Smoked Clarity - 1. Control

I sit curled up,

Around my knees,

Rocking back and forth,

in the breeze.

Ba-dump Ba-dump,

Echo's in my ears,

My fingers curl,

Digging in to bare flesh.

Building, boiling, overflowing,

Blood drips from finger nails,

I remember the rage,

The pain the hate.

The monster within,

that will seal my fate,

In a matter of seconds,

It all came true.

All the thoughts,

Of burying you,

You were my only friend,

How i loved you.

The pain came from,

How I lost you,

It wasn't the doctor,

mum or dad.

In the end it rest with,

Myself,

I can't help,

But to forget how it feels,

To truly love Someone,

Something real.

All alone by myself,

Out in the woods,

I curse and screamed,

till I no longer could,

Since that day i've,

No longer loved or cared as i should.