Tears for a boy - 1. Tears for a boy

All the tears fall to the earth as if they were made of metal
and the earth a great magnet drawing them out of my eyes
how can I resist as I feel them burning
from the back slowly moving forward across my eyes…

My heart I no longer feel
for the pain has numbed all feeling from me
only when the great magnet that is the earth starts to draw the tears from my eyes there is a feeling where my heart must be
even then I wish that it was cut out of its place for the pain it gives me…

Leaving me to wonder where is my love
the one to change the steel as cold as ice for a heart of love and warmth
if only for a second my life would not mean nothing
to give me hope for a day
that life does not mean pain
a pain that would have me forsake even life
so as not to feel…

Sometimes I feel him
he is not far from me
his breath on my skin his lips feathers soft on my own
slowly bringing life to my soul for a second
to let death flee from my body
the touch of his hands to bring warmth to me
slowly bringing life to me
but alas only a vision from a time to come
or a dream from the dying heart of mine…

If only you can see me my love for you
my love I have never met
I know you will bring back my love and life
to the body that has been so cold at night
slowly I whisper for love for you
I plead for change from dark to light
from this oppression to freedom
to spread the wings
for my soul to live and love once more…

For I fear that I can wait no longer
I am slowly dying for the nothing that lives inside of me
the great longing that I find when I see my image in a reflection
the dread for the cold that clings to me
save me from my bondage from the chains that line my heart
for you are the key to the great lock that rests on my soul…

Waste not time along your road my love
for your root leads you to me
and for you hold the key to this misery
the end lays with you but it is not the end of me
only the beginning of us and the end of the nothing…

There you are you look but you do not see
you see through me not into me
oh my heart that is so cold has broken once more
look at me once more look deeper look at my need
the reaching of my soul it reaches for you do not turn away
look deeper in to my eyes in to my very soul…

Close your eyes and listen to your soul
for I can hear it screaming
the sorrow the flow of your tears
do not deny it for I see it deep in your soul
the needing the reaching for love
come in to my embrace let the warmth of your soul
grasp me and ignite and heat me from within…

Why do you leave
I can see in your pools of blue so bright
I can see the needing the yearning
for the love the love only I can give
do not fear the words of others
for they know not of what they speak
for they speak out of ignorance and hate
but I speak out of love and compassion
turn back to me
face me ones more
for if not my heart will no longer beat
and you will feel empty for ever not knowing…

Oh just the touch of your skin to mine
is all it would take for the life that lies dormant
to spark in great flames
and the heat of your love would dry the great wells
that leak these tears forever more
so turn to me look into the pools of silver
that are the windows to my soul…

Finally you look once into my eyes
I see once more your sorrow your pain
that they have done to you
the hurt that is written on your soul
the hate that they have given you
come to me into my embrace feel my love for you
feel it as my lips touch your oh so softly as a feather…

As my lips touch yours
I see all the pain and sorrow leave you
only the wanting the needing for love remains
as my hand runs through your strands of gold
I see the need in your eyes
I see only love and caring for me
I see the spark that is your soul it comes closer
as your lips meet mine…

I feel the spark run up and down my body
finally reaching deeper
into my soul setting fire to the cold and pain
lighting the pools of hope that lay within my soul
breaking the chains of fear
and heating me from within to a blaze…

As our bodies grind together
from the undeniable need for the heat of love
I feel your heart touch mine mending the cracks
and forcing the cold to flee before the love we feel
the lust that consumes us is unbearable as the pleasure plays over us…

Sienata