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  1. xander

    Good Ole Mrs. G

    By xander,

    Traveling back to my 7th and 8th grade years, back to middle school, and into science class we find the best, most inspirational teacher that I have had in my whole life. That would be Mrs. G. I was kinda teachers pet but she, in a way, treated everyone like that, but me a touch more. Anyway, I've kept in touch with her and talk to her every so often (she's Xander's friend Moses' owner...the teachers house that I went to that day, yea).
     
    Getting back to that in a moment....Tis the season to be jolly....I made gingerbread cookies and gave them to my teachers as a little Christmas gift and I of course had to give Mrs. G some. After school, after I had delivered all the cookies, I drove over to the middle school and waited for her to get out of a meeting with the principal. She lets me in from the outside door that's sposed to be exit only, but hey, I'm teachers pet lol. I give her the cookies and say Merry Christmas and we start talking...we talked about a bunch of stuff and I had told her a few times about what Whorena has done between Justin and I, and she asks me how things are with Justin. I told her the little cable station/Justin's mom story and she kept looking at me like she was trying to pull something out of me, before she eventually changed the subject. I think she knows that I'm gay....I think she was trying to pull it out of me, and that one of the main reasons I get so hurt when something bad happens with him is that I love him...Justin was in my 7th grade science class and she knew we are best friends...always sat next to each other and worked together and stuff. I think she would be a good person to come out to because she's one of the few adults that I'm really close to and I know she would never think anything less of me, heck I think she's waiting for and wants me to tell her. Just a thought, but to be honest, I have trouble giving a speech in front of a few people, I don't know how I'd ever tell someone I'm close to that I'm gay.
  2. xander
    Well I hated that I had to do it, but today I took Xander to the vet to get his "testiculars" removed . I didn't want to, believe me...I wanted to let him be a little naughty at least once in his life, but sadly, all he got was to hump the air above his friend Moses' leg.
     
    I knew this was coming when we kept Xander, because obviously animals are animals and we didnt want any inbred puppies. I tried sticking up for Xander a few times by saying 1) that it's my dog house and kennel, and 2) for that reason, my dog shouldnt have to get fixed, Jayne should get fixed, because 3) where we're living now, we wouldnt be able to let Jayne have the puppies, because our landlord was kinda hesitant about letting us keep Xander because we hadnt let him know about him, only Jayne and Oreo ... BUUUUUT, they brought up an interesting point that even if Jayne couldnt get pregnant, that getting the male fixed makes them lose interest, and it would still be nasty if he was humping his mommy...
     
    Anyway, I took him there this morning, gave him a bunch of hugs and kissies and told him good bye until tomorrow after school. I hope he's still the same little loveable pup that I fell in love with ...oh I remember when he could fit in the palms of my hands....I used to go steal him from Jayne and let him sleep on my bed while I was on my computer....he knew his name before his eyes were even open...I would lay him on his back on my bed covered up and he would fall asleep...then I would say "Xander!" in a high pitched voice and he would roll over onto his stomach and try to sniff for me since he couldnt see yet... Oh I hope he still acts the same and is always glad to see me like he is now...my little buddy....
     
    Here's a picture of him for those who've never seen him:
     



    Xander at 3 and a half months...

     



    I snuck out the backdoor and got this awesome

    picture of him sleeping...it was after a long day

    of humping the air above Moses' leg and going

    to see Justin and stuff...

  3. xander
    Okay, as you all know, I'm in love with my best friend Justin....and you all know that even if I could get up enough courage to tell him at least that I'm gay, he's been seduced by an evil siren whore aka Whorena. But then theres still the chances that he's not gay :( ... well last Friday and up until today, our chorus class has been excused from regular classes for our christmas concert rehearsal. There's this kid that sits next to me named Brandon and he's kinda cute and over the past couple days we've kinda became in a way friends. If you just heard some of the shit he said, you would swear he's gay...he like refers almost everything back to "cock"..."god that smells like cock"...."that stuff tastes like cum"...he says it most likely, kiddingly, but it's as if he was trying to hint to me that he's gay or something. And he kept wanting me to get up and go to the pop machines with him, so I have been and stuff. We were talking about Ron White and I was repeating his homophobe story thing...for your ammusement, goes something like this...
     
    This one guy I know is like a huge homophobe, and let me tell you that's like one of the stupidest things you can be. I say to him,
     
    "we're all gay, its just to what extent are you gay"
    "I aint gay!"
    "Okay then. Tell me something, do you like porn?
    "Yea, I love porn, why?"
    "Well do you only like scenes with two women?"
    "No, I like seeing a man and a woman making love"
    "Well do you like the man to have a small, semi-flaccid penis?"
    "No, I like big, hard, throbbin COCK! ......... I did not know that about myself..."
     
