Kiss And Make Up - 1. Chapter 1

It must've been the way he said hi to me that day in gym class, or the way he always asked me to join him for lunch, that made me think that I actually had a chance with Kevin. What was I thinking? He was straight as an arrow, Mr. All-American good guy. It was downright sickening at times. He was just so...so..."Normal"!!! Why couldn't I have the gorgeous body, the pearly white teeth, the beautiful girlfriend, and brains to match?!?! Instead, I became Jeremy, the homosexual dork! If my friends and family ever found out...my life would be over. Literally over. I know that I'm 13 years old and that I'm supposed to feel insecure and uneasy, but that doesn't help any. I hated my light brown hair, my brittle 5' 5" body, my green eyes, my squeaky voice...from head to toe I was just...wrong! And to think, I still had ZITS to look forward to! Oh yeah, that'll help! But for some reason, some unknown reason, whenever I was around Kevin, everything seemed magnificent. Kevin made me feel beautiful, even confident. He was the center of my universe, but he was as untouchable as the sky itself.

Ohhhh, but if you had seen him! Man, woman, gay, straight, animal, vegetable, or mineral...if you laid eyes on this teen hunk, you were hooked. He was a little taller than me, and even though it didn't show at all on his soft body, he had the muscles of an athlete. For an 8th grader he was pure heaven! He had these dark brown eyes that just...they were so...well, they were pretty. Let's just leave it at that. He had this short, cocoa brown hair that was always perfect in every way! And he had these loose strands that occasionally slid across his forehead when he moved! I was so tempted to just lightly brush those loose strands back into place and kiss the soft skin underneath. His nose was so perfectly smooth that it was almost non existent on his face. His lips were deliciously plump and completed the picture of limitless beauty that Kevin had to offer. His voice was so cool. It had this little lift to it that made every word he spoke sound like Shakespearean verse. His hands were soft and thin, and he never had a speck of dirt under his nails! His legs were completely void of any hair, and his creamy thighs looked like squeezable pillows, tender and full. His butt was built for gym shorts! His cheeks looked like soft gelatin treats that wiggled slightly when he ran. Can you tell that I'm a bit infatuated with this boy yet? I loved him with every piece of my being (some pieces more than others!). But there was one big obstacle that stood in the way of my chances with him. One thing that screwed up my logic and prevented me from even fantasizing about being wrapped in Kevin's warm embrace. Her name was Kelly!

Kelly was undoubtedly the cutest girl in school, or so I assume. She was the blond bombshell that every guy in class had drooled over one time or another. And out of all the guys in the world who wanted her, she decided to dig her meat hooks into the object of MY affections! The two of them had been dating for about a month now, that's gotta be some kind of record for junior high. And unfortunately, the two of them were happy. Some people believe that I should be happy that he's happy and that's what true love is all about...I usually tell those people to shut up. That's a load of bullshit! I'm hurting here! The worse part was that Kevin wasn't only the love of my life, but he was also one of my best friends. He knew that I had a rough time meeting people on my own, so he always called me over to his table and introduced me to his friends so I could share his popularity spotlight. He would ask me to go to the movies with him and I'd get all excited. Then, sure enough, he brought HER with him! Next thing you know, I'm trying to mentally block out the sounds of them making out next to me. God...how could he hurt me more? They were even necking during "5th Element"! What's so romantic about Bruce Willis shooting aliens in the head?!?! There were even times when I'd see her drop one of her arms into his lap and feel him up while he moaned and gyrated in his seat. At that point I started to tear up and had to run to the bathroom before either of them saw me. Not that they cared.

