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    Confidence

    By Kurt,

    So. I work in Retail Loss Prevention, it is an amazing job, and I love it. I have been doing for almost 5 months now.
     
    My biggest issue is my confidence. When I get a shoplifter and I go out to detain them I still shake quite a bit (though a lot less than my first one). My voice also cracks, and you can tell that I am nervous. This is my biggest obstacle and it could be my downfall. My boss's say that I am doing well, but I NEED to work on my confidence.
     
    I also have confidence issues when I am calling someone for 'private business' matters. My voice is shaky and I stumble with my words a bit.
     
    When I got my first lifter it was ridiculous. I got him into the office and I could hardly talk. I said things in the way wrong order. After we tell them that they are being detained for Retail Theft and that they can use the phone at any time, we are supposed to ask them if they have any more unpaid for merchandise on them and if they do then they should give it to us now because the officer will search them when they come. (We get the merchandise that we know they took when we stop them outside). I forgot to say this... but I did remember like 20 minutes into the whole thing... oops. When I asked the person for their ID and they took it out and handed it to me, it was crazy... My hand was shaking so bad. The guy probably thought I was a loser.
     
    It has definatly gotten better. It was getting better with each stop, things are now said in the correct order, and all that, but I am still nervous and a little shaky.. and that probably has something to do with the adrenaline, but I still need to relax more. I am the one in charge and running the show. It probably gives the lifter more confidence when I am visually nervous.
     
    I really need to try and boost my confidence. I think that it would make the stop go much more smoothly and it would probably make it more fun.
     
    I hope that every one is doing well, I am.
     
    Have a great evening!
  3. Kurt

    Update: Anymore advice?

    By Kurt,

    Thank you to everyone that gave me advice in my last blog entry.
     
    I need some more please.
     
    Two days ago A and I were texting back and forth about the situation. At one point I texted her saying that she needs to tell him. He saw that text and asked what was going on. She told him that at her bachelorette party she gave oral sex to someone. Which was the truth, but not what I had really been talking about. I had not even known about that. Well, it devastated him. He is really torn and does not know what to do. He keeps coming to me and talking to me about it all, and asking me what I would do if I were in this situation. I am happy that he feels comfortable coming to me and that he still values our friendship.
     
    This whole thing sucks. He tells me that he loves her so much but he thinks that she may cheat again in the future,(which she is doing right now and failed to mention).
     
    So, I am not sure what to do. He says that if he finds out more or if she does it again he is gone without a doubt. She is not going to tell him about M, and their sexual encounter. If he found out about that I am fairly certain that he would leave her.
     
    I am angry. He has a right to know. She should have told him everything. Why tell the minor part of the whole thing?
     
    He has even been going to M (their mutual friend who she had sex with on Monday) and talking to him about her cheating and what he should do. (How can M do that?! Lie right to his face like that and comfort him when he is having an affair with his wife? It boggles my mind.)
     
    I still feel that it is not my place to tell him the rest, however I feel like I am betraying our friendship. He does not know all the facts, and he should not have to make a decision without all of them, and he is missing the biggest facts!
     
    And! I have to lie to his face when he comes to me! That hurts me a lot. It makes me dislike my self. It makes me feel like a coward, and it makes me feel like a horrible friend and person.
     
    I hate this!
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    Please help! Advice needed!

    By Kurt,

    I do not know what to do. My best friends, A (she) and K (he) are married to each
    other, and they have a one year old daughter. I have been friends with
    her for 5 years and with him for about 2. They got married in August.
     
    I love all three of them very much. Last week A told me that she is in
    love with one of their mutual friends, M. She only loves K as a best
    friend now. He is totally in love with her, and he has no idea.
     
    Now, she keeps texting me and telling me how much she likes M. I feel
    so guilty. K does not deseve that and neither does the baby.
     
    This may make me sound weak, but I decided not to do anything about
    it, to not get involved. I think K deserves to know, but I am not sure
    that it is my place to tell him. But then I feel like a bad friend.
     
    A has not had sex or kissed M, she is, in her words, only cheating on
    K emotionally. Because that makes it so much better!
     
    However, tonight A texted me saying 'if anyone asks, I am at your
    house.'
     
    She is with M. This happened after she told me that we couldn't hang
    out tonight because they were going to a friends house to see her new
    kitten. I got ditched for a kitten. Or did I really get ditched so
    she could go see M?
     
    I DO NOT want her to use me so she can cheat on her husband, my friend.
     
