connman

Evil? No, but as many have said he has issues and Nolee(i think it was you that wrote this) was right about the projection thing. that's aaron to a T. it's never his fault. always an excuse waiting for what he's done. it's kinda like you're walking along and decide to turn down a dark creepy alley for a shortcut. but then you get mugged. it's not your fault for getting mugged that is definitely the muggers responsiblity, but it is your's for putting yourself in that position. it's not the kinda thing we like to own up to mostly because we're all under the impression that we should be able to walk around wherever without being hurt. but that is not reality. in reality there are not nice people who do bad things to others so we have to adjust our lives to that. but there comes a point when you realize that you're always culpable for your actions and our actions define our reality. things that happen to us usually happen as a result of our own choices. the choices you make define who you are. the choices we make create the conflict in our lives. Aaron has probably never faced anything. in fact i wouldn't put it past him probably having a screwed up home life. which explains why he tends to skew reality to meet his needs. because the fantasy is easier for him live with. because then it's not really lying if he believes it to be true. i don't think he likes himself or his life very much. he drinks to avoid his feelings. he acts out of fear and a sense that he is a victim of the circumstances of his life. which gives him a sense of entitlement to getting his way. like seth for instance. he told rory that he likes seth still. and i'm sure he thinks he does like seth but it's not seth he likes it's seth's life. seth has a pretty cool home life, and i think aaron craves that. i don't think that it's a lie that aaron likes rory. does he want to be with rory. no, he was a means and i'm sure aaron did feel bad about it. but like most of those feelings, he pushes them down. because if he's honest about that, then that opens the door to being honest about the rest of his life. he's not prepared for that level of truth. aaron lives in a life of carefully constructed lies, deceit is the glue that keeps his world in one piece. the lies build one on top of the other, and evetually the wieght will be to much and he'll break. this is why he doesn't let people get close. the closer you are the more of the lies you realize. the more likely you'll uncover them and hurt aaron. so he deflects people to protect himself from himself. we're dealing with a scared and hurt little boy. this in no way excuses the things he's done and i'm not trying to make excuses for him. the things he's done are pretty inexcusable for a friend to do to another. and if he ever chooses to accept the truth of what he's done he'll probably spend the rest of his life making up for it. cause he's going to be haunted by the junk he's done.

first off, great chapter Dom. secondly, i do think that seth and rory are going to date. but it won't last. for one thing seth is sort of a rebound for rory and rory is not over aaron. but i think they'll be friends. good friends, but that's all. but this also depends on how soon they get together, if they do at all. rory really may not be that interested in seth. he does stare at lukes butt alot. as for luke, i do think that rick is a candidate for lukes affection. but then so is rory still. of course luke does strike me as an affectionate happy go lucky guy. plus we have to remember this is all told from rory's point of view and we could be misreading lukes intentions from this. that's all from me folks

okay a few things about aaron. his ultimatum was totally uncalled for, if you have to make someone choose between you and someone/something else then there isn't a whole lot there in a friendship or relationship to begin with is there? And that "story" about his parents, sounds like some serious exagerations on his part, which fit's in with his explanation for blaming luke for stealing the car. i'm sorry did i say explanation i meant excuse. i mean "i don't want to admit to stealing the car cause my rent's will figure i'm gay cuz i was with luke." what a load. that's so going from a to z while skipping the other 24 letter's in between. for that matter where the heck was the dude he was doing behind luke's back that supposedly stole the car and aaron was just sort of along for the ride with. in which case he just let aaron take off with the stolen car by himself. riiiiiight, ok. then there's the sex, he lets rory suck him off but reciprocates with a hand job. fine, maybe he's not into giving head (or more accurately not into giving anyone anything), it's a possiblility. but why not let that be known up front, and the brush off he gives rory after being intimate. he's just completely inconsiderate of rory, it's like he doesn't take into account the fact that rory's knew to this. or i could say what i really think which is that he just doesn't care. let's face it people, aaron may be trying to be a better person, and he deserved the benefit of the doubt that he had changed in the beginning. but he hasn't done one thing as far as i'm concerned that show's he's changed. actions speack louder than words. you can apologize until you're blue in the face, but that's just a start. you have to follow through. you can't just want to be a better person you have to work at it. it ain't easy, it's not supposed to be. he should own up to stealing the car, not to prove that he's a good guy, not to get luke out of trouble, but because he did it. he stole the car. he's a coward and he's untrustworthy. that's an important one, he's untrustworthy. if he's not willing to come forward about that because of what might happen with his family, then what else will he do to keep his secret? aaron simply put is dangerous. frankly i think rory's first crush/love/relationship is definately going to go nuclear. but maybe, just maybe he'll stop being a brat and grow up having experienced it. wow what a rant. oh, great story dom. can't forget the accolades

