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Track List Closed Doors (Message To Bears) - Overture: Taryn Inside Looking Out For Adrian (Many Years Ago) (Mark Tulk) - Taryn’s Song Darkest Dreaming (David Sylvian) - Taryn’s Dreams of Escape Shattered Dreams (Johnny Hates Jazz) - The Last Straw Shake Dog Shake (The Cure) - A Fateful Decision Leave In Silence (Depeche Mode) - Stealing Away Into The Night Dirty Blvd. (Lou Reed) - Taryn and Alec on the Cold Streets of Chicago To The Ends Of The Earth (The Unfinished) - Homeless and Hungry If Only Tonight We Could Sleep (The Cure) - Survival: Failing Letting Go (Wild Nothing) - Realities and Realizations You Found Me (The Fray) - When Comes The Beautiful Stranger Indigo Eyes (Peter Murphy) - Trevor Cry Little Sister (Marilyn Manson) - Discovering The Sleeping Undead The Hopeless (Velvet Acid Christ) - Alec Is Sick After The Fall (Chelsea Wolfe) - From Bad To Worse Lost Little Boys (Fatherson) - It Just Isn’t Working God Bless The Child (Annie Lennox) - Taryn’s Choice Abandoned (Antarctic Wastelands) - A Promise Never Kept Age Of Consent (Arcade Fire) - Taryn Consents Darkness (Disturbed) - Taryn’s Last Day When Love And Death Embrace (HIM) - Taryn: Gone From Daylight Dark Shores - The Anchor By The Lake Forever Young (OneDirection) - A Light In The Darkness Ocean Eyes (American Avenue) - Justin Time A Time For Us (André Rieu) - Love Found In The Darkness ———————————— Closed Doors (Message To Bears) - Taryn Inside Looking Out Instrumental Overture For Adrian (Many Years Ago) (Mark Tulk) - Taryn’s Song Many years ago When only boy So many years ago Many years ago At the age of eight So many years ago Many years ago You took me aside To a darkened room Closed the door On a moonless night The curtains were drawn I wanted to run But I didn’t know why Many years ago When only boy So many years ago Many years ago At the age of eight So many years ago You took my hand As you loosened your belt I started to shake I didn’t know why You held me down With your Policeman’s hands And ordered me not To make any sound Many years ago (X4) Many years ago You took me aside To a darkened room And closed the door On a moonless night The curtains were drawn I wanted to run But I didn’t know why Many years ago As I was starting to gag So many years ago Many years ago At the age of eight So many years ago You let go of my hand And tightened your belt I fumbled for the door I tried not to cry The light of the hall It blinded my eyes I swallowed the words You planted inside “Tell Mommy or Daddy and I’ll take them away.” (X) Darkest Dreaming (David Sylvian) - Taryn’s Dreams of Escape Stay tonight We'll watch the full moon rising Hold on tight The sky is breaking I don't ever want to be alone With all my darkest dreaming Hold me close The sky is breaking I don't ever want to be alone With all my darkest dreaming Hold me close The sky is breaking Shattered Dreams (Johnny Hates Jazz) - The Last Straw So much for your promises They died the day you let me go Caught up in a web of lies But it was just too late to know I thought it was you Who would stand by my side And now you've given me, given me Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams Feel like I could run away, run away From this empty heart You said you'd die for me, Woke up to reality And found the future not so bright I dreamt the impossible That maybe things could work out right I thought it was you Who would do me no wrong But now you've given me, given me Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams Feel like I could run away, run away From this empty heart You've given me, given me Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams Feel like I could run away, run away From this empty heart From this empty heart I thought it was you who said they'd die for love And now you've given me, given me Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams Feel like I could run away, run away From this empty heart You've given me, given me Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams Feel like I could run away, run away From this empty heart Oh no no no you said you'd die for me Oh oh die for me So much for your promises Shake Dog Shake (The Cure) - A Fateful Decision Ha ha ha Wake up in the dark The after-taste of anger in the back of my mouth Spit it on the wall And cough some more And scrape my skin with razor blades And make up in the new blood And try to look so good Follow me Make up in the new blood And follow me to where the real fun is Ha ha ha As stale and selfish as a sick dog Spurning sex like an animal of god I'll tear your red hair by the roots And hold you blazing Hold you cherished in the dead electric light Your face I'll never see you this way again I captured it so perfectly As if I knew you'd disappear away Shake shake shake shake Shake shake shake shake Shake dog shake Shake shake shake shake Shake shake shake shake Shake dog shake You hit me again You howl and hit me again The same sharp pain Wakes me in the dark And cuts me from my throat to my pounding heart My heart My shaking heart My howl my shake dog Oh shake dog shake Shake shake Shake dog shake But we slept all night in the virgin's bed And dreamed of death And breathed like sick dogs We slept all night in the virgin's bed And breathed like death And dreamed of sick dogs Shake shake Shake dog shake Wake up wake up wake up Shake dog shake Wake up wake up wake up Shake dog shake Wake up in the new blood Make up in the new blood Shake up in the new blood And follow me to where the real fun is Shake dog shake Leave In Silence (Depeche