Disconnected thoughts ...

I drove through Wilkinson, IN, today and was struck by its overwhelming quaintness. There were pumpkins everywhere. There were children playing in the park. There were people out talking to their neighbors (it must have been half-time). I imagined last night with a lot of trick-or-treaters going door to door without fear of being shot or poisoned. Other than the enormous Church of Christ at the edge of town, it was my kind of town. Pity that.

I got into some high fructose corn syrup recently and now I'm suffering through symptoms quite similar to Irritable Bowel Syndrome. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I'll see my new GP on the 14th and discuss it with her. There's nothing that can be done other than remove fructose from my diet. It's back to reading labels. Good thing they haven't started putting HFCS into my favorite chocolate bars.

The increased dose of Citalopram (Celexa), from 20 mg to 40 mg, seems to have increased the SSRI side effects. I'm having a lot of dry mouth, which no amount of water will rinse away. On the sexual side, things have gone awry. It's just as it was three years ago when I first tried it. I get turned on, but that's as far as it gets.

On the other hand, I'm not as depressed as I was.

When I saw the shrink he prescribed the new generic form of the time release version of my mood stabilizer. I think it's doing a terrific job.

I'm in the middle of a bad case of apathy. I don't seem to care about much of anything. Of course, this is part of the mental disease/medication process. The mood stabilizer has simply removed a lot of emotion out of my life and now (possibly having to do with the time release tablets) I float along in a state of apathetic happiness.