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I don't think that's nitpicking, thanks for pointing it out! The funny thing is I love Thirty Seconds to Mars too! I have no idea how I slipped!

I was honestly thinking of a running Oli book I update when I have the chance but wasn't sure how many of you would read it. It wouldn't get updated very often because I'll be working on other projects. However if enough of you are interested I have no problem with it.

---Ryder--- In the coming days after the studio the Haner family seemed to be overwhelmed. Between Teddy trying his hardest to get better and the surprise drop of both Messiah’s last album and Unity’s second song, well, we had a lot going on. Yet, Teddy was always everyone’s main priority. Sure, the music was exciting. But it’s clear this family has finally grown together. It’s clear they understand what’s important. Three days after the murder of Chris Simmonds his father plead guilty t

It's become my new favorite word. I keep trying to get away from it, but it perfectly describes the trouble making spirit of Oliver. I was able to hold myself to only using it once this chapter though!

---Oliver--- As I sat there and held my brother I couldn’t bring myself to even imagine the hell he’s seen. If the rumors are right Chris’ dad really went after him. At first I heard it was with a gun, then a knife and now a baseball bat. Whatever it was, it’s clear his dad was going for the kill. It’s clear that Teddy really never had a chance to save him. But that doesn’t matter to him. He’ll blame himself all the same. That night I found myself tossing and turning. Sure, part of it wa

---Teddy--- They tell you a lot when you graduate medical school. They tell you you’ll do great things. They tell you you’ll save a lot of lives. They tell you you’ll make a difference in the world. What they don’t tell you is the long hours that come with it. Or the fatigue that sets in after a long surgery. Between schooling, residency, and my own experience, I assumed I had seen it all, the good and the bad. But nothing could’ve prepared me for what happened today. For losing my first pat

Happy birthday man! Sorry for the late response! I'm sure you'll find your happily ever after, it'll come soon!

I'm sorry to hear that. Condolences to you, their friends and their family.

---Teddy--- As the coming days came and went the growth between Oliver and Ryder was incredible. It was something me and my parents couldn’t believe, something we never expected. When he was home Ryder was walking around the house laughing, smiling and joking! Ryder was doing that! He was bringing a light atmosphere wherever he went, and as his boyfriend, well I’ve never been happier. With a flip of the switch he could make me smile, or just want to be close to him. He’s matured so much sinc

I think it speaks to Oli's character, and how he's kind of scared by his bisexuality. He has very few friends, so he probably sees dating Mark as a risk, and for him doing anything sexually magnifies that risk. I think a combination of fear, nervousness and over thinking resulted in Oli focusing a lot on the details and trying his hardest to make sure everything goes smoothly.

---Oliver--- As I sat in the car and watched them out the window I felt a million thoughts flood my mind. Why in the world would he come back here? Why would he want to be where he tried to kill himself? I get that he wanted to see his parents and grandma, but still. Why does he hate himself so much? Why does he put himself through so much pain? And how long until it’s too much to bear? I let out a sigh as the back door opened and he slid inside. “I’m sorry you saw that,” He began in a s

---Ryder--- As we laid there in bed I couldn’t help but smile. I get thirty-one isn’t exactly old, but we’re on our way. And Teddy, well he’s always kept onto that charm. Soon enough his smile matched mine as we looked into one another’s eyes. I made the right choice by calling him. By coming home. “You know I’m not a big fan of the guys right now, right?” He suddenly asked, seemingly having the same thoughts as me. “I know.” I sighed. “They’re just, immature.” “You think?” He ra

They would definitely be late 30s. Seems like the drugs and alcohol since a young age went right to their heads.

I agree with @FanLit write as much as you'd like! It's nice to see details!

