Your so young - and of course - all of these things are swimming around your head - especially now - the world's changed so much, from when I was a teenager - (like a million year's ago!!) - I'm pretty sure what your "scared" or "cautious", of is something "Absolute" or "All encompassing" - or "Final"... Sexuality isn't like that for alot of people (especially in hindsight) - It changes - It's fluid - It twists and turns (hehe) - it's like a long river, that is always searching for the sea - a journey - people go through so many stages of sexuality through their lives and although their "essence" or "true selves" always remain the same... the times change... circumstances change....desire itself indeed...changes, morph's into realms that are not foreseeable - You sound like you have strong convictions and heart-felt values and thats great - go with that - follow that - it's there to guide you - and your not judging other's either - which is also a good thing - because it means that you know who you are. In many many years to come - I think you'll find yourself less perplexed about these "Issues"... Less interested in them...(I don't mean to sound condescending)
Hope I haven't over-stepped the mark