Mode) - Stealing Away Into The Night I've told myself so many times before But this time I think I mean it for sure We have reached a full stop Nothing's gonna save us from the big drop Reached our natural conclusion Outlived the illusion I hate being in these situations That call for diplomatic relations If I only knew the answer Or I thought we had a chance Or I could stop this I would stop this thing from spreading like a cancer What can I say? (I don't want to play) anymore What can I say? I'm heading for the door I can't stand this emotional violence Leave in silence We've been running around in circles all year Doing this and that and getting nowhere This'll be the last time (I think I said that last time) If I only had a potion, Some magical lotion That could stop this, I would stop this I would set the wheels in motion What can I say? (I don't want to play) anymore What can I say? I'm heading for the door I can't stand this emotional violence Leave in silence Dirty Blvd. (Lou Reed) - Taryn and Alec on the Cold Streets of Chicago Pedro lives out of the Wilshire Hotel he looks out a window without glass The walls are made of cardboard, newspapers on his feet his father beats him 'cause he's too tired to beg He's got 9 brothers and sisters they're brought up on their knees it's hard to run when a coat hanger beats you on the thighs Pedro dreams of being older and killing the old man but that's a slim chance he's going to the boulevard He's going to end up, on the dirty boulevard he's going out, to the dirty boulevard He's going down, to the dirty boulevard This room cost 2, 000 dollars a month you can believe it man it's true somewhere a landlord's laughing till he wets his pants No one here dreams of being a doctor or a lawyer or anything they dream of dealing on the dirty boulevard Give me your hungry, your tired your poor I'll piss on 'em that's what the Statue of Bigotry says Your poor huddled masses, let's club 'em to death and get it over with and just dump 'em on the boulevard Get to end up, on the dirty boulevard going out, to the dirty boulevard He's going down, on the dirty boulevard going out Outside it's a bright night there's an opera at Lincoln Center movie stars arrive by limousine The klieg lights shoot up over the skyline of Manhattan but the lights are out on the Mean Streets A small kid stands by the Lincoln Tunnel he's selling plastic roses for a buck The traffic's backed up to 39th street the TV whores are calling the cops out for a suck And back at the Wilshire, Pedro sits there dreaming he's found a book on magic in a garbage can He looks at the pictures and stares at the cracked ceiling "At the count of 3" he says, "I hope I can disappear” And fly fly away, from this dirty boulevard I want to fly, from dirty boulevard I want to fly, from dirty boulevard I want to fly-fly-fly-fly, from dirty boulevard I want to fly away I want to fly Fly, fly away I want to fly Fly-fly away (Fly a-) fly-fly-fly (-way, ooohhh...) Fly-fly away (I want to fly-fly away) fly away (I want to fly, wow-woh, no, fly away) To The Ends Of The Earth (The Unfinished) - Homeless and Hungry A Desperate Instrumental If Only Tonight We Could Sleep (The Cure) - Survival: Failing If only tonight we could sleep In a bed made of flowers If only tonight we could fall In a deathless spell If only tonight we could slide Into deep black water And breathe And breathe Then an angel would come With burning eyes like stars And bury us deep In his velvet arms And the rain would cry As our faces slipped away And the rain would cry Don't let it end Letting Go (Wild Nothing) - Realities and Realizations [Verse 1] It's getting hard for me to reframe all those shifting memories Like a music box that never starts dancing by itself What a broken world, what a broken world It is my only wish to see you, to see through you I step inside [Chorus] Letting go I want to be happier now I want to be more than closed Surreal, the way you made me out The way you crashed me down [Verse 2] It's getting hard for me to remember all of the names from my life You've been so many different kinds of people in my mind [Chorus] Letting go I want to be happier now I want to be more than closed Surreal, the way you made me out Letting go I want to be happier now I want to be more than closed Surreal, the way you made me out The way you crashed me down [Instrumental Bridge] [Chorus] Letting go I want to be happier now I want to be more than closed Surreal, the way you made me out Letting go I want to be happier now I want to be more than closed Surreal, the way you made me out The way you crashed me down You Found Me (The Fray) - When Comes The Beautiful Stranger I found God on the corner of First in Amistad Where the west was all but won All alone Smoking his last cigarette I said where you been? He said, ask anything Where were you When everything was falling apart? All my days Spent by the telephone That never rang And all I needed was a call That never came From the corner of First and Amistad Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me In the end Everyone ends up alone Losing her The only one who's ever known Who I am, who I'm not, and who I wanna be No way to know How long she will be next to me Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me Early morning City breaks I've been calling For years and years and years and years And you never left me no messages You never send me no letters You got some kind of nerve Taking all I want Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Where were you? Where were you? Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me Why'd you have to wait To find me? To find me? Indigo Eyes (Peter Murphy) - Trevor Fire burning in a hill The lines are rocky rough Red angels wait to pick remains The cindered shoulder Of confused men Separate from their awe With grey desire He looks out mad His soft grey indigo eyes Indigo eyes... Asking His heaven is uncovered not A black tree blocks his way His way is skating round a dome (His way is in dismay) The playmate sings Like Orpheus in some thunder world Asking to be bathed in light To be exemplified With grey desire he looks out mad His soft grey indigo eyes Saw his past He had dug for trust With blind infected hands And wondered as the hurt bit hard Why the sacred weren't at hand Only when his ears were deaf To the angels light burst waves Only when his ears were deaf Did life turn from fog to fog But not evil but estranged But not evil but estranged Indigo eyes, Indigo eyes Indigo eyes, Indigo eyes With grey desire He looks out mad His soft grey Indigo eyes Indigo eyes Cry Little Sister (Marilyn Manson) - Discovering The Sleeping Undead [Verse 1] Last fire will rise behind those eyes Black house will rock, blind boys don't lie Immortal fear, that voice so clear Through broken walls, that scream I hear [Chorus] Cry, little sister (Thou shall not fall) Come, come to your brother (Thou shall not die) Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear) Love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill) [Verse 2] Blue masquerade, strangers look on When will they learn this loneliness? Temptation heat beats like a drum Deep in your veins, I will not lie [Chorus] Little sister (Thou shall not fall) Come, come to your brother (Thou shall not die) Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear) Love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill) [Bridge] My Shangri-La, I can't forget Why you were mine, I need you now Cry, little sister Come, come to your brother Unchain me, sister Love is with your brother [Chorus] Cry, little sister (Thou shall not fall) Love is with your brother (Thou shall not die) Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear) Love, love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill) Cry, little sister (Thou shall not fall) Love is with your brother (Thou shall not die) Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear) Love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill) The Hopeless (Velvet Acid Christ) - Alec Is Sick A force fed lie, our dead dream Awake upon a staircase Start looking downward into Hell Where the last life screamed and we screeched "We're always, always a bloody mess, a bloody mess" Lying hole, tired eyes, you're screeching You're scraping the bone with your life Into a dream, we will fade Hopeless, the hopeless, the hopeless, the hopeless The hopeless, the hopeless, the hopeless They're calling of the dead, calling of the dead You liars, and your face And your eyes separate the fear, the lies, the fate Set into eyes, the calling of the dead Image in the light, they calling you dead They won't believe signs, they don't believe your cries They always open eyes, and the light all over your head, your head Time distortion, crawling onto your knees Crawl onto the floor, get off your feet A lie in the wake, spiralling down Glass feeling moments all over your arms, over your arms Condemned, force fed, force fed, you're calling dead Feeling your flesh ripped apart with Heaven and Hell The conflict of everything was sent from Heaven and Hell The conflict of disease, the life-long breeding season For your lips, you'll take away the life that was given so easily Now all becomes the entity of hate, shows you hate Shows you light, shows you everything. everything The fading light, a broken dream You're everything, your everything Kneel to the floor, get off your knees Raise up to the light, you won't feel a thing Inject the needle, inject the time Kill all the light with forces of the night Always a lost day, always a hopeless brain Always everything, always force fed Into your head, into head, into your life Where you dream, that's where you go That's how it lives, that's how you know pain No choice, no life, no choice, no freedom Just separation, segregation, the annihilation Annihilation, annihilation, annihilation After The Fall (Chelsea Wolfe) - From Bad To Worse Nothing will keep us apart I said nothing will keep us apart I know that you'll find me there I know that you'll find me After the fall I know that you're waiting I know that you'll find me there After the fall I know that you're waiting Ready to run Chasing the sun I can't wake up Scream and run Don't let them win Nothing will keep us apart I know that you'll find me After the fall I know that you're waiting I know that you'll find me there After the fall I know that you're waiting Ready to run Chasing the sun I can't wake up Scream and run Don't let them win Nothing will keep us apart Go on, drive into the morning Never give up Never give in Lost Little Boys (Fatherson) - It Just Isn’t Working [Verse 1] It's a cold summers night Are you beside me? I can't tell I need your help I need it honestly I can't stand up right these days But you owe me that Yeah, you owe me that [Chorus 1] Cause we're just lost little boys Making a name for ourselves [Verse 2] It's a cold summers night Are you beside me, in good health? I need your help I need it honestly I can't stand up right these days But you owe me that Yeah, you owe me that [Chorus 2] Cause we're just lost little boys Making a name for ourselves And we're just lost little boys Making such