I don't think Kevin purposely set out to hurt me, but that didn't make the pain go away. I don't know what bothered me more, that he was with someone else, that Kelly had possession of the only man I've ever truly loved, or that the both of them had somebody to love and I was left out in the cold. It was unmerciful torture! But Kevin never slacked in the friendship department. He never missed a birthday, never let me walk home alone without shouting out "Hey! Wait up!", and he never let me eat lunch alone. I guess I owe him for all the friends I had in school. If it weren't for him, I could have easily slinked off into some dark corner and become a recluse for my entire academic career. But instead, he brought me into the light. He made me well known, and soon I couldn't walk down the hallways without people saying hello. People I didn't know...but people nonetheless. I even had kids kissing up to me to get in good with Kevin and Kelly, and it felt nice for a while. But finally, after an entire month of being repeatedly hurt and emotionally bruised by these two, after watching them kiss and cuddle in front of me, of having them stare through me to see each other, I decided that I'd had enough! I refused to have my heart trampled on anymore! Forget it! This is it! I'm a person with feelings damnit! And I refuse to bear the pain any more!

It only took a week or two to finally give Kevin the idea that I didn't want him around anymore. He seemed to be kind of hurt and he kept calling me to ask what he did wrong, but I never gave him a reason. He was always trying to talk to me or high five me, but it was too late for that now! He even stopped hanging out with Kelly so much...but it was too late for that too!I played it cool, and just avoided him one hundred percent. He didn't need me, he had everything. He just kept me around to rub my nose in it! Just an ugly little hunchback to make him feel better about himself. Well the hell with that...I'm glad he's hurt! After what I've been through, he deserves it. The problem was that now I didn't have anything to do after school. Sure, he still tried to sit with me at lunch, or catch up to me when I walked home, but I just couldn't stand him anymore.

By the end of the second week, my anger turned soft and I started wishing that I could have him in my life again. I would see him in the halls, and he'd try to hurry over and see me, but I'd always duck out or hide in the crowd so he couldn't find me. It hurt to do it, but I had to stick my ground if I was ever going to get Kevin out of my head for good. I wanted him soooo bad though! The further I distanced myself from him, the more I wanted him, the more I dreamed about him. It was like going through a sexual withdrawl. Thank goodness for masturbation!

One day, in my math class as I was nodding off, someone passed me a note. Some goofy kid that must have been acting as one of Kevin's many grade school lackeys passed me a note from him. I opened it and it said, "Hey man...meet me at the gas station around the corner after school. We need to talk. Miss you buddy! -Kevin"

I was almost excited and my heart started speeding up, but then I remembered all the times that I got my hopes up and was let down. So I calmed myself, crumpled up the note, and tossed it in the trash. I wasn't going to meet him anywhere, I was going home.

I walked home that day, wondering if this would be the last day that I heard from him. I wondered if he'd just let me go my own way if I stood him up today. I imagined his lovely features turned up in a frown of sadness and walking away from the gas station feeling the same rejection that I had felt all those times before. And I almost felt sorry for him, but hey...let KELLY comfort him! That's HER job anyway! They've probably already started fucking each other's brains out already! Next they'll be asking me to bring condoms and watch!

As I neared my driveway I noticed someone sitting on my back porch. It was Kevin. "What are you doing here?" I asked him.

"I know you got the note Jeremy." He said. Even with eyes full of rage, he still looked beautiful to me. He seemed sad, but there was a sense of determination in his voice. "What's the matter?"

"Your note said to meet you at the gas station. Suppose I had gone over there and not found you? Was this your idea of a joke?"

"I knew you wouldn't go over there. I know you Jeremy, and you were just going to ignore me and head home so I figured I'd just meet you here! Now...talk to me man. What did I do?" His voice was pleading. It was so sexy...not that I was giving in!

"Dude, I don't want to talk about this now." I turned my back on him and refused to look him in the eye. I knew that one sensuous gaze from those soft brown eyes and I'd be putty in his hands.

"Jeremy...don't...I thought we were friends. Don't tune me out. Please? C'mon, if you're not even gonna talk to me how am I gonna stop doing whatever it is that's bothering you?" He took a step closer to me. "Jer...I...why do you hate me so much? It's Kelly isn't it?"

