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    Lifeline

    By ASH PHOENIX,


    Lifeline
    I'm always wondering just how much energy one needs to accomplish the plans you make in your head right before you go to sleep and then wake up. It's especially hard because sometimes way back in the day, I'd just forgo sleep and just focus on what was important, which is always writing, but that's not how things go, at least for me. I tell myself that I'm going to do this and that and even complete an entire to-do list complete with the checkboxes, and instead I fail. 
    I have been staring at the new chapter of Taming of The Beast, and instead of publishing it, I'm riddled with a painful amount of self-doubt. Is this good enough? Am I good enough? Does it make sense? Am I disappointing myself and the readers? These thoughts literally haunt me more than I'd like to admit. 
    So because I needed to get out of my whatever it is that I'm going through, I found this hidden gem, PicsArt, and I couldn't stop myself. Thank God I had a Pinterest account to keep me sane enough because sometimes I would literally fall in the deep end of the rabbit hole, and I never find my way out. 
    I finally figured out a way to create something, and I think I'm quite proud of myself. Again, thank you, PicsArt, and your world of genius. 

    It's not a professional job, but it's a proud moment for me because I'm hopeless, but I did try. 
    I'm one of those extra super introverted people; I'm afraid to say something because I think it will offend or just be stupid. I don't know, but I have been trying to do better, but honestly, I'm scared and intimidated by everyone (isn't that ironic when everyone in the place I live in practically walks the other way when I walk because everyone says I'm intimidating). I'm not intimidating; I'm just really quiet, and you never know what I'm thinking.)
    The drabbles of an introvert 
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