I guess, seeing this thread dead, is also depressing for someone. Dude, why don't you just start a new thread? I mean, what is the point in replying on a 7 years old thread. I don't really think that people would appreciate that. And in the case you really suffer of depression, trust me, this is not the best forum for this kind of discussions. I also suffered of depression a couple of times. To be honest, this is the state when you are the most powerless, and having no joy for life. The only great solution i found, actually working solution, was weed. I used to order a lot of weed from UrbanAroma.com during those times. I consider that depression is the worst state you might have.