Soundtrack

Track List

1. Abandoned (Gemini Syndrome) - Alec’s Abandonment
2. Abuse (Lucas King)  - Alec’s Misery
3. Daddy (Korn) - The Horror of Alec’s Abuse
4. Trauma (NF) - Alec’s Trauma
5. Paralyzed (NF) - Alec’s Terror
6. Crawling (Linkin Park) - Something Dark Growing Inside of Alec
7. HATRED (BVDLVD) - The Monster Is Born
8. ESCAPE (Execution Day) - The Monster Escapes
9. Lost (Lucas King) - Alec Finds Himself Lost
10. Prayers For Rain (A Pale Horse Named Death) - Reprise from ‘Taryn’s Song’
11. Stolen Child (Doors in the Labyrinth) - Alec Encounters His Sire
12. Blood (Velvet Acid Christ) - Yet Another Kind of Exploitation
13. Blood Moon (Converge & Chelsea Wolfe) - Alec Is Slowly Consumed
14. The Culling (Chelsea Wolfe) - Alec No More
15. Monster (Starset) - Rage is Born
16. Blood Rage (Nightcrawler) - Rage Begins His Hunt
17. Burn Everything (Ludovico Technique) - Rage Ascendant
18. Justin (Korn) - Finding A Mortal Enemy
19. Happy Birthday Taryn (The Birthday Crew) - A Horrifying Reunion
20. I’ll Take It All From You! (The Witch Was Right) - A Hateful Promise
21. Night Child (Electric Wizard) - Rage of the Night
22. Eternal Hatred (Skeletal Remains) - An Enraged Vow
23. Betrayed (Gary Numan) - The Why
24. Help Me, I Am In Hell (Nine Inch Nails) - The Tragedy Of Rage

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Abandoned (Gemini Syndrome) - Alec’s Abandonment

There was a time when I knew nothing about

Hatred, rejection, intolerance, pain, abuse, as it turns out

I know these things

They're all you bring

There was a time when hope shined

 

How could you leave me alone

Abandoned and then disowned

Never even had a name

You forgot me all the same

I choose my own home

 

There was a child who loved everything outside and in

There was a time when my light started to dim

I know these things

I'm so empty

There was a time when hope died

 

How could you leave me alone

Abandoned and then disowned

Never even had a name

You forgot me all the same

I choose my own home

 

This is for the losers

This is for the freaks

This is for the broken

Forgotten and diseased

This is for the outcast

This is for the widows son

This is for all of us

Abandoned

 

I'm not motherfucking angry

I'm not angry anymore

I'm not fucking crazy

I'm not crazy anymore

 

How could you leave me alone

Now I got you listening motherfucker

Abandoned and then disowned

You fucking threw me away

Never even had a name

Bitch!

You forgot me all the same

Fuck you!

I choose my own home

I choose my own home

 

Fuck you!

 

I wanna motherfucking kill you!

 

Abuse (Lucas King)  - Alec’s Misery

 

Melancholy Instrumental

 

Daddy (Korn) - The Horror of Alec’s Abuse

 

Mother please forgive me

I just had to get out all my pain and suffering

Now that I am done, remember I will always love you

I'm your son

 

Little child, looking so pretty

Come out and play, I'll be your daddy

Innocent child, looking so sweet

I'll rape your mind and on your flesh I'll eat

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

That's a good boy

And fucked!

Your own child

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

Your own child

 

Little child, looking so pretty

Come out and play, I'll be your daddy

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

That's a good boy

And fucked!

Your own child

 

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

 

It's alright

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

That's a good boy

And fucked!

Your own child

 

I raped!

No one hears me

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

No one hit me

And raped

Your own child

 

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

That's a good boy

And fucked!

Your own child

 

I speak!

No one hears me

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

No one hears me

Mommy why?!

Your own child

 

I didn't touch you there

Mama said she didn't care

I didn't touch you there

That's why mama stopped and stared

 

Little child, looking so sweet

I'll rape your mind and on your flesh I'll eat

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

That's a good boy

And fucked!

