal with no conscience, years of pain and emotions bottled does not matter, as if he was a raging animal or frantic rabbit to be calmed down. Unreasonable in mind, thus, what he feels is invalid. As if he would be on his knees worshiping the male by now, his value so low to take two sentence apology spoken softly in their position,
“Forgive Me” and it repeated a thousand times in his mind.
It`s cold, freezing and he had a raging hard on which only cause him pain. His anger rousing quickly. Etienne swore his patience just snapped.
The sound echo in the room. Reynard`s eyes widen, words died in his lips as Etienne finally, finally had the courage to push him away. No longer was he a coward who ran away from his emotions. He didn`t know what`s up with the strange mask but if the man can be shot then he can die. When Reynard staggered, Etienne took the advantage.
”You! YOU!” He screamed. His left hand still numb, so he grab the male`s collar and use his weight to tackle him down, the strange mask fall to the floor heavily. All while Etienne was trying to land a blow on the man.
”You think I am a cheap bastard with inflated ego to take pleasure in someone lowering themselves for forgiveness? You think mere words are enough? No they are not and never will!. Your action and your choices had AGAIN AND AGAIN REFLECTED ON YOU!” Etienne shouted, those last words come out hoarse and gravel from his lips. His throat raw from screaming and his emotions. Dark endless black eyes, filled with equal pain looked into the god`s own.
The god was speechless, looking at the male`s quivering lips, eyes filled with pain and anger, breathing ragged. The man was beautiful but he had caused the very pain in those eyes.
Words stuck in his throat, it came out as a strange sound instead.
“Had even I say I forgive you, it will never mend the mistrust I have for you. I will listen to your explanation, but don`t…don`t mistaken my willingness to listen is an amendments between us.” His throat burn as he continued, voice tremble with rage and tears, brittle,
“You fucked up. You hurt me. I trusted you with information I didn`t even share with my family or anyone. Even if I have come out better in the end in one way, I am already broken from the ordeal. The pain you have caused me? I gave you my time, my trust and you spat on it by choosing something else over me. All I want to was loved. Cherished and you…you could not even give me that” His voice cracked, tears run down his wet cheeks, his eyes rimmed red and his breathing laboured, all as he tried to compose himself.
And he watched the man who now wears a broken look on his face. Perhaps it will finally reflect a speck of how he felt.
”Reynard. When I ran away that day, I came back..and found that you had betrayed me.”
”I am so tired. I am tired of being alone. I don`t want to be alone anymore…but..but if you did nothing…then I would rather be alone.” He chocked on the tears, the pain burst from biting his lips help him from turning into a hysterical mess.
So many things he didn`t noticed before. The body language, the small tiny details that spoke of the very being of a man he used to love. Many more things unsaid between them since he had run away with his tail tucked between his legs. He made Reynard his sanity. Betrayed, he had unleashed his anger on his family, he broke their mind by having them at each others throat, their safety, wealth taken, crimes and abuse exposed, he had played with their fear, cornered and terrified that some were reduced to mumbling and rocking themselves, unable to testify. Those who were spared because he struck early went into hiding. After he was done, then he had run away. He couldn`t come back and finish the Reynard. Couldn`t confront him and instead bottled his feelings up, forever watching behind his back by chance any remnants of his family would come back.
Finally, the words that escape those sensual rang with sincerity and struck Etienne`s heart,
“I truly am sorry..I wanted you, to save you the most and I did not think.” The male took in a deep breath,
”and for this as well.”
All the human could see was a blur and firm grasp, covering his eyes. The man gasped, as if he had just realized there was something disconcerting earlier when he first enter the apartment.
The last thing he saw was complete darkness, and everything was silence as his world became mute and dark.
Will I be editing this? Yes. Please keep in mind that all the chapters are not checked at all after I write it once. I want to just write and fix it later. Thank you for reading. Tell me your opinion about this. Maybe I will edit a cover for this story.