Brandon Smiling: From the Billy Chase Chronicles (3) - 9. Entry 9

Monday

So, today was strange.

Why is it when you get to a certain place in your life it’s like the universe knows this and starts throwing you curve balls? It’s just plain weird!

Rest assured, this has nothing really to do with Billy and what we have planned for tomorrow, it was just…other people today.

So, to start out with, Stevie. . .

He was waiting for me at the bike rack this morning which I found a little strange because Stevie is usually late to class…never early. It’s part of his whole ‘Emo Image’ that he try to be as delinquent as possible as far as the school system is concerned. It’s like every tardy point he takes on his record is an award or something. He’s a rebel, I guess.

Anyways, he’s all like, “Hey, Brandon! Can we talk?”

I, of course, said ‘sure’ and he, kind of, paused and fidgeted a bit, hiding his big blue eyes under all that black hair.

“I…I just wanted to thank you for, like, being so, like, good to me and stuff. You’ve really helped me out this year. I wanted you to know that.” Stevie muttered almost too low for me to hear, still hiding his eyes.

“Well, sure! No problem! We’re friends, right? That’s what friends do!” I said.

I saw a little crooked uncertain smile appear on Stevie’s lips and I could see him lift his head a bit so that I could see his eyes.

Not for the first time, I was stunned by how blue his eyes are and how, basically, stunning his face is generally. Stevie is really good looking in his strange Emo sort of way. He isn’t Billy beautiful, but then no one is as far as I’m concerned.

“Yeah…friends. Heh.” Stevie said in a weird, unsure kind of way.

Stevie lifted his head more and stared deep into my eyes and, honestly, it was almost hypnotizing! He really does have the most beautiful blue eyes I’ve ever seen. I prefer Billy’s Coca-Cola deep brown eyes…but Stevie’s eyes are completely mesmerizing, especially when he stares at you for any length of time.

“We’re…good friends. Right?” He asked with what sounded like a tremor in his voice.

“Of course, Stevie! I think you’re my best friend, really.” which is true. Stevie and I have been really close lately. He’s helped me through stuff and I’ve helped him through his own terrible treatment by the bullies in school. So, of course, I consider Stevie my best friend! We’ve been through a lot together!

“…really?” Stevie’s look got more intense and I could see just a touch of a blush on his pale cheeks.

“Um…yeah? Don’t you think so?” I asked, suddenly feeling pretty awkward with the way Stevie was looking at me because I recognize that look now. It’s the same kind of look Billy gives me!

“…yeah. I like you a lot, you know. You’re kind of like my…hero or something.” Stevie tucked his head and looked down and away trying to avoid my eyes.

It was my turn to blush. I’d never ever considered myself anybody’s hero before!

“I…just thought you should know. Don’t be mad, ok?” Stevie said, still hiding his face.

“Why would I be mad about something like that? That’s one of the best compliments anyone’s every given me, Stevie. Wow!” I couldn’t help but feel a bit choked up! It was such a strange feeling being someone that someone else might look up to! It was also a little scary, like I suddenly had this big responsibility to keep being that hero Stevie thought I was for him.

Then, Stevie did something that I’m still in shock over! Quickly, before I could even move, he reached over, hugged me close and gave me a big kiss on my cheek! I must have looked like a deer in headlights!

I was standing there reeling and Stevie used that opportunity to scamper away! He actually ‘stole a kiss’ from me today and as flattered as I am by it, I’m also concerned.

Stevie ‘likes me a lot’. He looks at me with the same bashful feelings that Billy does. What’s more, I know Stevie is gay.

Could Billy be getting a rival?

Now, Billy’d never have to worry about Stevie as a rival on my part because I will love Billy forever and always and exclusively! But, this might present some problems between Stevie and Billy later if they ever discovered the other’s feelings toward me.

Some might think it’s fun to have two people you care about very much fighting over you, but I don’t. I don’t like it at all! It makes me worried! It could turn into something really bad later and I don’t want that at all!

So, that was weirdness Number One, today.

Weirdness Number Two was Bobby! Bobby who I haven’t really spoken to for weeks now. Not my fault, we just didn’t cross paths very much. That’s all.

“Hey, Brandon. . .” he catches me between classes at my locker. He had a weird pouty look on his face like he was really upset about something. He looked like he was about to cry, actually.

“What’s up, Bobby?” I asked wondering what this was all about.

“Do you know, like, is Billy mad at me or somethin’?” he asks sadly.

“Uh. . .not that I know of. He’s not told me anything about being mad at you for anything. Why?” I wondered why Bobby would ask ME anyway. Why would he know if Billy might say something to me about being mad at Bobby? Are we that obviously close that Bobby would figure Billy would tell me anything or not?

The only indication that Billy might have been ‘mad’ or, at least, disturbed by Bobby was in the weird way he acted any time I brought Bobby up in our conversations recently. His behavior was rather strange when I said anything about Bobby and me talking about being gay. But, I chalked that up to Billy being uncomfortable with anybody know I was gay and that perhaps they might figure he is gay too.

Could there be more to it?

“Well, he’s not talked to me in, like, forever and I was just wondering, ya know?” Bobby said while looking at his shoes. He really looked put out by that. I guess that would be natural if Billy and Bobby were friends. I had to wonder why Billy would want to avoid Bobby at all. It was like Billy was ‘ghosting’ him or something.

It’s only recently that I told Billy that I knew Bobby was gay and this ‘silent treatment’ seems to have been going on for longer than that. What gives?

“Ok, well. . .if you see him today, could you ask him to hook up with me? I miss him and I sure don’t want him mad at me.” Bobby said.

“Hook up” was a strange way of putting things, but I guess he just meant getting together with Billy again. I saw no problem with trying to get Bobby and Billy to talk to one another again. Maybe, they could hash this weirdness out that was going on between them and then my mentioning Bobby again won’t seem so awkward. I’d really like Bobby inside our little ‘gay bubble’. Billy already has Jimmy as an ally and I have Chandler and possibly Stevie, but we could use some other people in our confidence so we can make a gang of us. The more of us looking out for each other the better!

“I let him know, Bobby, if I see him today. Ok?” I answered Bobby. He smiled a little and nodded and then walked off looking a little less unhappy.

So that was Bobby. . .

Billy and me had lunch together alone today. We went out to the lawn like we’ve been doing. We shared some sweet smiles, some blushes, and some talk about what we were planning for tomorrow. He seemed to be probing me to see what I might like to do, erm . . . sexually. He was subtle about it, but not too subtle. The fact is I want to do EVERYTHING with him tomorrow if we can! I’m literally ‘Up’ for anything! Hehehe!

I noticed he seemed a bit distracted, but didn’t say anything about anything bothering him. I wish Billy was a little more open about how he feels about things in his life. I love him and would help him with anything! But, in any case, I didn’t bring up the Bobby thing since Billy seemed like he was handling something else today. Sorry, Bobby! Maybe, he’s just anxious about tomorrow. I know I am! Anxious in a good way, though. Not a bad way.

I can’t WAIT for tomorrow! I can’t WAIT!

This is Brandon being impatient! I want that hawt Billy all to myself tomorrow! I CAN’T WAIT!