Mystic4zn

curse meaning... the way people reaction to the situation... and they change since you told them who or what you are...

where an when did i say anything about having sex.... does a relationship have to involve sex?.... in my opinion... no... i know you guys are giving my warning about the system.. i understand it... it's ILLEGAL (he is) and im LEGAL etc etc etc pedophile?... well if you guys think that way.. well there's really nothing i can do not to convince you guys im not.. however, I know im 18, and that should be pretty old and 4 years difference is my boundaries above or below. even if im 50... 4 years would be probz my range... physically yes he's, athlete and all, but if he doesn't feel the same way i won't bug them. It happened to me when i was his age... had an attraction to someone my grade, didn't feel the same way, i left him alone. we are okay friends right now. Only thing i don't want happening is when someone knows what/who i am... changes their attitude, two faced at me... i hate that, been there 2 many times.. i mean i guess that's how ... 'we' are cursed... at least i am.. but either way yes im going to Uni/college, it's not like i won't talk to him anymore, a couple hi's and how are you would be kool. im sure there's a few guys or girls, in your life has been like that, and in the end they might not have been who you think they are, then maybe you left them alone, after you told them how you felt and they didn't feel the same way.

Thanks love, But only prob is.. i sometimes have doubts... i swear i need to buy a new gaydar -.- mine really sucks

i know you guys are trying to help.. but some people here doesn't have to use those type of tones.. lol but.. thanks for the comments

sorry if i offended anyone... jeeze =S

sorry but im in Canada lol West part

thanks for all the warnings...... but first of all i never "hit" on him in anyway shape or form. And the age consent where i live is 14... or so i believe.. I have to agree he is really young...but... well i guess there is no but in my case in you ppl'z opinion..

im sorry that my writing isn't very good. i type as my mind goes. Tarin... yes you have right messege thanks for the reply! he is like 4 years younger than me... and to me i think there's no problem to that. however, i know that it all depends on the maturity lvl, many couples are like 4 years apart... but this is high school so this is different. i can't wait till university or college (hopefully university), so i can get my life settled. Most important thing to me for someone like him... doesn't care what i am. Even thought they might say it...they would act differently than the time you haven't told them. Hopefully he's not like that. he as 3 or 4 older brother... i think his oldest is like... 30's. And in some other article i don't know where i have read this, but apparently if you have an older brother sibling there's a higher chance of the being gay or something like that... I guess we don't have to be in a relationship, brotherhood sounds awesome to me. He's such a sweet guy that just melt's girl's well obvz my heart accidentally lol.

well if you have read my previous topic on "i think i have a crush"... then you might catch on.. if not maybe u can read it if you want \ sorry if it's kinda hard to follow okay so... Today.. at my school (since I go to a Catholic school) there's a special event that happens every once a year. This event is suppose to bring the school closer together as a school instead of a grade (which we also have). that's Beside the point... so Dave today showed up at school, cute as ever xD!!we both sorta said hi, and didn't speak to each other till lunch started sorta. im really not sure about him. Sometimes i just feel that he's the right one and sometimes i feel, no this is not right ... yet. Well at least i would never know until i express my self... which i don't think i will...yet. lol xD!! Anyway so i stole one of my friends camera and took pictures with my other friends and I HAD to take a picture with Dave. I found him on the soccer feild and we took a picture. (think i might need another) ... he seemed to be fine with it. Then when we had to go back inside, i asked what he was doing after school.... he says "well...nothing maybe home... OH Track!" and i said "Oh really?...I happen to need to go to that place to pick something up (SOO LYING)...want a ride?(happen to get my licence back on that morning, after a long prohibition)....)". He replied "Sure okay " yes with a happy face. His smile and just his pressence makes my day alot better even though i was depressed or sad or w.e once i see his smile it's like.. a cure. It's impossible to discribe... im sure alot of you might be able to relate. however the problem is... Im leaving next year and he's really young. Anyway back to the story. So i couldn't wait for this even to be over so i can have some one on one time with him. (get your mind out of the gutter). When i was going down the hallway another guy came up to me and asked for change... i said no.. but i have it in my car.. he asked if he could have a ride to Uvic too... i said sure.. since im going that way... soo i told him to wait at the front of the skool for me. And when he left. i got in the car (it was like a f**kin sonna!!) rolled down my windows. (i guess he forgot that i told him to wait for me in front of the skool 2) ... i heard this voice of a little baby (well not exact. more like.. a child begging for their parents not to leave...) No!! No!! it was the cutest No i've ever heard in my life!...however... I was like.. wtf ...Just when i was moving the car... and stopped in time.... he opened the door. i was like omg that was you who said no?.. (in my mind). and i reminded him how im picking him up at the front of the school. he gave me these ... i guess you can say puppy looks but.. he said okay. so i went around. he saw me came down the stairs (everyone was watching... i was a lil.. nervous accually) he opened the door... and sat in the back since i told him this other guy is coming with us... but he never showed up.. soo i parked my car.. Dave went and klooked for him... few minz later he said that guys not coming. Just before we left the campus. the school bus was there for the track kids. I asked do you still want a ride you can go with the bus if you want. he said i want a ride. i was like.. okay we talked a bit.. i was deffinatley getting the impression of him being awkward n everything but... now i think about it .. maybe not im just not sure. I got alot of looks when i was driving him... in my mind was like... God help me. we both waved to our friends as we drove by. we had some one on one chatting.. nothing personal just general ... like how's life, how's school going for yea... what you doing over the summer... what song you wunna hear...and holy f**k he was sitting right beside me... IN my car... i was taking in every moment of it and when we arrived to our destination... he said thank you sooo much for the ride. i said no probz see you monday. i don't know why i connected with Dave...our age is soo different, our background is different... we do like the same music so that's a plus haha. i guess im from this point.. i don't care what he is... i don't have a sibling that's almost the same age as me... so.. maybe he can be like.. a lil bro to me or something .. i don't know... I would love to know what your thoughts are and comments would be kool =) cuz i love reading them have a good one

The only problem i have with ... like against homophobia days ... or the gay parade n stuff... PERSONALLY!! i think that decreases our idenity... if u take a closer look, how ppl dress on the parade gay pride or what ever... im not saying everyone... for me at least im not like that.. some people might see it as.. oh.. all they like to do is .. walking around in speedings and show how gay they are... i guess that was a bad example.. but if u go on youtube and type up gay pride parade or something like that u might understand what i mean... i have nothing against homophobia day!! it's great to stop homophobia and the bashing and the violence.=)