Dans La Nuit
-
Posts
206 -
Joined
-
Last visited
Content Type
Forums
Stories
- Stories
- Story Series
- Story Worlds
- Story Collections
- Story Chapters
- Chapter Comments
- Story Reviews
- Story Comments
- Stories Edited
- Stories Beta'd
Blogs
Store
Help Center
Writing
Gallery
Events
Everything posted by Dans La Nuit
-
Sam parked his car in front of the gate of my grandma's ranch in Acton, California. Acton is about an hour north of Los Angeles. It's a little hillside town full of horse ranches and upper class homes. I had to talk to him before we went inside. There was something really important that I needed to get off my chest. "Before we go in, I have to tell you that my parents and my sister are really the only ones that know I'm gay and a few of my cousins." "What! What the
-
When I asked my mom if I could go to LA with Travis for his family reunion, she wasn't too happy about. It wasn't that she was mad. It was more like she was disappointed. She wanted to spend my eighteenth birthday with me as well. But she suspected that she wouldn't be able to talk me out of it. But the catch was that I had to run it by my dad as well. And the only that I could do that was drive to the hospital and ask him at work. Stone Lake Memorial Hospital wasn't actually with
-
I was sitting with Tyler in the backyard when Joey called me. He didn't call me that night that we met and I was beginning to think that he wasn't going to call. He called the next day. Tyler and I were just sitting in the backyard thinking of something to do. I was actually planning on going to the lake with Sam and Travis. I didn't feel like being a third wheel, so I hoped that Joey would come too. "Who's that? It's not Brian or you'd get that ‘poor me my friend d
-
"Oh gosh, Parker family reunion is coming up this weekend," I heard Aunt Nancy saw from the kitchen. I knew this couldn't be right. No. It couldn't be. No. It can't. "What'd you say?" I asked, walking into the kitchen where she was reading the mail. "The Parker family reunion-it's this weekend." "No, it can't be." "Actually it is," she said. "No. I mean that's Sam's birthday. It's on Saturday." "Oh, sweetie, I'm sorry. I'm sure Sam will understand." I just left the kitche
-
I was really bummed out about Brian when I got home from the camping trip that I just wanted to be around other gay kids and have a good time that didn't involve any drama about love. I couldn't do that around Sam and Tyler because they were both busy with their boyfriends. I had to go somewhere else. I decided to go to the LGBT youth group in town. It was one of the support and activity group. I remember them saying that they had meetings every afternoon at four. They were usuall
-
I should've never gone camping with Alex and his brothers. It was the single most awkward weekend I've ever had in my life. All I could think was that I wanted to be with Paul. So as soon as Matt and I got home, I got my cell phone from my room and called him. "Hey, Brian-what's up? How was the trip?" "Awful," I said sitting on my bed. "What happened?" he asked. "Alex confessed his love to me," I said. "Oh..."
-
I can't believe I actually did it. I can't believe I actually had sex. Of course Julian heard the whole thing and couldn't wait to go blabbing to Tyler, who will certainly make my life hell for the next week or so, but I still did it and it was absolutely great. It was so much better than I expected. Then again, I did expect Travis to be the top since he's more experienced and all, but I didn't mind being the top and Travis didn't seem to mind either. When we finally got back home
-
Finally sleeping in the same bed as Sam was a little bittersweet. On one hand, I was doing something I've been waiting for. On the other hand, I knew Sam wasn't ready to have sex. Besides, we were in a trailer with three other people. Why would we do anything there? The mattresses in the bunk beds were sort of small. There were doubles and took up most of the space in the trailer. I was just glad that Sam and I could fit on one of them. That way at night-I can hold him, and kiss h
-
After Ryan left and Tyler went into the trailer, Brian and I went for a walk by the lake. I asked him to come because I wanted to talk over our relationship. I wanted to know where we stood. I knew getting to the point wouldn't be easy, so I started to beat around the bush as they say. "Sorry for my brother," I said to Brian as we walked. It was just like walking by the lake back home. "It's not your fault. Man, I can't believe that Tyler and Julian were together this whole time." He smil
-
I couldn't believe what just came out of my mouth. I've never said I love you to anyone other than my mom. I love my brothers, but I don't think I've ever told any of them. I was kind of put off by the fact that he didn't say anything back, but maybe he wasn't ready. "You don't have to say anything back," I said. "I wanna say this...I don't know if I'm ready to say those words yet, but...what I do know is that I think about you all day and when I'm with you my chest
-
I never switched rooms with Tyler and started to room with Sam. I never really had the intention of doing that. I just wanted to show Ryan how serious I was. I supposed that not going through with the move was counteractive if that was the point that I wanted to make. But after everything he's done, Ryan's still my best friend. When we were packing for our camping trip, I felt certain closeness to him. The awkwardness was over. Even though we didn't say anything, I knew that I was
-
I walked back to my house and upstairs after Paul left. Should I just not show up at the lake? Would that be rude? I love Alex right? And he loves me, but he doesn't want anything to do anything about it. If this is a flirt on Paul's part, it's not like I'm with Alex. But why do I feel like I'd be cheating on him if I went? But I'm not, so I'll go. Paul's probably not gay anyway. I grabbed my shorts from my drawer and changed. I shuffled down the stairs, but was caught by my dad.