    And then after him saying all the stuff he had said, he's like (before I told the whole story, he interupted me at "homophobe"), "I'm a huge homophobe" And I thought Justin sent weird vibes...
     
    That was today during rehearsal, then tonight at our concert, he was saying more stuff like that, and he was saying that different things were making him horny ... oo la la ... lol .... if anything I think he's bi because he, I can tell, definately likes girls too...but I'd like to get to know some other gay guys at school and stuff...theres for sure one openly gay guy at my school, but I've never talked to him, he's always hanging around girls and stuff, and he seems like a cool guy to get to know...I kinda made one of my kinda-friends look like an asshole one day about him...the gay guy is in his genetics class and he was saying something about getting partnered up by the teacher for something and he says, "I'm glad I wasnt his partner". I say with a completly smirk-less face, "Why?"...he's like, after a few seconds pause, "I'm not a homophobe, its just that..its...yea.." and he shut up, realizing he had already made an ass of himself. Then there's this RJ (like 18-19 I think) I used to work with at KFC...he was sooo cute and had a great smile. I never found out if he was gay, a few people had said he was, and I had kinda suspected it, but its not like I was gonna go and ask him. I find out the other night that he lives two blocks down from me, and I had seen him outside and he told me to come over sometime...I'd like to, but we used to live in the apartment building he lives in, and it used to have roaches and that is not a memory I want to relive...lol..
     
    So I guess the point of all my jumbling is what if Justin isnt gay ? I've kinda been reserving myself incase he is, and I think I've hurt a few people in the process , and I dont want to do that anymore. But I guess I need to consider if he isnt .....yea...just thinkin and confused guys...
  4. xander
    Well as all of you know, Lorena is a decietful bitchy whore. Well even though she hates me like I hate her, she always has me on her list of people to send random crap or links to. Today, I get an email from her that was also addressed to like 20 other people to a crushcalculator.com. I didn't think anything of it, and when ever I come across those, I check to see how much the logic in the html code feels Justin and I are compatible. Well this particular one claims that it can tell you compatibility ratings for up to 3 people at a time, but I didnt think much of that, or that there was a number combo in the url. I type in my name and Justin's name and am about to click go when I decide to see how compatible it says Justin and Lorena are first, because those two are like the least compatible couple I've ever seen. So I type in her name as "my name" and Justin's name as the crush's name. I click go and it says:
     
    Ha! You've been fooled by Lorena! Your crushes' names have been sent to Lorena's email: lorenasemail@emailhost.com!
     
    !!!!!!
     
    Can you imagine what would have happened if I had typed in Justin's name under my name!!! OMG!! GEEZ...She hates me and tries her best as it is to break up me and his bond, and believe me that would not be my favorite way to come out to my best friend that I love . I guess I could have tried to say something like I had done it before and just typed that in to mess with Lorena's head, but I dunno.. Yup, God is with me....
     
    I'm gonna send the webmaster of that site a piece of my mind, believe me!
  5. xander

    Kick ice

    By xander,

    "Get up Ron, you gotta get up early so you can start the car and have it warmed up"
    "Yea, I'm gettin up"
     
    I shower, get dressed and go and start the car around 7:00. I come inside, get a bowl of dog food for Xander, go out and feed him and come back inside. I get all my school stuff ready and by this time my brother is just getting out of the shower.
     
    "Hurry up, remember I gotta get there by 7:45 for early bird!"
    "I'm hurryin, shut up" he says.
     
    "Did you feed your dogs!?" mom says.
    "Yes, I did"
    "Oh shit" my brother said.
    "What you gonna feed Jayne" mom says. (I fed his dog for about 3 months and lets just say I'm sick of supporting his, I-dont-care-if-I-get-my-brother-paid-back,-who-i-just-happed-to-owe-about-$250, ass)
     
    So he went out in the freezing weather to feed Jayne a salami, bread and marshmallow silage, and I was about to walk out the door. Here comes Xander running for the door, but I was too late to close it, sneaks in and runs through the house with his poopy paws . I run to get him out of the bathroom and tell my brother to go put him back in the kennel. We finally get in the car to leave for school and luckily the window is defrosted. It's now 7:35 and I knew I could make it, and even if I couldnt the icy roads wouldnt really allow me to speed.
     
    I pull around the corner of the school and see that the parking lot is bare.
     
    "Where the heck is everyone? Is school canceled? Turn on the radio." I tell my brother.
     
    Just as he gets it to the right station, I'm pulling up to some crazy person walking in front of the school.
     
    "Mr. Hillesland (English teacher from last year)!!"
    "Oh hi Ron."
    "What time is school closed till?"
    "I'm not sure, probably a few hours late"
    "Oh okay, thanks"
     
    "....closed. Pierre, Virmillion, Watertown, Hamlin, Clark, all closed. That's the first time I've ever heard all those closed folks."
     
