Don't be so hard on yourself. This kind of move is scary and stressful and when your scared and stressed you don't behave like yourself. Let yourself deal with this in any way you feel the need. And so what if you're annoying, so what if you're irrational. The more you fight it the worse it will be. Let yourself be scared. let yourself be annoying and frustrating and just plain unpleasant to be with. Those who love you will understand and the rest... well you won't be around to care will you... you;ll be in a new place with people who don't know you and so you will have a past wiped clean and the opportunity to be whoever you want to be.

Most important east up on yourself and take care of yourself.

I bet within three weeks of being there you'll be writing blogs that are far more positive.

Time to change it up, get in front of it instead of feeling like you're behind it.

Make your lists: things you need to do before the move, during the move and after the move.

Take the last two lists and put them away, you don't worry about those until days 0 and -0.

Do something, at least one thing, on the list every day, until its done or you move.

Lists don't work for you? Then take good care of yourself every day:

- On meds? Are they working? If not, change them up.

- Are you exercising every day? You should.

Repeat after me:

I must not fear.

Fear is the mind-killer.

Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.

I will face my fear.

I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.

Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.

Only I will remain.