Well... things are on the up and up with me and Matt. We've talked about what happened and why it did, and while he knows i'm still disapointed in him and the situation, we're taking steps to prevent it from happening.
My friend and I also talked about what happened and while he says he's sorry, he knows that im dispointed in him, then Monday happens.
Monday I invite matt over and let him in while I get ready for us to go out. We start watching TV and my mom calls me on my cell and tells
Me, my friend and my boyfriend went out tonight and had one to many drinks. We ended up leaving the clubs early and headed over to my friends house where I ended up crashing on his bed. I woke up with my boyfriend and my friend fooling around and when they noticed me awake, they went downstairs to my friends basement and continued having fun. At this point I went downstaris told my boyfriend that I was leaving for home and that I loved him.
Now before you jump the gun, this is my fault. I kn
It's been awhile, but I wanted to let you know that I will be editing my old stories an reposting them as I can. After reading them, I came across a lot of errors with spelling, grammer and plot holes (some large enough to make no sense at all).
In the mean time, you'll notice things on my eFiction account dissapere and come back. If you do, re-read them! Things have changed, for the better I promise
Currently Lost in Pain is gone from eFiction and will be replaced with the same story a
After a night of not being able to sleep (bleh to that) I did some research concering both areas of software development.
For those who are scratching their head with what I'm talking about, Open Source is programs formed under the various GPL licenses authorizing people to distibute/edit/add/detract from software under the condition that the source code (the mechanics behind what makes software work) is made available as well. Closed source programs are what prevails on the market right now
Ok... if you should know I'm a big animal lover, and if you hurt them or do anything wrong with them, expect me to do something about it! RWAR!
I went to work today and across from my job is a house and on the porch was a dog who was out side. Her name (I later found out) was Dolly. I'm not sure what type of dog she is, but she was really cute. Now I could hear her barking and at first I thought it was cus she was outside. After an hour I look outside and her bark is getting more panicky (yo
After the most recent blow out with my mom and me, me and Matt decided that it was time for me to move out and get my own place. Well... we looked at one place today in Ocean Grove and it didn't go so hot. It was cozy to say the least, kinda on the small side. It was a bedroom, kitchen, bathroom, living room and that's it. When we looked around at it thats when we got the low down.
In an area where an apartment like this should go for (according to the websites that I checked 600-800 a month
I don't know how to title this... so I'm gonna leave it untitled...
Me and my mom had a blow out again... this time it's left me numb and confused...
I don't know what to do.. I want to run away... or at least get away from her cus the more i'm around her, the more its hurting.
I know she loves me, but it still hurts what she says to me...
I'm numb inside, and i'm lost and confused...
It's been awhile... so I figured I would let you guys know whats going on with me of late.
Recently, the weather's been getting nicer so I figured what better way to get back into shape then by biking to and from places while I wait to save up for my car. It would be a lot better (and quicker) to get to and from the train station (compare a 10 minute bike ride to that of a 30 min walk). I could use it to go places quicker and well, it would be better. Unfortunatly, lady luck decided to recen
It's one of the most simple questions, but at the same time, one of the hardest questions to ever yourself. It's four simple words, very plain english, and yet, it can send someone reeling trying to answer it. This question is also one that is constantly asked by people both young and old, and one that will forever haunt us and follow us when we do answer it. What is this question you may ask?
What are your dreams?
Easy to say right? No big vocabulary words in it, no hidden meanings, jus
It's time we had a cor ad cor loquitur (heart speaks to heart)
It's simple really, something that was eating me all day. I have no clue with what I really want to do in the short run. Yes I have dreams, but I have no clue how to get to them. I want to work with kids, speciafically the gay kids and such. But to do that, I have to goto school, and I can't afford that, even with loans, and it's sorta depressing really. It's like having a carrot dangled in front of you, only to have it yanked aw
I don't know what it is lately, but many people have been annoying the heck outta me. Most recent thing, my manager forgot to tell me until I was two hours late to work that she switched my schedule THIS week, not next week. Normally I would've been like eh, but not this time. Cus I missed 2.5 hours today, so I have to make it up this thursday and work a 12.5 hour shift.
