Well its been a while since i visited here.

Thought i would update everyone simply because everyone else is doing it.

Took A Levels in the summer and passed with three 3 C's which was excellent for me considering i pretty much screwed up my english and theatre exams (2 D's). I love coursework. Its my saviour

Moved to university last week. I was admitedly terrified. I didn't want to go but I had to force myself. But now i'm here. So much has changed in my life. For example, when my mother is rude to me; i stand up for myself. I'm also getting used to social situations and how to react to them. I don't go out drinking on the student nights because i know I wouldn't enjoy it. My housemates are amazing people and i get on okay with some and really well with others.

Lectures technically begin later on today and i'm really looking forward to it. Its the routine i desire and I can't wait.

Also, at the end of August i met a very strange bunch of individuals at a museum and wandered round watching them grope boob. Now that was amusing. I met some people I never thought I would meet. I hope to continue meeting them as often as financially possible. You are all so special to me. Without GA, I wouldn't be as confident in myself. GA gave me that little bit of support when lets face it, when i didn't have many friends.

I'm meeting possibly hundreds of people (hence the title of my blog: its from Company one of my favourite musicals ) and i love it. I would normally be so scared but i'm kicking myself to do these things. I can do it. I have faith in myself. internally, i'm absolutely shitting myself but i can do this.

Is it bad that I am enjoying the education more than the student life itself? I adore learning and I always have done. Learning is hard but the reward at the end of it all is amazing.

Then there is Jason. I have been with him for nearly two years. he has been such a great support for me and on top of GA, you have really developed me. i'll always be grateful to him for listening to me rant about my mother and how he puts up with my issues. baby

Okay, mushy moment over. I've seen so many romances develop over the years and it makes me glad that I have someone to care for and be there for. *whistles* I have you two... Dumb gay moments. Guess the show Paya and Westie perfect for each other, Mark and Stu perfect for each other. Everyone is pairing up and i'm so glad. Everyone deserves someone and people are starting to find their matches. so proud of you all.

I've grown as well. I'm more mature and i'm handling the world better. I have come so far in a week and two days since i moved to university.

My writing has gone a little downhill just because of time restrictions whilst being at uni. I have been writing but in little chunks now and then and never as much as I did in the summer holidays. We are all allowed breaks; i'm still posting. Hopefully no-one forgets me cuz i'm not around as much as i used to be. I know becoming a great author doesn't come overnight and it takes work. I need to find that balance. University should be where i work and study and i need to make writing more fun and I need to start writing for me. Write the stories that I want to tell, not the ones that I think people would like to read. Authors seem to do better when they write for themselves; take Nephylim or Comicality. They just started out writing stories for their own entertainment and look how big both of them are now. Well, Comsie on a larger scale but you know what I mean.

just sigh. I'm happy. Happier than i have been in a while. I can truly relax and be myself and i can say screw the consequences of my actions. I shouldn't even be up now but i wanted to write a blog; so i did. I'm getting better at spur of the moment.

I'm just getting better at handling everything and it fills me with a rush of joy.

I love you guys

So anyone want to share a memory of our interactions? Would be nice Been here for over 3 years now Makes a guy feel old but satisfied. So glad i've been here for so long. I've seen members come and go and it saddens me. But we are a tight knit group. I hope the attackers stop soon. GA is a beautiful place and I would hate to see it destroyed by some unappreciative arses.

YAY I do feel great about myself. YAY

I should sign off now. Night guys and don't forget, no matter what happens there is always someone out there that loves you. Even if they are thousands of miles away... They will still love you.

I sound like such a hippie...