wow, i mean really wow. i don't know if comedy of errors sums it up correctly. it's just funny how one action on one person's part causes all sorts of mass confusion and heartbreak. i mean if you trace it back everything that happens that night is in some way on liam. he invited roman and well it was all down hill from there. i'm not saying it's all his fault. it's not. although i have to admit having the troy/roman thing blow up in his face was slightly deserving. he was trying to use someone and it blew up in his face. i don't like that sort of thing, so he got what was coming to him if you ask me. it's one thing to be angry, another entirely to be bitter/conniving(i spell that right?). in the end you only hurt yourself that way. as far as badguys. i don't think anyone really is. everything so far as been a "from a certain point of view thing". from liams point of view troy is evil, from romans its prolly danny, troy i think is utterly confused at this point, and danny prolly hates himself the tiniest bit. but that's what i like about this story. it's so much like life. no one is like some evil genius trying to ruin lives. it's just real people screwing up their own lives like we are so apt to do. and so much of it stems from dishonesty. people not being true to themselves or eachother. it's just tragic well great job matt, and heres to more masterpeices yet to come from that brilliant head of yours.

well vic normally i'd be hurt by a thumbs down but this is one time where i'm glad i got one. i really didn't want this to turn into a back story about a rape and after reading this last chapter i'm glad to say i don't think it will. i have to admit i don't like dennis. frankly he sucks as a person. but i can say that i understand why he is that way. it'll be interesting to see what happens when he finds out that owen knows what happened to ben. and didn't aiden mention something about "lyle"(i believe people have been refering to him as kyle but i believe it's lyle) coming home soon. i'm sure it's really gonna hit the fan then. on another note. someone mentioned closure between owen and nicky. i don't see that happening for awhile. at least not until owen has the strength or desire to face going back to his hometown. maybe face his parents. unless of course nicky beats him to it and tracks him down. the theatre they saw eachother at was between there respective towns so it might not be to hard to track them down he'd just have to really want to. but then i've been wrong before so it's in the hands of the gods, or dom.

hey connor, you didn't come off as defensive at all. at least not to me. like i said i appreciate being corrected if i'm wrong. and i was. so it's all cool.

no you're right i did mix it up a bit. but i was trying to imply some kind of personality disorder. i don't think it's simple mood swings. i think he has a disassociated self or what i mean is that he's buried so much of himself that it's like there are two personalities. either way i think we agree he's dysfunctional as is his family. it's been years since i took psych so please forgive me if i'm confusing disorders. but thanks for clearing that up i hate to perpetuate ignorance.

hi, my names josh and i'm a Domaholic.

i'm not so sure that it was just a beating that happened. i always got the feeling that it was more of a sexual assault. i hope it wasn't, i honestly don't wish that on anyone, even in fiction. it just seems that with his parents controlling nature that he has alot of anger and resentment for himself as well as them. and maybe he had an attraction to ben but it was tainted by his fear, anger and hatred. maybe ben rebuffed him, denied him his attraction. it wouldn't be surprising if he lashed out at ben. something that represented not only what he truly wanted but also what his parents probably hate about him. lets face it, dennis isn't the most stable of individuals. he has an almost bipolar personality. he can be so caring gentle one minute and the opposite the next. but then i could just be overanalyzing this. it's a bad habit.

matt, i'm sorry you felt you weren't getting enough feedback on the story. so much so that you unposted it. i'm glad that it's on nifty and not just completely trashed. but i really hope you plan to continue writing it. i think it's a great story with lots of potential. there are so many unknowns at the moment that i'm hooked. what is troys motivation for being such an ass? has liam completely misread the situation? there was so much emotional interplay. i guess this story speaks to me. my first time was so not what i had planned, while i didn't get burned like liam, i regret my choice of partner even though we remain friends. you are appreciated, as well as is your work.