Tatters - 1. Tatters

Tatters___

by Bugeye___

　
　
　
　
Hey, guess what………………………………............................................................................It was unknown to me in the past___
I am thinking of you……………………..………….......................................................................This knowledge of lust defined___
Again……………………………….................................................................................................By the silence of no reply___
Can’t say this surprises me…..………………….………….........................................................Frozen lips and ignored cry___
Sometimes I get tired of…………………………...…….....................................................Stopped cold, any potential plea___
The words………………………………...........................................................................No fire consumed sacrifice, me___
Like now……………………………….............................................................................Rejected by the god I worship___
I only want to feel…………………………...…….............................................................How to stand and walk away___
I only want to touch…………………………….…........................................................From this humiliation adored___
I don’t ask for much……………………….….….........................................................Is this the gift I carry away___
Do I ……………………………..............................................................................As my pace in life scurries___
Your stare I want…………………………….…......................................................That youth deceives desire___
But what’s the point……………………….….....…….......................................That love receives, required___
I want to know……………………………….....................................That emptiness perceives contempt___
101 things about your day…………………...……………...........................That reality believes its lies___
While I lie beside you………...…………….…………....................That disappointment relieves pity___
And count your breaths…………………......…………...................That thought conceives escape___
Could you be any more real…………...…...……….……………………….That fate naïve makes___
Outside this transparency……………….…..….……........………That pouting heaves quake___
A man asleep and mine………………...…...………...................That sound grieves quiet___
To keep…………………………....................................That courage achieves nothing___
To protect and delve into………………...……………..........That innocence weaves ill___
At rest without the look…………….….....…..……...........That touch leaves stains___
Of love……………………………..........................That begging cleaves affection___
Just the look of complacency..…......……………….That nature reaves peace___
Is this my trust………….….……...….….............That mind reprieves heart___
To be true………………...............................What of smiles that sorrow___
Are there maybes………...................…...What of hopes that borrow___
Between us two….…….........……..........What of dreams tomorrow___
Inches of separation….......………..…...What of eyes that follow___
Miles of convergency………….……………What of life hollow___
A kiss, one long note…….……………..Disappearing days___
In the long line of notes…....…………Complicated ways___
Pressing us together in urgency…..Simplified signals___
Will the sounds of loving carry us thru to new days I___
twist in turns Tatters left from the storm of loving___
you Impossible Untrue Never reaching you See___
me dissolve from view Love total to me Love___
myth to you Seeking I found Seeking you___
found Neither the other I don’t feel that___
way Is less than nothing Whether I cry___
or sing it is my own heart that leaps___
forever into this folly love unknown___
　
　
　
　
　
　
　
February 5, 2011___