Brandon Smiling: From the Billy Chase Chronicles (3) - 7. Entry 7

Friday

So, Billy seemed very distracted today at lunch. Billy, myself, and Sam had lunch together and we managed to do it without any of the weirdness from last time.

But, Billy wasn’t talking much. He did a couple of ‘mmm-hmms’ and ‘that’s greats’ as Sam was talking about one of his latest enthusiasms. Something about a model he was building. I don’t know. I was more concerned with why Billy was being so quiet.

Whatever it is, he’s not ready to tell me. Though that hurts a little, I want to respect his privacy. I hope, someday, he’ll know that I love him enough to see him through anything and that he can always be honest with me.

Honesty. . .it’s funny that should come up. Chandler just left me an email entitled Honesty. I’d finally emailed him and told him of how Billy and I have finally gotten together. He literally wrote that he was ‘squealing’ with happiness for us! How cute is that? Chandler always amazes me with how much he cares about what goes on with me. He’s like the big brother I never had! The fact that he’s gay too is just out of this world amazing! It’s like he was brought into my life just to help me! That sounds so self-absorbed, but, Chandler really does seem to care for me that much! So much that he would ‘squee’ at Billy and me finally getting together.

In any case, he told me how important it is to stay honest with Billy about my feelings and about what goes on between us. He really stressed that! He said seventy-five percent of my battle with getting Billy was won, but that to keep him and me together we couldn’t hide from each other anymore. We need to be open and honest with everything in our lives. Love is an exchange of give and take and that we have to trust each other enough to do that.

I hope Billy can do that with me. I hope he knows he can tell me what’s bugging him so much! I want to be there for him! I want him to know that I’ll always be there for him! Honestly and completely!

In other news, Sharon is back in town and staying with us. She’s on leave and decided to spend her time with us. It was a little awkward last night. Marylin, Dad’s girlfriend (I still have trouble wrapping my brain around that one) came over just after Sharon arrived. She insisted on cooking dinner for us. She’d left her kids at home in the care of her sister so I didn’t feel obligated to ‘play’ with them like I was still seven years old. That’s always a bit weird for me.

The evening was weird anyway, though. Sharon couldn’t help but grill Marilyn about this and that. My Dad had to finally break up the questioning with a distraction about cobbler for dessert.

Sharon’s always been so protective of my Dad and me, especially after Mom died.

I think she’s trying to make sure that Marylin is right for my Dad and not some floozy looking for his money or whatever. Hehehe! No ‘Gold Digger’ is going to get my Dad if Sharon is around!

In any case, Sher-Sher is in the house and it always feels a little less empty in my house when she’s there. We guys definitely need a woman in our lives! Since Sher-Sher can’t always be there for us, maybe…hopefully…Marylin can fill the bill. I like Marylin. She’ll never replace Mama, of course, but I’d love to see my Dad not be so lonely anymore.

Well, not much more to report since Billy won’t talk to me about what’s eating him yet. Hopefully, he’ll be able to tell me what’s going on so I can stop worrying about him. I love him so much…what hurts him hurts me. How’s that for ‘give and take’?

This is Brandon wanting to give it all to Billy. Honest!

Saturday

Something really, really wonderful happened today!

It was so unexpected and one of the greatest moments in my entire life!

Billy came over today…

It was later this morning and I really didn’t expect him at all! He just appeared like some magical genie! I’d just gotten out of bed and still had my pajama bottoms on when I heard the doorbell ring. Sharon had gone out to get groceries according to her note so I was completely alone in the house.

The doorbell rang and when I answered it there he was, his eyes sparkling and that chipmunk smile of his! He was so angelic this morning, I swear! He blushed a bit seeing me in my sleep clothes. I guess he ‘saw’ me down there. I must have had been having another one of my sexy dreams about him because I was half-hard already. I must have been making quite a bulge.

Interestingly, I wasn’t ashamed of that. I wanted Billy to see what he does to me! I want him to see how much I want him!