Your own child

 

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

Your own child

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

As a child

Tied down!

That's a good boy

And fucked!

Your own child

 

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

Your own child

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Dirty one

Your own child

 

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

Your own child

 

You raped!

I feel dirty

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

Your own child

 

I scream!

No one hears me

It hurt!

I'm not a liar

My God!

Saw you watching

Mommy why?!

 

I fucking hate you! Motherfucker!

Motherfucker! I fucking hate you! Fuck you!

You son of a bitch, you fucking ruined my life!

I wanted to die!

I'm sick of it, motherfucker... oh, oh

Why'd you fuckin' do it to me?

 

I hate you!

I fuckin' hate you!

I hate you!

Why?!

I hate you!

 

Trauma (NF) - Alec’s Trauma

 

Say you're there when I feel helpless

If that's true, why don't you help me?

It's my fault, I know I'm selfish

Stand alone, my soul is jealous

It wants love, but I reject it

Trade my joy for my protection

 

Grab my hand, I'm drowning

I feel my heart pounding

Why haven't you found me yet?

I hold you so proudly

Traumas, they surround me

I wish you'd just love me back

 

Say you're here, but I don't feel it

Give me peace, but then you steal it

Watch them laugh at all my secrets

Scream and yell, but I feel speechless

Ask for help, you call it weakness

Lied and promised me my freedom

 

Grab my hand, I'm drowning

I feel my heart pounding

Why haven't you found me yet?

I hold you so proudly

Traumas, they surround me

I wish you'd just love me back

 

Grab my hand, I'm drowning

I feel my heart pounding

Why haven't you found me yet?

 

Paralyzed (NF) - Alec’s Terror

When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me - inside
I'm paralyzed

When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (ooh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me - inside
I'm paralyzed

I'm paralyzed
I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
But it's still alive
And it's taking over me - where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I feel nothing, I wonder why
I'm on the race of life and time passes by
Look
I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me - inside
I'm paralyzed (Yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)

Where are my feelings? (Yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (Oh. How come I'm not moving? Why aren't I moving? Ay yeah)
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me? (Where is the real me? Where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me - inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)

Crawling (Linkin Park) - Something Dark Growing Inside of Alec

[Chester Bennington:]

Crawling in my skin

These wounds they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

 

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming confusing

This lack of self-control I fear is never ending

Controlling I can't seem

 

[Chester Bennington (Mike Shinoda):]

To find myself again

My walls are closing in

(Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)

I've felt this way before

So insecure

 

[Chester Bennington:]

Crawling in my skin

These wounds they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

 

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Distracting reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection

It's haunting how I can't seem

 

[Chester Bennington (Mike Shinoda):]

To find myself again

My walls are closing in

(Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)

I've felt this way before

So insecure

 

Crawling in my skin

These wounds they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real

 

Crawling in my skin

These wounds they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing confusing what is real

 

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface consuming

Confusing what is real

This lack of self-control I fear is never ending controlling

Confusing what is real

HATRED (BVDLVD) - The Monster Is Born

[Chorus]

There’s so much pain

For me to feel

Closed all the gates

No way to heal

I’ve got no way

To understand what’s real

I only feel one thing

And there’s so much hatred

In my head

I-I just motherfuckin' hate this

Make me dead

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[Verse 1]

And there's so much hatred

In my head

I just motherfuckin' hate this

Make me dead

Make me dead

And there's so much hatred

In my head

I just motherfuckin' hate this

Make me dead

Make me dead

Make me dead

 

[Breakdown]

I don’t know why I feel so shit

You broke my being, now I’m left in bits

All your friends, they like to take the piss

 

[Verse 2]

Now I’m left with hatred

In my soul

I just motherfuckin' hate this

Covered in holes

I got so much fuckin' hatred

I’ve lost control

I just motherfuckin' hate this

Pierce my skull

[Chorus]
There’s so much pain
For me to feel
Closed all the gates
No way to heal
I’ve got no way
To understand what’s real
I only feel one thing