    This pisses me of and it confuses me to no end!
     
    I really do not know what I should do?
     
    Do I tell him? I would want to know. But then I would probably loose her as a friend.
     
    Do I keep quiet? It probably is not my place to tell. But, when he does find out and
    if he finds out that I knew, I might loose him as a friend.
     
    Sounds like a no win to me.
     
    Advice?
     
    Edit to add: She had sex with him tonight...
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    Sad day

    By Kurt,

    It really is unfortunate. I never thought the people here could be that rude and uncaring.
     
    Why must people be so inconsiderate of others?
  6. Kurt

    Seriously!

    By Kurt,

    Is it so damn hard to read over your post before posting it?! It gives me a headache trying to read what some people have posted. Try using spell check once! Most of the errors could be found by just REREADING your post before you post it. We are all old enough here to use proper sentence structure, to get our spelling correct, and to fix typos!!
     
    DAMN IT!!
     
    (Rant over)
     
    Hope you all have a good evening!
     
    Toodles.
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    What to do?

    By Kurt,

    I am not sure what to do...
     
    The Red Cross constantly calls me to donate blood... however, I cannot, unfortunatly give my blood, because I have had sex with another guy... What should I do?
     
    I understand that they need the blood, but it is there fault that I cannot give blood, and it annoys me that they keep calling me and I have to keep lying to them.
  8. Kurt

    Drinking song!

    By Kurt,

    So this evening I have been drinking a little!
     
    Here is a song that I wrote!
     
    I was walking on the river on the other side of town! (The Town!)
    I was walking on the river on the other side of town! (The Town!)
    I was walking on the river on the other side of town, and I drowned ( I drowned!), because I'm not Jesus (JEE-SUS!).
     
    I sing the main part, and my friend sings the () part.
     
    Cool, huh?
     

     
    Happy days!
     
    Good night and good luck!
     
    Heel yeah!
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    Awesome first two days

    By Kurt,

    I love my new job, it is the best job ever. It is so much fun. I look forward to work each day, and I am a little sad that I have to wait until 5 pm to go back to work tomorrow.
     
    Loss Prevention is the best job I have ever had. The day flies by. It is interesting, and it keeps you on your toes.
     
    Remember, if you are not at home (well maybe even if you are) someone could always be watching.
     
    It is interesting how you watch someone and they have absolutely no idea, they are totally oblivious. Makes me think how many times I get watched when I go into stores.
     
    Good day to you!
  10. Kurt
    Well tomorrow, well I guess today... I start a new job. I can't sleep. I am very excited, but also very nervous. I can't sleep, which sucks, because I do not want to be yawning all day at the new job.
     
    I have wanted this job for a long time, and I am so happy that I got it. I will be working for the same company ( a retail company) but I will be moving to the store on the other side of town. I have worked for 2 years on the floor stocking shelfs and assisting customers, and now I will be working in Loss Prevention. It is going to be a big change, and it is kind of scary.
     
    Well, I am going to try and get some sleep. I will be sure to update on how the first day went.
     
    Wish me luck!
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    I have this project thing from when I was in second grade. On it, I had to answer what I wanted to be when I grew up. My answer to that question was that I wanted to be a police officer.
     
    Ten years later I am in school to do just that. For a long time, I didn't think that I would be able to accomplish that goal. I thought that I would never be able to physically cut it as a police officer. A few years ago I decided that I would go to college and get a degree for Computer Networking. I figured that that would be a good career choice, and that I could probably be successful at it. However, I put more thought into it, and sitting in a officer all day in front of computers is just not something that I think that I could do. I think that I would have gotten super bored with that kind of job. So then I was stuck for a while. I didn't know what I should study after High School. I never once thought about not going to college... that would just be stupid. Then I decided that I could do Corrections. I really do think that that would be an amazing and rewarding career. So I had signed up for the Criminal Justice - Corrections program. However I figured that if I could do Correction, then I could do Law Enforcement. The schooling is very similar. So I switched to the Criminal Justice - Law Enforcement. I have had about 3 and a half weeks of school so far, and it has been pretty enjoyable.
     
    It will take me two years to get my Associates Degree. This semester I have 6 classes: Oral Interpersonal Communication, Courts and Jurisdictions, Professional Communications, Intro to Criminal Justice, Psychology of Human Relations, and Police Nutrition and Fitness.
     
