Brandon Smiling: From the Billy Chase Chronicles (3) - 8. Entry 8

Sunday

I’m on fire! I literally feel like I’m on fire right now. . .

He occupies every thought and every dream. I can’t stop thinking about what happened yesterday! Even at church all my thoughts were on Billy and his nearly sucking me off yesterday.

That’s a hell of a place to be thinking the dirtiest, sexiest thoughts imaginable. I probably am going to Hell for it…but honestly I don’t care at the moment.

Heaven is being in Billy’s mouth with his tongue lapping at the bottom of my dick, his suction bringing me closer and closer to the biggest orgasm of my life! Like I said, I just can’t stop thinking about him and what he did.

It isn’t just that blowjob that I crave…it’s his lips, his smell, his taste, his bashful blushes, his cute little laugh after we kiss. I especially crave hearing the love in his voice when he talks to me all quietly, afraid he might, I don’t know, disrupt the time and space continuum between us.

We talked a little bit last night on the phone. It was a little awkward. We couldn’t really discuss what happened directly. Sharon and my Dad were home and I didn’t want to telegraph anything too obvious even with me having the cordless phone in the bedroom with me.

After church and breakfast (both places felt very awkward to me being that I was hard half the time I was at either place) I decided I couldn’t stand it anymore and called Billy.

He was SO happy to hear from me and hearing that joy just swelled me up inside like a Coke bottle all shaken up! My smile must have made me look like a crazy person. Fortunately, neither Sharon or my Dad were paying much attention to me. I took Billy into my room with me (that’s how I feel about it when I have him on the phone) so we could talk more privately. I couldn’t say much because I think Sharon likes to eavesdrop a bit. I think she knows something’s up with me and is curious as to what. I just can’t with her right now.

In my bedroom I can also get more comfortable which meant I could sluff off my pants and just be in my underwear for a little while. Talking to Billy at all after yesterday just makes me harder than diamonds and wearing pants is just plain uncomfortable when you’re like that. If Sharon sticks her head in here and sees me like that then it serves her right if she gets embarrassed. I can’t help it. This is BILLY here! Maybe, she’d learn to mind her own business if she saw her little cousin sticking out like a flag pole!

Anyways, I’m like, “Billy...I really can't stop thinking about you right now. I mean...dude, I've gotta see you. Like....now.” I was hoping against hope that I could see him again today and be with him alone! I, well, I was and still am going mad here! I’m desperate! Whatever feelings I had for Billy before yesterday now just became a thousand times stronger! It’s like he infected me with this hunger and it’s a hunger that can only be satisfied when I can eat Billy alive! I mean that literally! What he started to do for me yesterday I was desperate to get a chance to do to him! I want to taste him down there! I know the taste of his lips and his neck and his cheek. I even know the taste of Billy’s tears…but I NEED to taste his sex! My mouth actually starts to water when I think about it at all for any length of time!

Anyway, Billy asks, “Where do you wanna go?”

I didn’t care where we went so long as we could be alone and I could wrap my mouth around Billy’s candy cane and give him my first blowjob. I don’t mean to be crude…but that’s the truth!

“I don't wanna go anywhere, really. I mean....um....er...I just...wanna be alone with you for a while. You know...to kinda finish what we started yesterday.” I answered and I could hear the shyness in my voice. I could also feel the prickles of a deep blush in my cheeks. I couldn’t believe I was having this conversation with Billy! It’s the sort of thing where dreams sometimes really do come true, you know?

“Yeah...I wanna be alone with you too. I mean...yesterday was....'cool'.” The way Billy said ‘cool’ just made me melt off my bed and onto the floor! My whole body went weak, I swear! It was said so softly and with such…longing! I know from the way he said it that he wished he had a better word, but I didn’t care about the word. I cared about the feelings behind it!

“I've been dreaming about being with you every single second since. I want...I want to know if maybe we can get together. Soon.” I told Billy with desperation because I am desperate! I need Billy so bad it literally hurts!

“I can come over, if you want. I'll come right now!” Billy said with what sounded like a little tremor in his voice. Could he possibly be as excited to see me like I want to see him? I don’t think it’s possible, but he sure sounded like he was!

Unfortunately, it wouldn’t have been possible. Not with Sharon and my Dad both in the house and Sher snooping. I had to tell Billy that with my family home it wasn’t a good idea. Billy persisted a bit thinking that, maybe, we could have some privacy in my room if we just closed the door and turned up the music, but I knew with Sheron in the house that wasn’t going to work either. I love my cousin, but her timing for her visit was just terrible!

Naturally, I suggested that maybe we could go to his place, but “Uhhhh...actually, we can't do it over here. Things are kinda weird with my mom at the moment. It's a long story.” he said with disappointment. I wondered what he meant by ‘weird’. Was something up with Billy at home?