---Ryder--- There are a lot of memories I hate from this band. From starting as a heartbroken teenager, to becoming the reckless drug addict I was. But for every memory I hate, there are two more that I love. I don’t talk about them often, and I try my hardest to keep it all off my mind. But the truth is I love Messiah with everything I have. It may feel like a deal with the devil. It may feel like it costs me my life. But on days like today, well, that trade feels worth it. “Sullivan on

---Ryder--- As the phone clicked off I couldn’t help but let out a deep sigh. I should’ve known better than to tell him that, shouldn’t I have? But still, it won’t hurt him that much right? He’s already called the school out over national T.V., so what’s a few words in class? I mean, what’s the worst he could possibly say? It’s not like he’s dumb enough to tell them to fuck off, is he? I jumped out of bed and quickly made my way downstairs. “Harry,” “Dad.” He corrected in a happy ton

---Oliver--- As I looked off the small stage I couldn’t help but feel proud. And not just because I filled in for Tommy fucking Walst and showed Messiah how it’s done! But because my brother’s getting married! I felt Joe grab my shoulders as Brandon ruffled my hair and Zach gave me playful push. They liked me! Messiah liked me! Their horseplay fell away as their leader slightly turned and nodded to me. They’re all so talented, but him, he’s on a different level. He’s like a man playing with

I know I said that, but I'm not so sure anymore. I don't think it's going to go for that much longer, but at this point there's story left to tell and I'm happy with how it's organically flowing. You guys have been very receptive to slower paced chapters, so I take it that I have some leeway to add extra chapters onto that 12! (I won't drone on forever about them, but a little more time won't kill anyone!)

Thank you! I'm happy you're enjoying it! Honestly, seeing all you guys so into it motivates me to stay on top of it as much as I can. That, and it's all a very therapeutic process for me.

---Teddy--- I laid a kiss on Ryder’s head as I took one last look at him. I’m so lucky to have him. I’m so lucky he came back into my life. Don’t get me wrong, I would trade anything to have changed what happened when we were teenagers, but for the first time since it happened I get it. He was in pain and secluding himself, it was the only way he could cope. Do I think it was healthy? Hell no! Then again was how I handled it all that healthy? Sealing myself off from friends and family. Worki

Sorry you feel that way. However you can ask Jay, this was planned since day 1 (though not entirely true as the first real ending had Ryder killing himself, but for obvious reasons that was thrown away fast). Just like my other stories, I wanted this to be a series. Perhaps I could've spent more time explaining their break up, but most people probably would've stopped reading when they saw it would've been Ryder slowly killing himself with drugs, or Teddy entering into a deep depression. As for foreshadowing, it was foreshadowed since the campfire. We see Martin constantly warn Teddy that rockstars break hearts, we see Ryder struggle with substances, we see how sensitive Teddy is with cheating, we see Ryder is very sensitive to loss and he always states he'd be destroyed without his grandma and the list just goes on from there. Then to boot, Ryder's constantly talking about this love he has for Teddy that will always be there, and last chapter is summed up with Ryder basically saying, I don't know when but I'll be back for you. Time jump being jarring is a more than fair criticism and something I'll take into account down the line as I write. I do very much encourage you to read Book 2. Especially if you enjoyed this story, as it seems like people are enjoying it more than they enjoyed this one. As I said before, this isn't really an ending but the transition into more of the story. Book 2 was going to just be in Book 1, but a 90 chapter story is a little intimidating. I'll end the comment by saying something similar I said to another reader. I'm honestly glad it feels like the rug got pulled from most readers. My goal is to make you feel like my protagonist. The whiplash of disappointment, confusion and a feeling of 'That's it?' is exactly what Teddy is going through. Whether or not you feel it for the same exact reasons, I don't know. But it set up people to really resonate with Teddy in the next book and connect with him in some pretty cool ways. Thank you for reading!

Absolutely. All amazing inspirations. The musician who I got the name Sullivan from is unfortunately a member of the 27 club. Ryder being 31 allows for all of us (myself included) to let out a deep breath of relief.

Maybeeeee

I love digital sticky notes! My desktop is littered with them! I probably should use them for significant details of stories though! Right now I just use them to track quotes that I inspire characters. For example, I've had "The brighter the star the shorter the life" on my desktop since I started Spotlight!

I might have to start doing that! However my phones already full of ideas and brain storming! I even have parts of stories written down in my notes from when I cant sleep and start writing on there!