    The two communications classes and the Psychology class all seem to have very similar points, and the go together nicely. The Courts class and the Intro class have a lot to do with history and the laws and things of our society. The Fitness class is probably my most challenging and rewarding class. This was the class that I was most worried about before I started school, but I can do it, and I like the class.
     
    My life long dream is starting to go into action.
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    The public restroom.

    By Kurt,

    Okay... so I have a problem... and it is a purely mental problem.
     
    I hate public restrooms. First of all, people go to the bathroom and then they do NOT wash their hands, which is very disgusting, so if you are one of those people WASH YOUR HANDS SICKO! Then, they leave the room, and touch the door handle. Ew. Then when I go into the bathroom and I wash my hands (With soap! Just putting here hands under water for a second does NOT clean your hands, SICKO!) and when I leave the room, I touch the handle that that SICKO touched. So then my hands are dirty again. Thank goodness for that hand sanitizer stuff.
     
    People pee on public restroom floors, and if you are not careful you could step in it. EW! I know that those old people can't really aim all that well, but seriously... then sit on the pot or something...
     
    And that brings me to the next thing. Sitting on a public restroom toilet... Never. I refuse. I will hold it all day before I poop in a public restroom. Even with those seat covers. Nope, i won't. Can't make me.
     
    And, to the whole reason of this post: I have a problem peeing in a public restroom if other people are in the room. If I am alone it is fine, but if there is even one other person in there, I block up. Even if I go in there and I have to pee SOO bad, I just cannot. Or if I go in there, and I am alone and then someone comes in... I just cannot keep going. It is weird. But if I concentrate on something else really hard then I can go. Don't ask me why... but I always concentrate on a banana. The color, the shape, or whatever. It is crazy, but it works.
     
     
    I may need mental help...
     
    That may have been too much information.
     
    Have a good night. Remember to wash your hands. With soap!
     
    Happy peeing,
    Kurt
  14. Kurt
    I really kind of regret not going away to college, or at the very least moving out of this house.
     
    I graduated from High School this month. I graduated with honors. My report card came in the mail today. My parents have been bitching at me all night about it. Damn! I graduated with honors! Yes, my grades were not as good as they have been, but I had honors! Isn't that good enough for them? No! Nothing is ever good enough for them! Whatever...
     
    I need to start saving lots of money, because I NEED to get out of this house!
     
    My aunt said I could live with her... My parents would be pissed. I love my aunt, but I really do not want to live with her. Atleast I know that if things get really bad with my rents that I do have a place to live.
     
    I am going to be an aunt! LOL. My best friends just found out that they are having a daughter! They are due in october, and I am so excited. The name that they have picked out as of now is Page! I am so excited! And... I guess I am going to be an uncle...
     
    Do you think that it would be weird to have a guy as a "Maid" of Honor? My best friends, the ones that are having the baby, are getting married in 2010. I am her best friend, and we have been talking about me being the "Maid" of Honor. They are a little unsure about it... I am too... it would be a little weird... but I would be honored to do it. But... I dunno. What do you guys think?
     
    I bought a Flat Screen LCD monitor off of ebay today for 10 bucks... They say it is in good condition and works fine... I hope so.
     
    Peaace out!
     
    Kurt
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    Shoot

    By Kurt,

    So! Yesterday I got accepted to The University of Wisconsin Green Bay, and that is where I am going to go!! I am very excited. I am not sure what I am going to study yet... but I do know that I would like ot get a minor in Spanish. I think that I might get a major in Social Work, but I am really not sure yet, so for my first year I am going to go as undecided.
     
    Now, i have lived all of my life in Green Bay. My best friend Anna is also going to UWGB. So, we are going to rent an apartment. It is going to be me, her, her Boyfriend Kyle, and his best friend Jesse. I know that it is going to be really hard at times, but I think that it will work out. I really need to get out of this house. Thinsg have not been good between my parents and I. They do not want me to move out, but there is no way that I can stay with them while I go to college. It would be a lot cheaper, but I would probably end up shooting myself. I am also sure that they will be happier when i am move out. I just really do not think that they like me (it is stupid I know). I got really excited when I found out that I got accepted to UWGB and they didn't even congratulate me or anything. It kind of made me sad.
     
    I am really looking forward to Spring. I will turn 18, I can move out, I can get my tattoo, and High School will just about be done.
     
    I really need High School to be done. I am so sick of all of these immature people.
     
    I hope that everyone is having an AMAZING Holloween!
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