Silverthorne

Well this is the way that the author wanted this to go and for my two cents I hope that Matt pulls himself out of the muck that was created all the way back in Knots 1.

Lisa wrote: This whole thing is weighing very heavily on Matt's mind. He's having trouble focusing and that's not good. Emily is a smart girl and she's figuring out their secret, well, Andy's secret. Nobody believes Matt would have the same secret. I'm looking forward to the party. It's not sitting well with me; I sense trouble in the air. lol Like this while I have been concerned with Matt as usual since Knots 3 I hope that he will not fall apart but then again it is certainly up to the author of this story as it is his time line.

I noticed that the term Lifestyle was used no matter how you wrote this or how you intended to have it sound Gay is not a lifestyle of choice, religion is a choice marriage is a choice being attracted to the same sex in never a choice no matter how far a person goes in this attraction. Calling it a lifestyle is indicative of what I call THE BOOGIE MAN UNDER THE BED ADULT VERSION. Which indicates only that it could be changed and truthfully Elias one can swear off physical contact but one is still attracted no matter how much someone denies him or herself.

The author wrote at the end of this chapter that someone complained about his use of quotes I like them to be honest. I even used one when I posted to my Friends and followers on my Facebook Timeline. As I went through my youth way back when it was more survival that anything else being different learning what I was and being my own mentor these memories seem to help me pull my own rabbit out of the hat so to speak. I remember more having this to read so thank you for the help.

Wow as I am now a Great Grandfather (my grandson and his significant other) birthed a son in December. At 17 my school mate and I experimented with sex. By November 1965 and before I knew it Kathy left school. I found out 10 years later that she had left because of her pregnancy. I joined the Army in 1966 and retired in 1992. My grandson said he always knew something was amiss and finally left Seattle Washington to find me. I am single gay and content with just enough need for male energy to satisfy a lot of jacking off. This story of two 14 year old boys reminds me of what happened when I was 16. 54 years later my best friend and I finally found each other through his sister. We were straight acting even then I knew that I was different from the age of 5. I never actually acted on different until 1967 in Vietnam; but I knew there was more that we never acted on. So this story had so much to look forward and back in my life. Thanks I don't know how I found it but I am happy that I did.