Hi Greg,
I read both Alex&Zach and Was It Worth Waiting in one night (which may speak to my lack of life) - and after I read them, I went through the comments and then decided to try and salvage what’s left of my night but for some reason I just couldn’t sleep. I kept thinking of writing to you and I guess here I am.
Throughout the chapters, Zach’s troubles kept speaking to me and I related a lot to what you went through growing up, but I guess that I related the most to your nightmare - it spoke to me the most. I usually am the invisible person in a corner (which poses as an odd juxtaposition to the extrovert I sometimes am) whenever I’m with family - to the extent that sometimes they would talk to someone else before I can finish a sentence.
I also have a very religious family, having grown up with a Muslim background, and I have a cousin who moved far away (under more tragic circumstances). The main difference, I guess, was that I was stuck in a never ending cycle and I could not leave and live far away from them until recently. A few years ago I managed to slap myself in the face, I decided to settle all my debts and commitments and last year I moved to the US for grad school. It didn’t solve everything (and it won’t), sometimes I’m in a better place than I was before and sometimes I am not, but such is life.
I know you probably have gotten many messages like these from many people and to be honest I don’t even know whether I will actually send this or not. Plus, I don’t want to take away from your time - I’m sure you have better things to do than to read some incoherent ramblings.
I had two questions for you though:
Did you ever get in touch with your cousin in Florida? and
Does the sense of loneliness and fear of forever being lonely ever go away?
Since the events of Was it Worth It, I really hope that you found love and companionship.
Best, A.
