If the entire world made sense, what fun would it be? The whole mystery of life is built around the fact that there are questions in life that make us think and exercise our brains and reasoning abilities. For example, would you want to live in a world where there was nothing out of the ordinary? Nothing to figure out, nothing to make you think about something? What if we all wore the same clothes, listened to the same music and thought the same way about thing? It would get old fast huh?

The same thing occurs in relationships, whether it be with your parents, your friends, or a loved one. Would you rather be some type of conflict in a relationship, or would you want the same thing every day? Personally, I would want to have some type of conflict, whether it be a disagreement over something or a small ideal. Now don't get me wrong, conflict all the time is a bad thing, but in small doses over life, it is a good thing. It gives you that little spice that's needed to make things more interesting.

However, there is a difference between good conflict and bad conflict. A good conflict is something where you can remove yourself and not let it hurt you deeply and question yourself. A bad conflict, however, is one where you can't remove yourself and it hurts you every time you talk about it or it brings you into a depression. For example a good conflict is one where you and a friend are arguing over who's a better band, NSYNC or Backstreet Boys. A bad conflict is one where someone tells you that you are wrong because of your sexual orientation and you let it rock your core beliefs.

Yesterday, I experienced a bad conflict, and it's one that I am hoping to rectify today. I came home after having a date and when my mom questioned me as to where I was and who I was with, typical parent, I told her I was with my friend Matt. When she asked me who he was and if he was straight, I immediately lied about it and told her he was and that he was a friend.

Thinking about it today, I know that I was in the wrong because I shouldn't let myself be conflicted about who I am and who I want to be with. I should know enough that if I lie about something like this, it only leads to more stress and heartache on my part, but at least right now I know better then to let it go like I have in the past. I know that this conflict that I know I'm going to have is going to start off being a bad conflict but I know in my heart of hearts that it will eventually lead to a good one because it will, I think and I pray, finally lead to an acceptance in my life and in my parents eyes.

In life, all we want is our parents acceptance and undying love. I know that with some people, it's a hard thing to earn, in my eyes, however, it's something that is worth all the struggle and the conflict that may arise. I love my parents to death, but I think it's time to stop hiding the fact that I'm dating a man and, even though I know they won't like it, I think it's time for the both of us to swallow a bitter pill, get through this conflict and be better people for it.