I was like, “Billy? Dude, what are you doing here? Come in!” I must have had to goofiest smile on my face. It was such a wonderful surprise to see him this morning just after waking up dreaming about him! It was like the beginning of one of my dreams where this very thing happens and then…leads to other things.

Naturally, I brought him to my room so we could, like, be together alone in my sacred space. I had the window open to air the ‘sleep’ smell out of my room and had been picking up my clothes and putting them in the hamper so Sher could do the laundry. She insisted! I wasn’t being lazy about it! I promise!

Billy tried to apologize for not calling first, but I sure didn’t care about that. His coming just because he thought of me and wanted to, just, be here made a warm feeling thrill right through me, somehow. It was so spontaneous and heartfelt, you know! It made my heart beat so fast and made me even more aroused than I was already when I woke up!

Just seeing him there, his warm perfect body right there in my room. His naked collar bone was showing just above his t-shirt collar, his shapely chest showed under that t-shirt, his smooth arms showed the softness of his skin, and his jeans, slightly tight around his package, these things all made me all the way hard. I couldn’t help it. Billy’s just being there made me so horny I could barely stand it! He was real and he was with me, really in my room with me barely dressed!

Just like one of my many dreams!

“So, what do you wanna do?” I asked bashfully. I must have been blushing furiously. It should have been clear to him with my rising tent in my barely there pajama bottoms what I clearly wanted to do!

“I dunno....what do you wanna do?” Billy replied with a blush and I could tell…with a bit of a bulge showing in his own pants. He was so shy with his reply I swear he was going to turn his head down and grind his toe into my carpet like the cutest cartoon character you ever saw when they were playing ‘bashful’. His cherry chipmunk cheeks got all red and he tried to avoid my stare, but couldn’t help but to keep looking back into my eyes.

It was then that I felt the pull. It was almost like Billy had grabbed me by some invisible force like a sexy Jedi or something. I came up to him and, unable to help myself at all, I kissed him on his rosy cheek. Aw, but he was being so cute! I almost couldn’t deal with it! I got this flood of giddy warmth rise right up into my heart. For a moment, I’d actually forgotten about my horniness. This feeling was so much better than that! It was like a flood of feeling that just swept over me! A crashing wave of love!

I looked at him for a second, gauging where I was and if Billy was down for more. He was just smiling and biting his lip in this most adorable way. My God, Billy is so beautiful! He is a gorgeous, gorgeous boy and you see it best when he’s acting so shy. He’s irresistible, I swear!

I didn’t resist. None of my usual doubts or fears came into my mind. All I knew was that I wanted to kiss him and I did. A small kiss, right on his lips. He let me and I looked into his deep light brown eyes and saw nothing but his desire for more. We both giggled nervously a bit, but then I did give him more.

We really kissed then. A deep long kiss that I still feel on my lips right now! Kissing Billy is like learning to fly. You become weightless and everything in you seems to rise like you’ve become some kinds of lovesick hot hair balloon! I swear my feet lifted right off the floor!

Before we knew it, we’d gotten together on my bed. My own bed! My most intimate and comfy place! We kissed for a while, really getting into it and I felt myself rubbing against Billy’s body. I couldn’t have been harder! At one point I had to lay on my back to take the pressure off or I knew I’d make an embarrassing mess out of myself with Billy right there. Feeling Billy’s warmth right on me, right there got me really close a couple of times while we were kissing. Nothing much was between me and his body, after all. Just a thin covering of cotton.

Then…Billy reached down and wrapped his hand around my barely covered shaft and stroked me a little. I very nearly went off in my bottoms when he did that! My hardness strained to get out so bad I thought it would punch a hole right through my pajamas like a steel dart!

His unexpected move caused us to stop kissing and also made Billy stop rubbing me…which I really didn’t want him to stop doing! I mean, I REALLY didn’t want him to stop doing that! It felt sooo good in his hand!

The ice broken, I decided that it was time to ‘reveal my truth’ to Billy as Chandler said to do. I got this really mischievous feeling run through me! It felt a bit dirty…but in a good way! After giving Billy what must have been a wicked smile, I reached and pulled my bottoms down. They weren’t doing anything to cover my modesty anymore anyway so why bother with them, right? Plus…Billy wanted to see me. So I let him!