Now, onto my next annoyance which is *drumroll please* people. Yes people. They've been annoying the heck out of me. Ther
Hey everyone
Today before work I took some pictures of the town I love, Red Bank NJ. It's a nice town filled with lots of open space, neat little shops, a Starbucks and the like. While I was taking pictures, I was listening to a song that I've come to fall in love with "Asleep - The Smiths" and I personally think it goes well with the photos I took. So if you want, take a look at the photos and listen to the song while doing so. If you wanna leave some comments, feel free to here or on the act
Since the last post was a real downer... this one I promise isn't going to be... as much
Me and mom are back to talking after the fight we had. We're gonna be going into counseling together and try to work out the issues that bother us about each other. Till then, we promised each other to steer clear of topics that could lead to another blowout.
Secondly... I miscounted... I've been with matt (as of yesterday) for 4 months not 5... so sue me
Third, i've been getting the feeling th
*Cue Soap Opera Music*
Well... it happened. World War 3 between me and my mom. We went at it yesterday over the most random of things and it ended up being about me and my sexuality and how it hurts her. How it wound from me saving money to me being gay and such, I have no idea. She ended up telling me how I was irresponsible, how I should have matt start paying my medical bills, and some really hurtful comments. I ended up telling her exactly how I felt (and a few weeks of bottled up feelin
Dear Bobby,
I am so sorry for what you went through and the way that you ended your life. I know what it feels like because I was there at one point in my life. I wanted to die and not live anymore because of the way I saw things. It took a strong person and a failed attempt to realize what I had and what I would've lost.
I look back on it today and see how much my life has changed since then. While I still deal with some of the things that caused me to go deep into my depression, I look
Here I am... lying in my bed trying to figure out things that I've been thinking about for the past few days. Be aware... for they may seem a bit weird and or shocking:
1. I need to loose 30lbs. How did I come to this number? Well... since the only thing that's grown on me besides my weight and my gut, I want to return back to my old weight of 165. Don't worry... i'm doing this the healthy way and the safe way. No diet pills or junk like that, just good old fashioned hard work (even though i
Well... last night me and matt talked a little bit more about our engagement, among other things and decided a few courses of action:
1. We were gonna wait until I move out of my house and into my own place before making it offical (due to the facts my parents would probably flip out and attempt to make my life a living hell)
2. Matt is gonna talk to his parents about what we're gonna do. He said that there is no worry, his parents are very open minded
3. Me and matt are going to sta
Well, something happened over the past few days that I never would've imagined happening to me.
It started New Years Eve/Day where I got a little drunk on tequila (hush you Steve!!!) and let slip to not only my friends, but to Matt that, at the time, I think he was my soulmate, the one for me. I ended up drinking a little to much and he ended up taking care of me.
The next day, we talked a little more about what I said to him the previous night and we both agreed that we felt the same wa
Well... my mom dropped a bombshell on me today... she told me that my dad, her and my sister are planning on moving out to PA by the end of the year at the earliest and by next summer at the latest. This comes as a shock to me because I thought they were planning on moving out there in 2 years.
Now, normally I'm one to make fun of NJ first, but recently (ok, 4 months or so ago) I found a reason to stay out here and suffer through living in NJ. Matt. I wanna stay out here and be with him, but
I stumbled across this when I was at AwesomeDude and it really moved me... so I thought I would share it with everyone and see what they think...
One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.'
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my frie
Well... this is it. Yesterday was my last final in school and while I didn't do as well as I hoped I would, I still managed to do the best I could. What does this mean for you, you might be wondering, well, it means that I'll have more time to write and chat and such.
I'm going to do a massive overhaul of my already published stories and hopefully finish up Lost in Pain. I know that I've said I would work on it but school kinda got in the way. Another thing... being in the hospital for six d
Well everyone... reports of my demise have been greatly exaggerated....
I was in the hospital for six days because of a double whammy... turns out that Zithromax (an antibiotic) and the medicine I take for my anxiety just don't get along to well... and on top of that... i'm allergic to it! Pretty much they kept me in the hospital for 6 days for observation and it wasn't fun. I didn't have my phone or my laptop so there was no way for me to connect to the world :wacko:
All in all... i'm
So time has come that I'm working on a serial that I definitely need an editor for (if my other works prove it). If anyone is interested in editing for me... please PLEASE let me know via PM!
So as I may not get stuck down my GA's spoiler killer I'll let you know about the story and such if you ask. It's going to be a decent series (I think) and each chapter averages between 4,500 and 5,000 words.
In other news... everything is going swimmingly and couldn't be better (for the most part).
