Pop ate my heart - 1. Chapter 1

I was laying on my bed. It was April 8th and I was talking to a boy who I met a few months ago. Actually, I was in love with that boy and he knew that, but he had broken up with his ex just a few weeks ago and he said he wasn't ready for another relationship. Also, I knew it'd be complicated because we lived far from each other. I was happy because, at least, we could be friends. He was very very beautiful. He had blue eyes, blonde hair and his body vas not very thin, but he wasn't fat at all. Actually, he had some muscles! Me, on the other hand, I was a chubby guy. I always had been. Yeah, the chubby guy in love with the beautiful guy who could have anyone he wanted. One of the many things we had in common was that we both loved Lady Gaga. Just to give you a hint, I had never been a huge fan of music. Not until I heard Just Dance and Poker Face for the first time. When I heard Lady Gaga, music clicked on me and I became an unconditional fan of hers. But yeah, we had many things in common. So, it was easy for us to spend lots and lots of time talking to each other.

One of the things that made me sure I was in love with him was that I was absolutely addicted to him! I know he said he wasn't ready for a relationship by then but I could tell he really liked me for the way he seemed to want to talk to me as much as I wanted to talk with him. I loved to make him smile. Also, we lived in different parts of Portugal and so, we had different accents. It was so funny for us to say certain things with a strong accent so that the words would become even funnier! Well, I was really in love with him and at least he didn't "run away" from me when I told him.

Days passed and we were still very close, at least as much as we could. April 25th.

After I ate dinner, I went back to my room and sat down on the computer. I had been talking to Brian all day.

"How was dinner", he asked me.

"It was good. Have you eaten yet", I asked.

"Now, I'm not really hungry", he replied.

I looked at him laying on his bed. His shirt was a bit lift up and I could see his belly. He had some abs, actually.

"No wonder why you're so beautiful", I thought to myself.

"Well, you should eat", I told him.

He looked at my image and he said "I feel nervous today".

"Is that why you're not hungry", I asked. "Why are you nervous?"

For a few seconds he didn't say anything, he just stared at my image on his laptop.

"I am nervous because... today I realized I'm in love with you. And I'm afraid of you not wanting me anymore because I dumped you before."

My heart skipped a beat and I felt like everything was finally perfect.

"How could I not want you anymore? I still love you, Brian."

He smiled and his face turned red.

"Are you blushing", I asked with the biggest smile on my face.

"I love you, Michael."

"I love you too, Brian" I replied instantly. "I wish I could kiss you right now..."

"Close your eyes and imagine me there with you", he said.

I did close my eyes and I said "I have never kissed anyone before, how does it feel?"

I knew he had boyfriends before, so he knew the answer to my question.

"I bet kissing you would be much better than every time I have kissed anyone else", he answered.

We spent the rest of the night talking. I felt happier than ever before in my life.