It's official... In two weeks I'm moving to PA permanently and I'm scared. I can't focus on anything nor can I get anything done...

I've been trying to distract myself with reading but it's not working... I've been talking to people but I feel like I'm being annoying so I stopped... I've only been talking to people I care for but it's not working...

It's scary to move away from your parents but I feel like I'm not doing anything right... I feel as if I'm creeping back to my dark aide again and I'm really really trying not to...

My friends and family noticed this with me... That I'm sleeping more and I'm being more of a bitch than usual... I hate it so I'm just taking time for myself...

I'm trying to feel better but I can't feel it... Ugh... I hate writing blog entries like this cus I feel like I'm just being an emo wreck... But I gotta get it out so it doesn't eat away at me...

Eric