Bare to him now, he looked with what looked like awe! Something weird inside me swelled up like pride or something! Billy wasn’t shocked or disgusted or anything with what I did. He was in awe!

Then. . .he wrapped that soft hand around my bare hard-on and what felt good before with my bottoms on felt a thousand times better with nothing between us! It felt so different and so much better than when I touch myself! Having Billy’s warm hand on me, slowly stroking me experimentally, was, up until that point, one of the most erotic things I’ve ever felt. Even with what I experienced with Marie! It felt more because it meant more! This was Billy here! This was Billy taking my most sensitive part in his hand and, ever so gently, ever so lovingly, massaging me just to make me feel good and doing it because he loves me!

Again, I almost came in his hand! How could I not? Billy had made me so hot I was on the edge anyway! But, somehow I didn’t. It was like my body was trying to prolong the feelings Billy was giving me for as long as it could hold out.

The vanilla scent of Billy’s neck pulled me into it. Feeling the sexy shivers running from my groin to the rest of me as Billy stroked me, I just started ravenously kissing him right in that sexy spot behind the ear. Somehow, by instinct, I knew it was a way of making him feel good just like he was making me feel.

I was sure I was close to the finish line with my tasting Billy’s deliciousness on his neck and his slow pumping of his hand on my hardness, but then he stopped short as we both heard Sharon come in through the back door!

‘Fuck! Why’d she have to get back so fast!’ I thought with a little bitterness and a lot of disappointment.

I quickly got out of bed, not even bothering to put my pants back up, to see if she was coming up or not. I sure didn’t need her catching us like this! Sharon wasn’t coming up, but when I called to her she wanted me to come down and help her with the groceries!

Double fuck damn shit! I was so frustrated!

I came back over to the bed to apologize that we had to cut it out for now. But, before I could get a word out…IT happened!

I was unprepared. Totally!

Before I had the chance to snap my pajama bottoms back up and try to make my hard-on go down enough so as not to embarrass myself in front of Sharon, Billy totally grabs me by the hips!

Before I know what’s happening I’m deep in Billy’s mouth! I swear to almighty God! Billy started giving me a full on BLOWJOB with the door to my room WIDE OPEN! For a second, I didn’t fucking care about the goddamn door or Sharon! Holy Moly!

Not even with Marie had anything like that ever happened!

I was suddenly plunged into this red hot moistness that closed all around my member. I felt Billy’s tongue moving all underneath it and I swear I could feel every taste bud he had! It was this velvet warmth that then vacuumed on me increasing the pressure on all sides of it.

My legs nearly gave out! Pleasure isn’t the word for it! I felt dizzy from it and all I wanted to do was stand there so that Billy could keep doing what he was doing! To Hell with Sharon or anybody! Dear God…Yessss!

When he finally let me go, a terrible part of me wanted to grab him by the ears and push myself back into him! I was so close to the point of no return that all I wanted to do was sink myself back into that hot vacuum and explode in an explosion I’ve never felt before!

Somehow, though, I stopped myself. I managed to pull myself together and we stopped . . . God help me. I sooooo didn’t want to!

Shortly after rapidly helping Sharon put away the groceries while trying to keep my raging hard-on hidden from her and ushering Billy out of the front door while she wasn’t looking, I went and took a loooong shower.

In there I came massively! It was such an intense climax that I had to cover my mouth so I wouldn’t yell out and alert Sharon to what I was doing.

I’ve jacked off about a hundred times today, but none of the sessions were very satisfying! I’m afraid doing that will never again be satisfying enough!

The only thing that can cure me is being inside Billy’s mouth again! We’ve got to make that happen again and this time…finish! What’s more…I fully intend to return the favor. I felt Billy’s own hardness while we were making out. I long for the day that I’ll be able to see and taste his like he did mine today!

I’m committed to this sex thing now! I want more! I want so much more!

This is Brandon the Sex Fiend!