"I don't hate you Kevin. I just don't want to be your little chaperone anymore. You guys make out all the time, it gets old after a while." I still had my back to him, and I could feel him moving closer. I could feel his breath on the back of my neck and I realized that he must have been pretty close! I shivered involuntarily and felt my body start to feel cold and jittery. He didn't make a sound and his silence sent a weird chill up my spine. But I refused to be duped again and stepped away from him.

He started again, "Jeremy, all I want..." He stammered, walked away from me and then walked back on the porch. He paced back and forth so nervously that I peeked over my shoulder to see if he was alright. "The way I feel for her is so different from the way I feel for you."

I didn't answer, he just kept fumbling on his own. "Look...if you want me to break up with her...then it's done. She's gone. She's history. I just want to be buddies with you again...like before. That mean's everything to me"

I thought about it, seriously, but then it hit me...it was true! If he wasn't happy, I wasn't happy. Awww shit! The double edged sword stabbed me right through the heart and now I was being forced to give up the most important thing in my life. "You...you don't have to dump your girlfriend for me Kevin..." I whispered, hoping that he wouldn't hear me say the evil words.

"J..J..Jeremy...I want to tell you...." He was shaking so much that his voice was wavering. I turned around and his face was a deep shade of purple. He was terrified and clammy. He didn't look like he could breathe and I asked him to come inside and get something to drink. He tried to sip some soda out of the glass, but his shaky hands were causing it to dribble over the sides. What was going on here? If only the school could see their popular glory hound reduced to this sweaty, stuttering, mess. He kept babbling and I started to wonder if this is what epileptics look like before having a seizure. "Jer...um...I have to tell you...you know when you're with a girl and you start to feel all nervous...and then you want to...do..um stuff?"

What the hell was he talking about? "Dude, what the hell are you talking about?"

"...um...sometimes...I feel that way when I'm not around girls...sometimes...like when we go to the movies and stuff...well you...I mean...not that I'm...you know..."

"Okay man, you've totally lost your marbles. You're not making any sense. Just spit it out." I said.

He cleared his throat, straightened up and said with a shocked look on his face, "Jeremy...I want to do it with you!"

"Do what?"

"I...want you...I l..l..love you." The look he gave me filled in all the blanks. Was this another set up? Was he gonna burst out laughing and have Kelly jump out of the closet with a video camera? This didn't make sense at all.

"Y...y..you want...ME? I don't understand..." He ran over and grabbed me around the waist and hugged me tight. It was kind of scary! He was holding on to me for dear life and chanting, "I love you Jeremy! I really love you! I didn't know how to say it! I'm sorry, but it's true! Please don't shut me out!"

I had to calm him down a little bit before he loosened his grip on me. I think he realized what he was doing and he jumped back away from me. I saw tears in his eyes and he was wiping them away as fast as he could. Like I was gonna forget what just happened. We stood in the kitchen for a good five minutes before I said, "....okay."

"What?"

"I'll do it...with you that is." I said, holding back my sudden burst of excitement. I didn't let on how much I wanted him, I almost made him feel like I was doing him a favor. It was almost a complete reversal of the past few years that I've known him. He seemed to ease up a bit and then he walked over to me. I trembled with every step he took in my direction, and he lightly rubbed the side of my face. His hands were pure magic against my skin, giving me goosebumps all over my body! "Okay...cool..." he said, a smile breaking out on his face. I noticed one of those loose strands of brown hair on his forehead, and I slowly but surely wiped it out of the way. His warm breath landed on my face in short bursts and I saw him leaning in to kiss me. This was it, the big moment! I was finally going to taste the sweet kisses that were saved just for Kelly. His tender lips touched mine and it sucked the energy from my body! I had never felt so weak or helpless in my life! He had to catch me to keep me from falling.

"You..uh..look like you're enjoying this!" Kevin said with a shy smile.

