My mother found out today that her long-time companion, who lives with us, is going to die of leukemia in a few weeks. He's 83, and he's had awful health problems for the last two years, so more than anything, I feel relief for him that he's going to be released from the constant pain he's had.

I just feel bad for my mother,. It's going to be hard for her. She really did depend on him. When I said it was going to be alright, she cried, "But I wanted him to live long enough to pay off his car!"

At the same time, I just feel an overwhelming sense of relief, because as his health deteriorated, he had gotten increasingly verbally abusive to my mother and to myself. It's just his time.

And the other thing is...it probably sounds selfish, but I've felt this obligation to stay in Delaware despite the fact that this state is such a dead-end if you're not in healthcare, chemicals, or the banking industry, because my mother needed help in caring for him. So there's that.

I feel like there's a bumpy couple of months for us, but we'll be okay. Still, I do feel bad for my mother, and I hope that he manages to have as little pain as possible for the last couple weeks.

Anyway....

I just feel like there's a new era about to dawn, and some transitions to be made, but I just feel like everything will be alright, no matter how they turn out.