hashbrown

I was trying to convey the image that Christianity is an escape for a person in pain, a "way out of pain" if you will, a joyful, peaceful life that can be attained through giving one's life to Jesus, but the struggle that soooo many people have in giving their lives up to him. For some its like a reality thats impossible for them to attain.

Hahahaha, so we went, and this place is totally awesome. A couple guys just walked past us and checked the shit out of us. LOVE IT! It was real fun and exciting.

Is there anything for people under 21 to do in Gay Chicago? Mainly Boystown, a gay friend and I were wanting to go but we weren't sure if there would be anything for us to do. Would it still be worth the experience to just go and see everything? Anyone ever been?

Like rocks falling from atop a grand canyon, My heart drops to the chambers of my stomach. Left without an understanding companion, Hearing your words is just too much to stomach. Life without cause is a wingless bird, A stepless ladder, And a trackless train. But what is life without pain? An impossible possibility through Christ apparently. For we have received pain and punishment inherently. A lost cause and misguided direction just don't add up. Like you and I. A parentless pup is left in the world, misguided and alone, with no cause. He is taken in by new loving owners but it is not enough. He has everything he wanted but it is not enough. It just isn't the same..it just isn't enough. The rocks fall to the ground, The bird is shot and killed, Christ died on the cross, The ladder is tossed, The train is dormant. The pup is barely alive, but so dead in so many ways. You still make my thoughts repeat. You still make my heart off-beat. You still make myself love you. My completly dead and nonexistant self, it still loves you.

thanksss again

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Dyslexic thoughts in a backwards world. Wait..wouldn't that be straight? No, you're gay. That's all they say. But what they don't know is that they're gay. The happy one. Not the boys f**king boys one. I envy your gayness while you laugh at mine. It's not my fault I'm in love with a guy. I envy your statures and public acceptance. But I am who I am why can't you f**king accept it. Dyslexic thoughts in a backwards world. Children rolling down hills in the spring, And martyrs hanging like spiders on swings. Which one are you and which one am I? Really..? All because of a guy?

Too Good to be True by//hashbrown Your love was too good to be true, I wasn't lying when I said I loved you. I don't want to live a day without you. Waking up and seeing your face, Only thing better is my God's amazing grace. Or is that too good to be true as well? Because my life right now feels like hell. I pray to my God but can he really not hear? Sneers and jeers from so called peers, saying my thoughts are not clear. Your love was the only clarity in my life. It's hard to believe you now find hilarity in my strife. How can one person change this fate? One person's thought turned your love to hate. Why did you say things would be perfect forever, If one little person could turn now into never? If one person's opinion really matters that much, Then why wasn't mine the one that left you untouched? Too good to be true must be my life's theme, Because I must be as dead to you as can be.

It's kind of more of a rap/poem/song, I was just experimenting..thoughts? When I look in your eyes all I can think is

Lost Love by hashbrown You said the words I love you, But it was just a dream. I said the words I love you, Making you my life's theme. You held me close that one cold night, But it was just a dream. My heart and smile shown so bright, Dangerous, nothing seemed. I love you so much, But this you'll never know. A life together will never work, My heart will break when you say hello. I can't imagine a life without you, I don't even know if its possible. But I'll have to find out, Though living without you seems like a mission impossible. One more time I ask why it wont work, It's the world influencing you, acting like a jerk. So the last thing I say before I lose all hope, I love you more than anything, so with your lost love I'll have to cope.

You'll never know how much you mean to me. Seeing your eyes is like finding diamonds to me. Hearing your voice is like a reminder of fate to me. Smelling your scent is like sniffing flowers to me. Touching your hand is like feeling silk to me. But the way my heart feels when I'm around you, That is love to me.

Three Words by hashbrown "I love you", you said as the sun came down, My smile and heart were foreign to a frown. Your arm around me, holding me tight, Embraced by your warmth, not a worry in sight. Why it won't work, I'll never know. Your love and mine, the world we'd show. The cointinuous shuns have yet to give me a clue. Three words I wish I could say I hate you.