[Verse 3]
I've been searching for my purpose
Been snaked so many times
Nothing hurts worse
Imma gonna catch my dreams or am I gonna fall first?
Imma gonna find a state of mine that don’t involve hurt?
All this hatred in my veins I’m gonna
Cut it out without a doubt
And watch it fall out of my mouth
And out my mind just get it out
I’ll be alright just speak it out
There’s several ways to see it out
Just see it out
Just see it out
Please try and fucking see it out
Ay, fuck living with hatred!
I don’t give a fuck if some pussies tryna say shit
Just lemme live my life
I'm tryna make hits
I know I’m gonna make it
Depression is a demon
Try and face it
Step my step, take it slow, you ain’t faking
You're my friend and I know you’re gonna make it
You're my friend and I know you’re gonna make it

ESCAPE (Execution Day) - The Monster Escapes

The Evil Escapes

Lost (Lucas King) - Alec Finds Himself Lost

Melancholy Theme for Alec lost in the city

Prayers For Rain (A Pale Horse Named Death) - Reprise from ‘Taryn’s Song’

Reprise from ‘Taryn’s Song’. Connoting the pointlessness of the city streets for a little boy.

Stolen Child (Doors in the Labyrinth) - Alec Encounters His Sire

I'll promise you forever

if you take my hand

Come with me to the realms beyond

Leave sorrows behind

 

The world is full of weeping

But the universe is vast

In the lands of the summer sun

You will finally find a home

 

They'll never know you've gone

These sticks and leaves will take your place

When autumn fades and the changeling falls apart

You'll be beyond their reach

 

The world is full of weeping

But the universe is vast

In the lands of the summer sun

You will finally find a home

Blood (Velvet Acid Christ) - Yet Another Kind of Exploitation

Like tears of blood that roll off your hands, as if you were crying blood, as if the whole world was bleeding, and every person was covered in blood, like if every being was torn from above, and the wounds bleed deeply, furiously, and unending. like the blank stare of a billion bleeding souls, like the wretched air that burns you like hot coals, like your soul covered with dirt and mud, like the entire world is covered in your blood, something dreadful, something painful, something evil, something ugly, something wicked, something wretched, something horrid, something morbid, like the stinging in your eyes, like the frozen skies, like when your eyes pop out of you head, like your fingers fall off dead, like when your back is skinned, like when the real pain begins. begins, begins. something dreadful, something evil, something wicked, something horrid, something hurting, Something bleeding Something bleeding, Something bleeding, Something bleeding, Blood, Blood, Blood…

Blood Moon (Converge & Chelsea Wolfe) - Alec Is Slowly Consumed

[Verse 1: Jacob Bannon]

Blood moon ascends in night

As the cosmic eye

Free of the chains

That define our lives

It cuts through flesh and bone

Into the glow of souls

Gazing far and wide

Devoid of hope

 

[Verse 2: Chelsea Wolfe]

You cut me open

But I won't let you find

What’s under the surface

Entombed in my mind

Beneath the surface

It's grim to see

Oh, it echoes out

Then disappears

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[Pre-Chorus: Chelsea Wolfe]

Unblinking eye in the shadows

Abets the world its weary lies

Enthroned beside the dimming light

Speak what’s left unspoken

The time is near

 

[Chorus: Jacob Bannon]

Blood moon ascends in the night

Cosmic unblinking eye

Gazing through flesh and bone

Into the glow of our souls

Blood moon ascends in the night

Cosmic unblinking eye

Gazing through flesh and bone

Into the glow of our souls

 

[Bridge: Chelsea Wolfe]

The mind was a hall that towered high

And on the throne was the child inside

And on my side

Enthroned beside the shadows divine

Held all the world and the glimmering life

In mind was a time when all was right

Mind was in mind

[Chorus: Jacob Bannon]
Blood moon ascends in the night
Cosmic unblinking eye
Gazing through flesh and bone
Into the glow of our souls
Blood moon ascends in the night
Cosmic unblinking eye
Gazing through flesh and bone
Into the glow of our souls

