sandykv58

I am an officer of 47 years old. I have fallen in love with my 60 years old subordinate. But he is straight. Once I did blow job of him too. Two months have passed since than. When he comes before me I want him to love. But I cant say it.I hesitate. How to make him know that I love him very much.

Thanks a lot to Krista and Cia for their advice. Thaks for Micky too for his concern. I want to share some experiences with mickey. My email is sandykv58@gmail.com. please contact.

I am forty six yrs old and I am the principal of a College. I am a gay.I am fallen in love with my 60 yrs old subordinate clerk. He is very handsome and sexy. But he is straight and not interested in gay relationship. Every day I imagine him with me. I try to control my feelings for him. But everyday when I see him I wish if I could have him. What shoud I do?

Dear obscene cupcake, The site contains a word gay in its name. This is the misfortune of we like people that most of us are deprived of love because generally we fall in love with people who are around us. But most of them dont understand us.they take us as sick, perverted and in need of psychiatric help. Whomsoever we love he is something of someone. I also want to leave him and live with someone who can love me equally because onesided love gives nothing but pain. But the problem is how to search that person because majority of them are straights. Thats why most of gays become lonely and depressed. Even we cant share our pain with our closed ones.they will react like you. Many times I say to God why you made me this way. I wish either I would have been a complete man or a complete woman. The midway is very painful. Hope you try to understand.

thank you very much LJH. first time in my life i have opened up myself to someone through this forum.its really relieving. since i am on a reputed post i couldnt reveal myself to anyone. i feel your guidance can improve my morale. i am feeling a bit better. actually i cant forget the moments passed with him. his name is k. thats why i wish to get him back. my problem is that he has my favorite body shape.no one is like him. except him i like one more guy to some extent. i tried on him to divert myself from my only love k. but this one is straighter than the first one. he is my subordinate too. i am an officer. how can i find one who can love me. i feel lonely and rejected in life.

i fell in love with my straight colleague.though he fulfilled my desire many times but to some extent unwillingly.many times he tried to keep distance from me but i insisted and he agreed only for once more. then again started refusing and i again tried hard to make him agree. this has been the pattern of our relation for twelve years.he is the most handsome guy in the world. i love him badly and think about him most of the time. neither he was completely in nor completely out of this relation.he is 55 years old and suffering from decreased platelates 125000 to be exact.i feel he is not so sick.he looks almost ok now he says i am sick etc and cant support you. i see he runs after his wife like a mad dog.i feel rejected and jealous. now we work in different institutions.i tried to leave him many times.but after two three days i again phone him to invite.but he is not ready to come i feel rejected,insulted,lonely ,sad and jealous. what should i do ?