-
"I'm sorry I forgot to call you back," I said as Travis and I walked down our street; Honeysuckle Drive. "I've been really distracted since last night." "Did something happen?" Travis asked. "I came out," I put it as simply as I could. "Oh," he paused. "I guess it didn't go well then?" "Not really. My dad really freaked out." "Are you okay?" "Not really. I'm not really sure if I was actually ready to do it.
-
Dinner with my aunt's family was kind of awkward. Jared and I don't really get along and I don't really know my uncle all that well. All I wanted to do was get out of there and go spend some time with Sam. I don't know what it is with him, but he makes me crazy; in a good way, of course. I just want to spend more and more time with him every day. The fact that he's all I could think about during dinner was him scared me and excited me at the same time. I've never fe
-
The night I came out to my parents, I felt horrible. I came out way before I was ready and the feeling in the gut that it was giving me was completely horrible. I didn't really want to talk to anyone, but everyone kept coming up to me and telling me how great it was that I came out so my brothers wouldn't have to. All I wanted to do was lock myself in my room, sit in the dark, and never come out. I was finally alone for a good amount of time when Tyler and Julian left for the thea
-
I really didn't know what to do after Alex left me back home. I was wet. I was horny. And I was super frustrated. Why didn't I do more to take things into my own hands? I should said, "Fuck this" and kissed him right. But I didn't and now I'm officially the biggest spaz on Earth. Anyway, I walked into my house soaking wet. I tried to carefully squish upstairs so no one would notice me, but I was officially out of luck for the night. My grandfather was sitting on the couch, in the
-
I've never been more nervous than when I was at the dinner table and Ryan was about to out me to my parents. I didn't want to be alone, but I didn't want to be stuck in a room with Kyle; someone who didn't know the first thing about what I was talking about. Tyler left with Julian, so I went to see Sam. Anyway, I wanted to thank him for what he did. When I walked into his room, he was alone, laying on the futon. He smiled at me when I walked in and I smiled back at him. I walked o
-
Making love with Julian was the highlight of my entire life, but I still don't know how to tell Ryan. He was being such a jerk today and I can't handle any more of that. I just want to runaway with Julian and never come back. But I can't leave Sam and Alex, or even Kyle. "As much as I hate it, we have to go. Sam can't cover for us forever," I said. "Yeah, okay," said Julian. "That was really cool what he did, covering for you and Alex so you wouldn't have to come ou
-
I felt good about myself after talking to Sam. Travis and Sam are really cute together. I didn't know if Sam was ready to tell his mom or anybody else, so when Ryan and his mom pulled back into the house from their errands, I thought it was best to warn them. We all helped bring groceries in from the car. Apparently it was a special night in the Sullivan house when Mr. Sullivan could spend more than three hours at home. Tonight, he had the night off, so Mrs. Sullivan was making a
-
I sat on my bed trying to figure out if I should call Sam. I really want to call him, but I don't want to bug him or anything. Not that I'm desperate to see him or anything, I'm just bored out of my fucking mind. But suddenly I didn't have to call him, because he was calling me. "Hey, Sam," I said, trying to sound surprised to hear from him. "What's up?" "Can you come over?" "Yeah, right now?" I tried not to get too excited. "Yeah, I'm
-
I've loved Alex Sullivan for about a year. I've known him nearly all my life, but it takes time to love someone. I guess my love started to grow even before that I realized that I'm gay. We were in the sixth grade, twelve years old, when I first realized that my feelings for Alex were more than just friendship. Three older kids from grade seven were bullying me. They were about to pick me up and throw me in the trash bin when, out of nowhere, Alex came running to my aid. He decked
-
I couldn't do it. I don't know why, but I couldn't do it. I couldn't tell him that I was gay too and that I really liked him. What if he didn't like me back? I couldn't take that. I still can't believe I didn't tell him, though. Maybe I should've told him, so I could put myself out of my misery. I walked upstairs and into my new room, which is Ty's room. Ty was already in there. When I walked in, he looked at me with disappointment in his eyes. I put my head down and walked over t
-
I was so excited to know so many gay people in Stone Lake, but at the same time I was disappointed. The one person that I wanted to come out didn't. Of course I'm talking about Sam. I felt like he had something more to add to our little coming out circle, but he just wasn't saying it. Could it be that even in that throwing up of coming outs, Sam was still afraid of coming out himself? Or I could just be making up stories like I always so to get what I want through fantasy. If Sam
-
I have a dirty little secret. I'm gay. I know I can't tell anyone, not anyone in this shithole town at least. This is all that I could think of during dinner since the guy that Ryan brought home to stay with us during the summer is super hot. Of course he's too old for me. I tend to fall for guys who, even if they were gay, would never have anything to do with me. No one wants to get with jail bait. I sat across from Julian at the table. Every now and then, in between bites of my
-
I've been out with a lot of guys and even slept with a few, but I've never even met anyone like Tyler before. We just connected. It was that simple. I've never felt that for anyone. Well, I thought I had. But the pull I have towards Tyler is more than anything that I've ever felt. When my friend Charlie came up to me and told me that it was time for us to leave, I was more disappointed than I ever been in my entire life. I wanted more time. I needed more time. I didn't even get hi
