Hurray for thread necromancy, yeah?
Lasting...its cliche, but reading DD made me look at my relationship again, especially when Rory and Seth were facing the possibility of having a whole state separating them, making the ability to physically be with each other impossible...
Its stupid in a stupid way (how redundant is that, but then that's long distance love for you.)
I can see so much of Seth in my semi-partially-separated-ex that I'm still with. He's always been sweet and caring and always looking out for me even when he's mad at me. Hell, he even kinda looks like Seth in my head, with the hair anyways. I just look at him and I think about what Seth said in DD, about how they'll not find anyone while they're apart if Rory left for Nevada again, and that if they did then they'd cross that bridge when they got there... I think about whether he'd be able to come back to me the way Seth seemed so certain he could, and it worries me that after half a decade I can't actually answer that question.
I guess its because I see so much of Aaron in him too; even when he's treating me like I'm the only thing in the world to him, part of me wonders if its just because I'm "available" and he needs someone to boost his ego and be his "boyfriend". He's always gotten some kind of perverse pleasure in making fun of me, but I always thought it was in jest and he was just killing the tension...maybe it was his way of telling me to let go and leave him alone? I'd hate to think that it was all a lie though, but I can't seem to shake that thought from my mind, especially of late...
Awww hell, who am I kidding? I'm nowhere near able to decide stuff like this, I can't even explain to myself what I feel for him right now, much less try to analyze what he feels about me. But dragging this back on topic, Rory's whole situation, while not identical, was similar enough to make me question and wonder about my own admittedly bizarre, self-inflicted position.