KKirk

Post-Coitus “I could stay here forever,” Alan announced in a voice barely above a whisper. “Uhm,” I answered barely awake, as I lay beside him on the smooth rock surface next to the hot pool. The sun, the hot water, the fabulous sex, the big lunch, our sexual work-out, the peacefulness, and the near-silence of the forest lulled me into a contented relaxation that was almost drug-like in its effects. Later, I woke when a gust of wind suddenly brought a chill to my naked tor

@Summerabbacat and @drsawzall, the further along the story goes, the more I like Alan, too. We'll have to stay the course to find out how he turns out. I have a feeling there are a few twists and turns between here and there. Thank you for the comment about the photos, @Summerabbacat. One reason I set the story in Albuquerque is because New Mexico has so many odd out-of-the-way and virtually unknown areas with very few people in them. Of course, during the lockdown, almost nobody went anywhere, but in that state you could go nearly anywhere and still be isolated. It seems the perfect location for a lockdown love affair. I love your idea of Calvin becoming a tour guide!

Hi @Tonyr. First, I want to say I am no medical professional, so if anyone in our reading circle is, perhaps they can provide a solid answer to this question. I will say, though, that it is a relatively common practice for some gay men to perform oral sex to orgasm but not to perform anal sex "bare." My understanding is that there is higher risk of HIV transmission through small tears in the skin that often occur during anal intercourse. Oral sex is considered less risky unless the active partner has open sores in the mouth that can allow transmission. Nowadays, with Prep, I guess the whole risk profile can be different. I hope I am not just muddying the waters. Any doctors or nurses out there want to comment? Please.

The day was very clear and the sunshine was the strong, direct, and unblocked sun the Southwest is known for. Some people find the area just dusty and brown, but I have always found these desert areas beautiful because there are so many unusual features just everywhere. It was around ten a.m. when I directed Alan to turn off US 550 onto NM-4 for the short drive to Jemez Springs, our destination. We had driven north about ten miles from Albuquerque, past the Sandia Hotel and Casino on the

@Mark Ponyboy Peters, I found this story sweet and fun with a wonderful little happy ending. Thank you! And for the record, I am not a fellow Aussie, but I have always felt a kinship with Australians as I am from the American Southwest, which is a lot like your Outback, I think. Anyhow, I enjoy the very slight differences in the language as well as the nuances of Aussie culture and life that are a little different. I enjoyed reading about Danny and Nate earlier and will probably be reading a lot of your work in the near future. You have a very comfortable style! Ken

I guess it’s pretty obvious I have become much more comfortable with the idea of being gay and giving BJs, and getting fucked. A week ago, I would never have dreamed of answering the question “What are you doing for the next hour?” by saying, “Getting fucked.” But I did say that to Alan that night. He chose to host our sexcapades in his room that time and we spent quite a while cuddling and me licking almost his entire body, slowly and lovingly, although I would never say that word to

Bleeding Hearts is a really beautiful story. It seems to have almost everything in 131,550 words. Killian is a teenager who befriends the new kid in school who turns out to be openly gay and gets bullied and abused and ultimately murdered for it. But Killian finds out he is (and has been) gay and is torn between his old friend Asher and a new friend Jake. And then there is Gilly, who is Asher's ex and Jake's sister. And it is chaos as all this coming of age and teenaged angst and who's doing who craziness happens. All in the shadow of an unsolved murder with a murderer the police don't seem to want to find but who keeps trying to get Killian alone. Add to this an abusive father and husband, a family you'll swear are cousins to the Munsters, a psychic who seems pretty "right-on", a ghost who visits Killian in his dreams, a murderous Halloween party, and ..... Yes, it is a very full story. And it has wonderful characters, many of whom you will love instantly, some it takes a while to grow to love, and some you will dislike immediately while some will become increasingly unpleasant. Who did it? The journey to the answer is a "long and winding road" that you will find spell-binding, I-can't-put-it-down intriguing, and full of the warmth of true love and true family whether its a family of origin or a family of choice. @empath has given us a story full of greatly drawn characters, plot twists and turns reminiscent of a roller coaster, and surrounding it all, a world in which love is sorely tested by hate but is not defeated. I can't wait to read the other stories in this series. You owe it to yourself to take this fun and exciting journey with Killian and his friends. Be sure you take your heart medication and grab a box of tissues before you start!

