SO APPARENTLY one of my classes DIDN'T transfer and my GPA was like a milisecond off MOTHER f**kER.

i don't know if i should cry or stab myself repeatedly in the face for being so ... i guess irresponsible. is that even a word.

my hopes and dreams of going to boston are shattered, at least until spring. I need to do like 2 more classes then i'd be all fine and dandy, thats another 4 something months at home. Is that bad? I have no idea, a part of me is glad i want to be near my close friends here, i mean when the other ones go off back to school, whatever, a part of me is infuriated by the fact that i have to stay longer. i have no idea if my parents are okay with this. i called my dad while he was teeing off on the golf course which usually pisses him off and he just said do another semester then leave from there.

i feel stupid though, like dumb. I did not meet the requirements, i could of checked ahead of time and figured out the class didn't transfer, I guess its on me right? i don't know if its okay that any of this is happening. i'll be behind YET again in the age spectrum if and when i finally go off to school. my intentions are TO go off to school , however if you add in the mixture my retardation it = a f**king disaster and the whole "I'm a responsible young adult" is shot to hell.

this is clearly a venting blog, i just don't know whats right am i fail? do i still have time. some people take forever to 'go' to school. i feel like i have nothing to look forward to anymore. which is a lie, i have tons of things to look forward to.i dunno lol a friend of mine goes to st andrews school in wherever scotland/ireland and she brought back some british people, got drunk witht hem last night, i hope they liked me they were very nice and their accents were refreshing i'm very hung over and i feel trashy. i am going to go running right now though like that one movie with aldo snow but who likes f**king aldo snow apparently katy perry

i did buy my edc ticket today, so in a week i'm gonna be raving my ass off, yay

i know there are people worse off than me and when i say that they have zero aspirations to go to school, I WANT to leave. hell for arguments sake if I got accepted to that school i would of gone if i liked it or not just to leave. now i'm just spouting things out of my ass. i'll figure something out, i always do.

i'm like f**king mcgyver err macgyver