Well it's been a wile sins i have posted a blog entry...
I'm tired and it's not because it has been a tiring day, no mostly my mind is tired of thinking tired of dreaming tired of dreaming of hoping.
Everything and nothing has changed... i'm living with my mother a now, ya i know but it's better here really it is she has changed a lot i don't know how she came to be enlightened but she has and i don't want to ask...
How did i come to be here... Well one day i was chatting with a fr
I don't really know what to do so ill just babble here maybe ill feel better... It hurts so much... A lot has changed mustily i'm out now but that mite not be a good thing just like i feared my dad is a bigot... not to mention the rest of my family and that hurts like a b... especially when you have to look at them every day guess that is whey i hide everyday up in my little perch away from there nasty words and dirty looks...
Oh i guess i forgot about the little talks... Yes those kind of t
How things stand right now i see a lot of problems I need to fix or work on...
First is my family how seem to think that i was born to serve them hand and foot... Needs to change now...
Job is weary important to me for obvious reasons... To get out of wear i am i need to work...
Drivers license also important to fix my problem of being stuck at the house... So to fix that or to free my self that need to re read the book and go stand in the q for 6h a gene and hope this time the wont fail
Shy... Right that is why i'm so flirty with my friends... guess that is also the reason i freez up when good looking guy talks to me or the reason i make a ass of my self talking to new people right... Nope not shy just stuped and sceard to death of rejection... yes i know stuped don't remind me grumble grumble
But still it's there rearing a ugly head every time i talk to some nice guy or try at least choking on my own words like a little boy i don't know hoe it got there it's not always be
The last four weeks of my life have been a living hell...
Here go's. My mom walked out on us and my family is falling apart, my sister found out that i am gay, i came out to my one of my best friend, me mom stole all of my money yes all of it lol dad is helping me, he dose not know i'm gay,... But there is one light in the dark i gained a Best friend
And that is a short version sigh
Ok from the beginning...
Mom and three of my friends now ex-friends left the house wile i was awa