fools of ourselves [Bridge] I'm not one for second chances, I'm just lost If I'd stopped then I really would be giving up now But I'm not one for second chances I've never been one for second chances And I'm not one for second chances I've never been one for second chances [Chorus 3] Cause we're just lost little boys Making a name for ourselves And we're just lost litle boys Making a name for ourselves And we're just lost little boys Making such fools of ourselves God Bless The Child (Annie Lennox) - Taryn’s Choice Them that's got shall have Them that's not shall lose So the Bible said and it still is news Mama may have, Papa may have But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own Yes, the strong gets more While the weak ones fade Empty pockets don't ever make the grade Mama may have, Papa may have But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own Money, you've got lots of friends They're crowding around your door But when you're gone and spending ends They don't come no more Rich relations give crust of bread and such You can help yourself, but don't take too much Mama may have, Papa may have But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own Money you've got lots of friends They're crowding around your door But when you're gone and spending ends They don't come no more Rich relations give crust of bread and such You can help yourself, but don't take too much Mama may have, Papa may have But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own Here just don't worry about nothing cause he's got his own Yes, he's got his own Abandoned (Antarctic Wastelands) - A Promise Never Kept A cold adagio for the lost. Age Of Consent (Arcade Fire) - Taryn Consents Won't you please let me go These words lie inside they hurt me so And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you Just what I want to do I'm not the kind that needs to tell you Just what you want me to I saw you this morning I thought that you might like to know I received your message in full a few days ago I understood every word that it said And now that I've actually heard it You're going to regret And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you Just what you want me to You're not the kind that needs to tell me About the birds and the bees Do you find this happens all the time Crucial point one day becomes a crime And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you Just what I want to do I'm not the kind that needs to tell you I've lost you [x5] I've lost you [x5] I've lost you [x5] Darkness (Disturbed) - Taryn’s Last Day Don't turn away I pray you've heard The words I've spoken Dare to believe Over one last time Then I'll let the Darkness cover me Deny everything Slowly walk away To breathe again On my own Carry me away I need your strength To get me through this Dare to believe Over one last time Then I'll let the Darkness cover me Deny everything Slowly walk away To breathe again On my own On my own On my own On my own On my own Dare to believe Over one last time Then I'll let the Darkness cover me Deny everything Slowly walk away To breathe again On my own On my own When Love And Death Embrace (HIM) - Taryn: Gone From Daylight I'm in love with you And it's crushing my heart All I want is you To take me into your arms When love and death embrace I love you And you're crushing my heart I need you Please take me into your arms When love and death embrace When love and death embrace When love and death embrace Oh oh ohhh When love and death embrace Oh oh when love and death embrace Oh oh When love and death embrace When love and death When love and death When love and death embrace Oh When love and death embrace Oh When love and death embrace Oh When love and death embrace Oh When love and death embrace Dark Shores (Stand Of Oaks) - The Anchor By The Lake Minerals formed by the rain Whispers echo deep inside the cave On an ice moon where all our fathers’ live We’ll go there to find some rest I spent most of my life Wandering in the wasted hours I spent most of my life Wandering in the wasted hours Storm clouds gather around our heads Black birds circle waiting to be fed I’ll build a house on these dark shores Past lives won’t bother anymore They won’t find me here (I spent most of my life, wandering in the wasted hours) Forever Young (OneDirection) - A Light In The Darkness Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies Hoping for the best but expecting the worst Are you gonna drop the bomb or not? Let us die young or let us live forever We don't have the power but we never say never Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip The music's for the sad men Can you imagine when this race is won Turn our golden faces into the sun Praising our leaders, we're getting in tune The music's played by the mad men Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever? Forever young Some are like water, some are like the heat Some are a melody and some are the beat Sooner or later, they all will be gone Why don't they stay young? It's so hard to get old without a cause I don't want to perish like a fading horse Youth's like diamonds in the sun And diamonds are forever So many adventures couldn't happen today So many songs we forgot to play So many dreams swinging out of the blue We let them come true Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever? Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever? Ocean Eyes (American Avenue) - Justin Time (Reprise from ‘Gone From Daylight’) Time For Us (André Rieu) - Love Found In The Darkness Instrumental Reprise of Taryn and Justin’s Love Theme