I haven't seen the guy I have the hugest crush on in over a month. Whenever I see my work schedule, it's always frustrating because he works the day before and after I happen to work. Grr! Today, my friend Tammy and I felt like going shopping, so we decided to go into Express. We found some really cool tops for her and went over to the guy's section to look at some graphic tees. Out of nowhere, Josh comes up and starts talking to me!

Holy eff.. lol I was so not prepared for that. We had pretty much walked around the store, and I hadn't seen him. Anyway.. I was a stumbling mess, and he was saying how he hadn't seen me in a while. Pretty much, I kept kicking myself after everything I said for not being witty and funny. But yeah, so I ended up ending the conversation by turning away and looking at other stuff. I had told Tammy about how HOT I thought he was months ago, and she was surprised to see that i was right. He's hot in an adorable type of way. I think he's about my height, maybe a little bit shorter. Blond. Cute. Really amazing smile.

But yeah, so I bought some really cool shirts, one which I especially can't wait to wear! I went to the back to check out at the cash register, and he was there but his back was facing me so I couldn't really see him. He went to help someone in the front, and on my way out, Tammy was pushing me to go by and say bye. He looked busy, so I didn't. We get outside, and then Tammy starts. :wacko:

She thinks he was totally interested and was trying to start conversation with me. I mean yeah, he didn't have to come talk to me since I wasn't even in his zone. I'm a little hesitant, because I'm completely gaga over him, so I don't want to misinterpret anything. But yeah, she said I came off aloof and not very interested (which is exactly how I act around guys I really like). Apparently, he seemed nervous but attempting to keep the conversation going, and at the cash wrap he was trying really hard not to look at me. Personally, I hope she's right. He gives me butterflies. And he's so nice! The only thing is, I really don't even know how to talk to him more, let alone get around and date the guy. I mean, we hardly ever even see each other at work! I would totally date him in an instant though, even over that stupid little pact. I got her permission though, so it's fine.

I have a midterm I should be studying for for tomorrow. Instead, here I am gushing over the hot, sweet guy at work. *shakes head* I'm off!

-Richie