    So I get home and go inside and call the radio station to see if schools closed all day. Yep it is! Snow day!...er..more like Ice and Wind Day!!
     
    Well it seems God likes procrastinators because I didnt get my 130 pages read over the 4 1/2 day weekend... ...heh...
  6. xander

    Who's got the license now?

    By xander,

    I don't know how many of you I told, but a couple weeks ago I had the most minor fender bender possible - I pull up behind a lady at a stop light and I dint realize how close I was and I bumped her maybe going 5 mph and put a tiny scratch, thas it, on her fender...the lady was really pissed at first but she was really surprisingly nice to me by the cop had wasted half our night away. The f**kin cop gave me a $94 ticket for careless driving to be an asshole and another ticket that shouldnt have been in my name...good ol mom didnt have insurance on our (her's, my name on it) car, so they said that if we had insurance, we could just go get it taken care of, otherwise we had to be there in court and crap. So I miss about 2 and a half hours of school while they go through all the cases ahead of me....all the under the influence drivers, all the insufficiant funds check writers, all the robbery/breaking and entering....before they finally get to the traffic violations, mine first. We go up there and we were gonna try and give a sap story that I'm a good kid and all that , because I am, believe it or not, and my mom said she would do most of the talking. When we got up there, my mom asked her if she could speak and she said no, lol. She kind of just ignored the careless driving one till the end and skipped to the no insurance. We/I explained that I didnt know we didnt have insurance and that we wished that the no-insurance one be re-enstated in her name so it wouldnt ruin my record so early, because that clearly wasnt my fault... I admit the other was, but that other wasnt. The judge was really nice and lowered my fine to $50 and put the no insurance in her name, gave her a $100 fine and took her license away for 30 days. Ha! I love it! She used to never let me drive a whole lot but who's got the license now ma? AND, she had to go blab to my aunt and a few of her friends about my "accident" if you could even call it that, right after it happened, and they all said that MY license would probably be revoked! Lol, it was a better day than I thought it would be, yep .
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    lol, not like that, but I just have to say, did I call that one or what...
     
     
    Okay, heres what I mean. Sherry (Justin's mom) works at the cable station, and my mom went there the other day to pay our bill, and her and my mom got talking. Well I've obviously told my mom about some of the stuff that's gone on with Justin and her . My mom gets home and tells me that all on her own, Justin's mom started talking about Lorena, and that her and Curt don't like Lorena, and that theyre trying to get Justin to break up with her!! I LOVE U SHERRY! lol
     
    Lorena is always pressuring him and now his mom and dad are pressuring him, so if they can do their paternal and maternal magic, I'll be more than willing to back off for a while.
     
    So definately the best news I've heard in a while...yup.
  8. xander

    Great day wasnt it?

    By xander,

    Before I say about today, I want to tell about last night.
     
    So last night was our chorus concert, and Justin evidently got a ride with this weird kid we kinda know named Shawn, because he's giving him guitar lessons, but he doenst know that much himself, so I guess it's like the blind leading the blind. After our group sang, Justin and him went to leave, and that kind of bothered me because it was a Lorena free night, so I thought maybe him and I could hang out a while, but I knew Shawn wasnt really competition so I just shrugged it off and went to watch the rest of the concert. Well I was sitting next to my aunt and she asked me to go give my baby second cousin's baby seat to my cousin so that my other cousin could get her vehicle back or something. As I'm exiting the auditorium, I see Justin, Shawn and this hot guy named Allan talking. This really caught my attention because my watching him every so often in chorus, I assumed Allan was a prep and stuck up and stuff. So, I went over and said hey and evidently my prep-dar is broken and this Allan is really cool, and now my only way of knowing if ia person is a prep is watching for people wearing only Hurley, Abercrombie and Fitch, and Quik Silver shirts, lol. Justin was talking about some crazy idea to start a band, and while he's talented on keyboard, none of us really know how to play anything, although it'd be interesting seeing that Allan playing his violin (he's in orchestra) in a band . So as the classic moral goes: don't judge a possible prep by watching from afar (or more classical, a book by his cover...lol).
     
