Several days ago , one of my friends, who doesn't know the whole story, wrote me this(regarding the absolutely different subject):
"that reminds me of something my dad taught me, people he called his true soul mates. they are the poeple who make you mad, poeple who are the hardest to get along with are the greatest test of your own inner self. they keep testing your emotions and your desires, your fears and your intelligence. they are testing you to be a better person, and they are not always positive. i think it takes all types of influences to make a balanced person. and no one is constantly positive or negative. i think its all relative to the chaos we call life. there are sooooo many different levels of human understanding that each person has something to teach you. and sometimes the most positive lesson comes from someone that is living in the negative. BUT most importantly we must strive to stay balanced and not get stuck on either positive or negative. just something to think about."
I thought it it was an answer on my question.
I feel much better now, thanks to everyone.