[Verse 3: Chelsea Wolfe]
Cut me open
It’s grim to see
Beneath the surface, etched in fear
The day has spoken
How dare you speak her name
To consecrate the broken
Carry weary worlds

[Outro: Jacob Bannon]
The day has broken
A stain, a crime
You, serpent
Deicide
The day has broken
A stain, a crime
You, serpent
Deicide

The Culling (Chelsea Wolfe) - Alec No More

Dead eyes, I only call you when you're in my dreams

Died too young, the culling then, it was obscene

I am depleted by love

I am depleted by love

I'll never tell the secrets of my family

Bled out, a cult of anonymity

The kettle is wheeling, my love

Riding on the back of a hell they caused

One ear to the ground

One eye on the room

My tongue on your pulse

My finger in your wound

Sweet dead eyes, I long to hear you again

Sweet dead eyes, I long to see your face

Sweet dead eyes, I long for that illustrious hiss

Sweet dead eyes, I know you feel it

No turning back, only God knows what we're headed for

The flowers bloom, the sun rises

Flux, hiss, welt, groan

Flux, hiss, welt, groan

Flux, hiss, welt, groan

Flux, hiss, welt, groan

Flux, hiss, welt, groan

Flux, hiss, welt, groan

Monster (Starset) - Rage is Born

Under the knife I surrendered
The innocence yours to consume
You cut it away
And you filled me up with hate
Into the silence you sent me
Into the fire consumed
You thought I'd forget
But it's always in my head

You're the pulse in my veins
You're the war that I wage
Can you change me?
Can you change me?
You're the love that I hate
You're the drug that I take
Will you cage me?
Will you cage me?
You're the pulse in my veins
You're the war that I wage
Can you change me?
Can you change me?
From the monster you made me?
From the monster you made me?

This is the world you've created
The product of what I've become
My soul and my youth
Seems it's all for you to use
If I could take back the moment
I let you get under my skin
Relent or resist?
Seems the monster always wins

You're the pulse in my veins
You're the war that I wage
Can you change me?
Can you change me?
You're the love that I hate
You're the drug that I take
Will you cage me?
Will you cage me?
You're the pulse in my veins
You're the war that I wage
Can you change me?
Can you change me?
From the monster you made me?
From the monster you made me?

My heart's an artifice, a decoy soul
I'll lift you up and then I'll let you go
I've made an art of digging shallow holes
I drop the darkness in and watch it grow
My heart's an artifice, a decoy soul
Who knew the emptiness could be so cold?
I've lost the parts of me that make me whole
I am the darkness
I'm the monster

You're the pulse in my veins
You're the war that I wage
Can you change me?
Can you change me?
You're the love that I hate
You're the drug that I take
Will you cage me?
Will you cage me?
You're the pulse in my veins
You're the war that I wage
Can you change me?
Can you change me?
From the monster you made me?
The monster you made me?
The monster you made me?
The monster you made me?

Blood Rage (Nightcrawler) - Rage Begins His Hunt

Reprise from ‘Gone From Daylight’.

Burn Everything (Ludovico Technique) - Rage Ascendant

I've held on so long

To all the things I want to believe

Throw away everything that I have known so easily

Anything that I've given

Has disappeared never to be found

So I'm giving what is left inside of me to

Burn it down

 

Burn everything around me

My mind, my life, my needs

Burn everything I've ever known or cared for endlessly

Burn it down

 

I try to go on

With a life that I wish could be

It's taken all I have inside myself so easily

I try to hold on

As everything is slipping away

But I'd rather see it burn than see it like this

One more day

 

Burn everything around me

My mind, my life, my needs

Burn everything I've ever known or cared for endlessly

Burn it down

Justin (Korn) - Finding A Mortal Enemy

Fuck all that bullshit!

 

You watch me play.

I look away.

Your lights turn bright.

You found the light.

 

Take, off in space. You and I.

Time, off in space. You and I.

 

You're gonna die!