Thanks very much, @Josh Aterovis, for this beautiful story. I am hooked on this "universe" you have created. It's youthful and energetic, chaotic yet well organized (as far as the writing goes), sad and happy, devastating and uplifting, scary as hell and wonderful, too. I want to see everything that you have about Killian and his friends. Chronologically works best for my mind. But please don't leave anything out! Ken

@empath, I feel the need to respond to you and all your fans about this incredible story. Alas, the commentators before me have identified many wonderful aspects of the plot, the characters, and the tone of the story. So it would seem there is little to add. I would like to focus a bit on the characters. This chapter was wonderful in that you gave us a sort of status report of all the main characters in this ever-expanding community of rescuers and the rescued. In early chapters, this was a story about the amazing Roger Cicero (a very appealing initial hero for the story) and the poor waif he had set out to save from a life in prison. Now we have caring and empathetic police officers, mothers, psychologists, and even reporters who are now on a mission that seems to have lighted a passion within each one. Certainly Roger and Juan and Melissa and Sam and Dr. Fenton each seem to be finding an exciting new meaning in their own lives as they throw themselves into this extremely worthwhile cause. I'm fascinated by this plethora of characters -- the good, the bad, and the victims. (Sorry, the movie quote doesn't quite work here.) I look forward to the journey to wholeness I think we are witnessing in most of these distinct characters. Like @mikedup commented earlier, I also am afraid finding homes and help for all these victims is a daunting task. But you seem up to it, @empath. Thanks for this great story! Ken

Friday By the end of the week, Alan and I had a definite pattern going. That morning, during study time I spent a few minutes getting the gas service at the loft put into my name as well as setting up an internet package to include basic cable on the television. I realized our monthly utility bills were not going to be inconsequential. But, it was all necessities. I spent the rest of the morning on my English Lit term paper on Agatha Christie. She was a pretty interesting character

Vaughan, Thanks for your comment. I'm glad you are enjoying the story. I seem to be having trouble putting enough time into keeping it moving. Sorry it's going slowly. I hope to get a chapter ready to post tomorrow. Calvin and Alan are developing organically, so I'm not sure where the story will go. They seem to have taken on their own personas so they change and grow as they react to the situations that happen. There'll certainly be more sex and fun as well as some other kinds of interactions and experiences for each of them. I think Alan is a lot deeper than readers have yet seen. Maybe he's a closet kisser and maybe not. We'll find out! Ken

This chapter is quite a departure from the earlier parts of the story. I really enjoyed Gilly's kooky family. You showed your versatility, @Josh Aterovis. I was chuckling through most of it, but still chilled a bit by Judy's premonition. She seems to have a genuine gift which makes her unsettling pronouncement about Killian only having one path to survival, well, scary! I think Killian needs to get a gun. Or become the boyfriend of Todd. Damn, he sounds hot!

Adam's eulogy was heart-rending on several levels. For a young person like Seth to be taken, I think one of the really sad things is that they lose the chance to do so many things most of us take for granted. He'll never have a relationship. He'll never get to have the pleasure of acting and the world will never have the pleasure of experiencing his work. He'll never have all the friends he should have had and those people will never even know they missed out on a precious relationship. I was in tears throughout that service. You are giving us a great mystery, @Josh Aterovis, with wonderful characters and several who could easily turn out to be murderers, too. And you certainly know how to construct a cliff-hanger! Thanks.

Thursday The next morning, Alan and I had our usual quick blow job in the shower and breakfast at the Food Center before returning to our rooms to study separately until lunchtime. Alan had volunteered to call Brandi to tell her we want the loft and to make arrangements for getting the deposit to her and to set up our move-in date. Back in my room, I looked around to estimate how much effort it would take to pack up my stuff for the move. I judged that two hours would be sufficient,

Two sections of this chapter really stand out for me, @Josh Aterovis. I loved the conversation between Killian and his mother over dinner. In a short conversation, you gave us the whole story of her life and her motivation and her incredible strength. She is an amazing character. Let's hope that strength carries her through the days ahead as she deals with what just happened to her son and the reasons why. The second great section is the description of Killian's walk up to the lake, the attack, and his finding Seth. From a writing perspective, it is incredibly real, very tightly written, very dramatic, scary as hell, and an incredible cliff-hanger. It's late and I need to go to bed, but nope, I'm going to the next chapter now. Awesome job, Josh!