    TODAY WAS LIKE THE BEST DAY I'VE HAD IN A LONG TIME! I had made plans with my old teacher/mentor, if you will, to come show her my puppy, Xander , because she hasnt't seen him since he's been like a month or so old and he's 4 months the 18th. I took him there and him and their dog, Moses, played good for a while (and Xander's horomones kicked in a few times, for the first time, and he tried "humping" Moses while he was laying down ). Well then she had to take Moses to get his shots so I was driving home, and I decided to swing by Justin's and let him see Xander while getting to see him. We talked outside for a while and Justin started talking that his back tire was low on air, and it was...it almost looked flat! So he asks me if I want to run to the gas station with him, so he goes and tells his dad that we're going. I was pretty damn sure most gas stations had an air gauge, but Justin's dad dint think so, so we tied Xander in back and go anyway. We get to the gas station and ask them if they have a tire gauge. They did (ha! take that Curt ). We fill up his tires to 44 PMI and go back. After a little while, Justin said something I didn't expect him to - if he could come over later. I wanted him to so bad, but my mom SUCKS with a capital SUCK at keeping up house, not that she's bad at it, its just that she doesnt do it period . So I negotiate with him that I'll go home, clean up and then I'd call for him. It took me about an hour and a half to clean the entire house because my mom still had boxes and crap from when we moved sitting out, and we had like 5 chairs, a couch and a loveseat in our living room because we recently got the couch and loveseat and the obsessive compulsive mom didnt want to take her chair down to the basement. Well screw you mom, I did it anyway. I got it all cleaned, I'm talking litterally almost spotless, and I call him to tell him he can come. He quick called his mom to double check and didnt call back, but instead shows up 10 min later with his guitar. We messed on the keyboard for a while, then played the PS2, I made us a gourmet meal (hotdogs wrapped in a wet paper towel microwaved then put in a piece of bread with mustard, canned corn with margarine and salt, and a glass of hot ovaltine ) and then after about 2 hours or so after him being there, my mom gets home. Well when I made that food, I didnt eat much because 1. I dont eat pork or margarine, and 2. The grand opening of our Applebees was supposed to be tonight, but it wasnt so my mom and dad decided to order pizza. We invited Justin to stay for pizza and we watched a movie while we where eating, but half way through his mom called and told him to come home because they needed to go to Wally World to get groceries. My mom speaks up and say that she needs to have me get some stuff too, so suggests that I go with them. So to make all that you didnt care to read above short, I got to spend from about 4:10 till almost 11 with my best friend, the entirety being Whorena free (the nice thing about us hangin at my house is that she can't call to check up and keep him from spending time with me).
     
    *Sigh* Yep it was a good day
  9. xander

    The b**** must die!

    By xander,

    Lol, sorry about my rage in the title. For those of you who know about the Justin and Lorena deal (those of you who don't can ask Val, Viv, Joey, Jules and proble a few others that i forgot, lol, sorry, I just don't feel like explaining that part again), the whore has struck again. This happened on Halloween but I want to write about it anyway.
     
    So I go over to Justin's house around 7 pm Halloween night with my mom's van. I knock on the door to make him (he usually hands out the candy) think I was a trick or treater. Adding to my costume from homecoming's "hippie day", I was dressed up as a zombie hippie....long sleeve tie die shirt, baggy jeans, bandanna around my forehead and the glasses, of course. Well I guess I wasnt really the zombie part yet, cause my mom failed me after I asked her to buy washable markers and baby powder . So I guess I was a hippie at that point. He lets me in and lo and behold "Whor-ena" is there. Well I try and ignore Lorena as much as I could and she kept like fooling around with Justin, in my opinion not because of no reason, that theyre going out, but rather to spite me, because I think she either knows that I'm gay and have a thing for Justin or that I'm really longing for some time with my friend. Well his mom went way out on outdoor AND indoor decorations ( to you Sherry) and she's like the coolest mom probably ever, btw. His whole family is cool, except it bothers me too that Justin's dad always thinks that he's stupid or did something wrong. Anyway, his mom and his sister and her friends were all getting ready to go out trick or treating, and last year me and Justin went with them with the excuse that "we were helping taking them" and getting candy too , lol. Since I assumed this, I asked Sherry to help me with the zombie part of my costume. She was gonna try getting me to put on a white facial creme but I more less said, "gee...u kno vat? uh uh". So I suggest flour and she agrees that would be better. Then she let me use this really dark make up around my eyes and I feathered it and looked really cool. I go outside with Justin and Lorena, and Lorena was filming the house and his sister and friends coming out with Sherry's camera. We screw around for a few minutes and then Justin and Lorena start walking towards his car. So I say in a subtle tone, "...so what's going on?" He says, "Uh, we're gonna go to her house....so I'll talk to you tomorrow". So my best friend ditched me again, leaves me outside standing there by myself with his family inside. I probably could have gone with them and his mom could of comforted me because I think she wonders about Lorena sometimes too, but I was so hurt, I just went home. Anyway, I havent talked to him since that night...I don't know what to do.... Viv kind of gave me her advice last night, and I liked her idea, which was give him some space and not make him feel forced to do stuff, like Lorena commonly does, that he might find comfort in that. I most likely will try that as I can see her reasoning in it. I just want my best friend back and Lorena out of the picture.
     
    Theres my week in a nutshell.
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