"Yeah, well...anything for a friend." He laughed and laid me down on the kitchen floor. He lowered himself down on me gently, supporting himself on his elbows. making him seem almost weightless to me. He kissed me again, deep and hard this time. I suddenly saw what Kelly liked so much about this teen dream! I reached my arms around his sexy waist and grabbed his ass, pulling him down on my crotch. He moaned erotically as his passionate kisses moved down to my neck. He whispered how good it felt to finally have me. I asked if it was as good as Kelly.

"I've never had sex with Kelly." He said rubbing his hardening package against mine.

"Never?"

"Never. I want my first time to be with you. My first love." I couldn't believe that I was going to be his first and he was going to be mine! He always made me feel beautiful, popular, confident, needed...and the fact that he saved this most sacred experience for me made me feel alive! I brought his mouth up to mine and kissed him as hard as I possibly could! Love and sexual frustration combined into raw lust as I reached down and pulled his pants over the round hump of his buttocks. We never broke our lip lock, our tongues fought to be on top of one another! His now exposed cock worked its way up my shirt and I felt cool drops of pre-cum dripping onto my belly! He started grinding into my stomach and I felt his soft balls rubbing over my belly button! There we were, friends, enemies, lovers...pumping and grinding like rabbits on my mom's kitchen floor! I only wish I could hold him closer! There was no limit to the amount of pleasure that I was feeling at that moment, and I felt my body take control.

Kevin's warm hard cock slid back and forth against my own, and my mouth watered for it. I rolled him over and grabbed his cock in my hand. It was hard as a rock with a soft outer covering that twitched in my hand. I felt his testicles and explored his genitals delicately for a few moments before bringing my mouth to his shaft. He closed his eyes and waited for me to take it in. He inhaled quickly as I tasted his warm flesh for the first time. The taste of it was indescribable! It was so hot and clean! It had a mixed flavor of rising youth and steamy passion! I rubbed and squeezed his pliable thighs as I started bobbing on his silky cock! I took the whole thing in my mouth and held it for a minute! He grabbed two handfuls of my hair as I rubbed my nose back and forth across his pubic bone, my hot wet mouth still full of his manhood! Instead of bobbing, I just held it there, running my tongue along the underside of his shaft, my suction causing my lips and tonsils to knead his cock muscles rhythmically! He couldn't take any more and his hips lifted off of the floor as he filled my mouth with hot cream! I had always dreamed of doing this, and yet it wasn't half as god as actually getting the opportunity! I became light headed as I slurped away at my young lovers spent penis! Mmmmm...it was soooo good!

I gasped loudly as I felt his skillful hand grab my cock and start jerking it quickly! I suddenly lost focus of everything else and just fell to my side to let him work his magic! He put his face down by my cock, his hand becoming a blur as my dick attempted to hold out as long as it could! He fit his lips tightly over the head and I screamed out loud! He began humming and whimpering eagerly as he waited for my load to blow! I reached down and squeezed his ass with one hand! He sucked harder and that was all I could take! I burst like a fire hose into Kevin's mouth! Visions of me and him in the park, at the movies, in the lunchroom, and every other place we went together flashed in my mind and I was totally, unavoidably in love with him forever!

He finally slowed his hand and kissed his way back up my chest and to my face. We made out for so l that I'm sure I had more than tripled Kelly's record! I kept my hands on his spongy ass cheeks the whole time, letting my fingers dip slightly in his crack occasionally. Feeling his naked body against me was more than I could have ever hoped for. Our hearts beat in unison and I could feel the vibes as he rest himself on top of me.

Kevin finally spoke, "Jeremy, thank you for this. It was awesome! Say...you don't really mind if we still hang out from time to time do you? I mean...you don't mind that I'm bisexual?"

I looked into his beautiful brown eyes and kissed him affectionately on his cushioned lips. Then I whispered...

"...I suppose I can live with that."