Wanna meet me, why?

I wish I had your strength

Inside your soul escapes.

 

Take, off in space. You and I.

Time, off in space. You and I.

 

Cry, into me.

Help me...

Something...

For all!

The kids that die listening to me.

 

You are alive!

 

Time, off in space. You and I stay....

 

Take, off in space. You and I.

Time, off in space. You and I.

 

I...

Happy Birthday Taryn (The Birthday Crew) - A Horrifying Reunion

A dread mockery…

I’ll Take It All From You! (The Witch Was Right) - A Hateful Promise

YEAH!
It's getting colder every day
Motherfucker I'm only here to see you burn
If things were different, would you catch the blood?
This has always been my war, my way, fuck you!
He’s a pretty picture on the wall
It's sad to say I can't see at all
What you see as evil, is explained
What you did to me, I'll take from you
Take from you
I took it all from you
I took it all from you
I'll take it all from you
I'll take it all from you
I'll take it all from you
I'll take it all from you
He’s a pretty picture on the wall
It's sad to say I can't see at all
What you see as evil, is explained
What you did to me, I'll take from you
Take from you
I'll take from you
What you did to me, I'll take from you
What you did to me, I'll take from you...

Night Child (Electric Wizard) - Rage in the Night

Under the black sun
I crawl from my grave
Your body, I worship
Your blood, I crave

I creep by your window
The light, I despise
You cannot see me
But feel my cold eyes

I am the night child
Shadows gather 'round me
Are you a night child?
Join us and be free

Your rotten world
Means nothing to me
Under cover of darkness
Is when I am free

The night child is creeping
Forever seeking
New bodies new victims
Drug and murder addicted

I am the night child
Shadows gather 'round me
Are you a night child?
Join us and be free

I am the night child
I am the night child
I am the night child
I am the night child
I am the night child
I am the night child

I am the night child
Shadows gather 'round me
Are you a night child?
Join us and be free

Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun

Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun

Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun

Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun

Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun
Under the black sun

Eternal Hatred (Skeletal Remains) - An Enraged Vow

I am empowered by your disdain

This path of lies you've chosen

Will consume your cowardice ways

Twisted is your mind

Believe the tales in which you preach

Hatred controls you

Your strongest trait is human leech

 

Below me

All you seek is the acceptance of the weak

Deceiving

Thriving off your delusional fantasy

Unworthy

The only threat you pose is upon yourself

Above all, I will remain

Your withered ego you shall retain

 

And now your world is falling

Swallowed by your worthless ignorant ways

Through the looking glass, you see yourself astray

In eternal hatred you'll remain

 

Bow down and beg before me

Destroying all your worth

I've lost all sympathy

I feel nothing

No pain nor sorrow impeding me

Your lack of self-awareness

Fueled by your useless greed

 

As you fall, now a shell of ones self

(Eternal hatred)

I turn my back to thee

(Eternal hatred)

Deprived of the life you once possessed

(Eternal hatred)

Destroyed by your own greed

 

And now your world is falling

Swallowed by your worthless ignorant ways

Through the looking glass, you see yourself astray

In eternal hatred you'll remain

 

I am empowered by your disdain

This path of lies you've chosen

Will consume your cowardice ways

You are nothing but a feeble mind of insecurities

Weakness betrays you, ignorant to your own hypocrisy

Betrayed (Gary Numan) - The Why

You were young so I breathed for you

You were pure so I danced for you

 

You were lost and I cried for you

You were lost but I was betrayed

You were mine and I worshipped you

You were mine but I was betrayed

 

Now you hurt and I bleed for you

Now my tears fill oceans for you

 

You are cold but I burn for you

You are cold and I am betrayed

You are small but I kneel for you

You are small and I am betrayed

 

You are pain so I scream for you

You are pain and I am betrayed

You are death so I'll die for you

You are death and I am betrayed

I am betrayed

I am betrayed

 

Help Me, I Am In Hell (Nine Inch Nails) - The Tragedy Of Rage

An instrumental of ultimate despair.