Does it every just spring up on you?

Right now, I'm feeling it. I'm writing up a CV for my professor to get him

to write a recomendation, and I realize...I peaked at the age of 20. I haven't

done anything noteworthy since 2007.

College started out great for me- I was a tutor, I was involved in a sport,

I had a job, I was involved in a lot of activities.

And then I transfer to UD, and I get it into my head that I'm John Walsh

from Fraternity Memoirs, and I don't do anything except party my ass off and go

on the occasional burn ride. I was involved with some stuff, but not nearly as

much as I used to be.

Then I get put on a Dean's Vacation for a year, and I spend it bumming

around in community college and partying my ass off in bars and parties. And I

come back, and I don't really do anything, at all.

I thought I was going to leave behind this great legacy when I graduate

from college...and I'm not. No one is going to remember that I was ever there,

because I just didn't much while I was there. I had this great opportunity to go

to this really fine school, and I didn't do nearly as much with it as I should

have.

And it's too late now- I'm graduating in 8 weeks baring failing Italian-

and when I step off the stage, only my family members are going to clap because

they're the only ones who are going to know who the hell I am.

I guess all I can do is remember this feeling, and try and do more in

graduate school*fingers crossed* than I did during my time here at University of

Delaware.