“Shit...um...hold on a sec, ok?” I got an idea. Maybe I could get Sharon out of the house if I asked if she could go out and get us something for dinner later. That was stupid, of course, because she’d just gone to grocery store yesterday. That’s how all this started! So, she just said she had everything she needed to make dinner already. I didn’t push it. It would have sounded really suspicious if I kept trying to get her and my Dad out of the house for a while! It didn’t have to be long…I don’t think it would take long for Billy to finish me off! I was practically close just sitting there talking with him on the phone!

So, determinedly I asked, “Ugh! Billy, isn't there anywhere in your house where you think we could...just...?”

“Um......Actually....I'm sorry, Brandon. I don't think we can play it off if you came over. I'm sorry, ok?” Billy replied, sadly.

“Awww, Billy...don't worry about it. Really. Ok? I just...I miss kissing you. I've been itching to kiss or touch you all day. It's driving me insane right now. Hehehe!” I said, trying to lighten Billy’s mood. I could hear he was just as disappointed as I was about the seemingly hopeless situation.

It was then that I came up with the craziest idea!

“What about Bobby? Do you think he could let us use his house?” I almost couldn’t believe that could come out of my mouth. That’s how NUTS Billy was making me!

Billy shocked me with a very loud “NO!!!”

“I...I mean...that wouldn't be...well...that would be awkward. I mean...doing stuff over at Bobby's house?” He sounded like he was trying to smooth that ‘NO’ out, but he didn’t really need to. I knew it was a bad idea before it even came out of my stupid mouth.

“Yeah, you're right. Forget it. That's lame.” I said, hoping I didn’t freak Billy out too much with my crazy idea. What was I thinking? Bobby’s house? Come on!

But, this just goes to show you how fucking desperate I am to get Billy naked with me in bed, like, immediately!

So, second crazy idea: “Ok...what about tomorrow? We could ditch the last few classes of the day, and you could come over here. We'd have the whole house to ourselves for, like, hours! Do you wanna do that?” I surprised myself a bit because I have never been one to ditch class, but in this case I’d make a big exception.

“HELL YEAH!!!” Billy surprised me with that blast of an answer! Oh, boy, I thought! Tomorrow would be the day! Tomorrow we’d get to have sex! Tomorrow I can lose all the rest of any virginity I have left!

But, “Oh...wait...I can't.” Billy said, bringing me crashing to the ground again.

“Why not?” I whined. Would I ever get that boy out of his pants?

“It's my teacher. She's making me do this after school tutor thing with Simon every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I tried to ditch it last week, and my mom totally flipped out on me. She would really bring the hammer down if she found out I ditched classes on top of it. I've GOTTA go, no way around it.” Billy answered sadly.

“What about Tuesday? I can come over on Tuesday. We can sneak out during lunch, and then we can just....not come back. What do you say? Do you wanna?” Billy offered.

It was a bit far away for my liking, but I guess it was going to be the best we could do with school and parents and everything else seemingly in the way of our getting it on at all.

“Yeah! That's be awesome! I'll....um...well, we'll do it! Tuesday!” I said and then I had a giggle-fit. This whole thing just seemed so bizarre to me suddenly. We’d actually made a date to have sex together! Real sex this time. No bullshit! No half-assed attempts…but for real! The excitement and the craziness of the whole thing just got to me and got me to giggling like an idiot. Hehehe!

“Dude, we totally just made a date to have sex! Hahaha!” I snickered. I couldn’t help it, between the excitement that we were really going to do this and the stupid way we were having to go about it, I just found the whole thing a little silly, really.

So, there you have it! Tuesday will be the Big Day! Tuesday Billy and I will do IT!

I can’t frigging wait! I must have taken three whole ‘showers’ today thinking about Tuesday and what it will be like!

What will Billy’s butt feel like in my hands? You know, even with his clothes on, I’ve never felt him up? What a wiener I am for passing that up!

What would he taste like? What would he smell like down there? How will it feel to have his silky smooth skin rubbing up against mine as we kiss with tongues and everything!

I’ve got to go work this off again…maybe with my pillow. Oh! What if he wants to, like, put it in me? Oh! Oh, man! Wouldn’t that be the stuff of dreams, huh?

Oh, my God! I don’t know if I’ll have the strength to wait until Tuesday! This is like Christmas and my Birthday all rolled up into one thing! I’m so excited! I hope my Dad and Sharon don’t see it and wonder why, because, there’s no way I could tell them why I’m so giddy!

I don’t even think I can tell Chandler about this yet. This is a sacred thing between me and Billy alone! I want this to be just about us! No one else!

Tuesday…come faster!

This is Brandon absolutely going crazy until Tuesday!